Why can't I be normal

YOU ARE SAFE!!! You hear me?... Lol. It's YOUR mind!!! Use it for positive instead of negative?!! Fake it until you make it remember!!!! Sending you love n hugs. X

I worry more about being victimized by the NHS then the prospect of a life-long debilitating disease.. when I present my medical complaint to a generalist physcian they clinically observe and physcially examine me failing to acknowledge the complexity & feasiablity of clinically diagnosing patients as often symptoms are non specific: subtle, vague, broad, overlapping, and indistinguishable which ideally requires throrough clinical and medical assessment in determining the causality yet Generalist Physcians lack the necessary control & discreation over the quality and standard of treatment they deliver to their patients failing to deliver an individual, tailored, and personal health care service instead follow a set of clinical guidance and pathways set out by national institue for health and care excellence (NICE) providing cost minimalist/essential medical assessment: ECG & NHS General Health Screening seemingly seen to fulfil their legal obligation of duty of care to the patient yet is not definitive, comprehensive, or conclusive personally feel is not sufficient in ruling out physiological causes yet forever used to edge towards an anxiety diagnosis categorizing patient as worried well suffering with hypercondia (psychological disorder) which they fail to refer me for appropriate treatment (cognitive behavioral therapy) instead continually opt for low cost options such as waitful watching, verbal reassurance, and prescription which I've come to learn as no further action, false assurances, and symptom suppressants leading me to believe what they're unable to assess & treat medically they dismiss & suppress clinically

My generalist physcian fails to fulfil his primary role as a GP Consultant - to provide expert and professional advise yet beyond the initial reasons for my visit, clinical observation and physcial examination they fail to demonstrate any level of medical knowledge yet subject patient to dismissive, trival, prejudice, & discrimitive attidudes dismissing my vascular & circulatory health concerns and trivalising my symptoms largely based on young age overlooking dietary & lifestyle habits in favor of age and family history to support their low risk assessments at best provided with cost minimialist/essential medical assessment ECG & General NHS Screening which if fails to provide abnormal result they cease to investigate your symptoms as medical assessment is typically used for probable diagnosis (confirmation) pronounced / undeniable symptoms and not as a means to diagnose the causality of symptoms.. I lack confidence in Generalist Physcians as they fail to demonstrate any level of medical knowledge and fail to acknowledge the complexity & feasibility of clinically diagnosing patient often subjected to dismissive, trival, prejudice, and discriminative, attitudes through my experince I've seen nothing which suggests they've my health in their best interests instead seems in alignment with their cost saving agendas, implicit rationing, and incentivized referral reduction schemes.. you cannot rely on the NHS your health concerns are to complex (time consuming) and financially expensive for generalist physicians and specialist to resolve.. I strongly advise improving dietary & lifestyle habits receiving necessary calorific & nutritional requirements on a dailiy baisis setting clearly defined objectives and utilising dietary & exercise journals to log, track, and monitor progress which should increase energy levels, improve confidence, self-esteem, reduce stress, anxiety, depression etc. DO NOT RELY on the NHS they will fail to deliver and disappoint you we're in an information and service economy which you should take advantage off and invest all your time in recovey focusing on improving your dietary & lifestyle habits which ultimately will improve your energy and necessary vitamins & minimals should increase your red blood cell count increasing oxygen delivered to individual cells.. you can be normal you just have to start working towards it!