Why can't I escape the pain of depression

Don't worry Gillian, I know it's easier said than done. But you do have days like that, I know I always felt my life was on hold and everyone else enjoyin their selfs and moving on to big things. Set yourself goals or things to look forward too. 

A better day is only round the corner hang in there. 

Xx

Hi Gillian sorry to hear your sorrow. You give such wonderful advice to others in your posts. You really are a lovely person full of empathy. Please please keep hopeful. My depression lasted about 5 months and then it lifted. It lifted as quietly as I initially sank into it. In the meantime keep being kind to yourself. I truly wish you a speedy recovery from a very difficult illness. The hard thing for depression sufferers is that we don't know when it will lift. Just take it a day at a time Xx

Thank you Laura and Annie, I always find it easy to help others, it's what I am good at if that makes sense.  I do hope it lifts soon and I start to feel better.  Suffered from depression for a very long time now but it never gets easier to manage.  I try to set myself goals but something always hits me like a stone and I fall over twice as hard. 

xx

 

You have really helped me. So give yourself a pat on the back, and Annie that's so true, you don't know when it will lift. Mines lasted a whole year now, can't believe how quick it's gone. But really chin up before you know it, your be feeling a lot better. 

Hope you have merry christmas!! 

Xxx

Hello Gillian

From one Gillian to another I just wanted to let you know that we are here for you. I know that you are suffering and have been for some time but that does not mean for one minute that this is forever. Some people take longer to recover and that's ok. There is no time limit. You will get there in the end.

I know how it feels to not feel part of all that is going on around you and the loneliness inside your head and heart that you feel that nobody will ever reach or touch again but that is the depression and how it makes us feel. It's not a true reflection of the real you.

Please don't give up hope. Tomorrow could be the day you feel that change..that your life changes forever. You have made it this far so that shows you have spirit and deep inside you..hope...You are stronger than you think. You can do this. Keep fighting sugar and on the days you don't feel strong..come here and let us see if we can figure something out xxx

Gillian this has been a bad few days and I always know if I come here I don't feel alone as much.  I don't have a circle of friends with whom I can confide in and although my mum is really supportive, I feel that I sometimes need to hide how I truly feel as she worries so much about me.  I have tried counselling and it helps at the time but long term I struggle every day.  I go to work come home and go to bed just so I can hide away from the world and I know when I fall asleep that I am safe for another day and it doesn't hurt anymore.  My doctor won't give me anymore sleeping because I was using them too often to escape the world for a few hours.  I overthink things in my head and I end up making matters so much worse than they are, am I alone in this? I do hope that I will wake up one day and I can finally climb out the black hole that engulfs me, i really hope its soon.  Thank you for your kind words, I truly appreciate them.

xxxx

Gillian oh I know exactly how you feel.  Depressio9n is the most awful illness.  I have battled it for so very long, but after 20 years on anti depressants, am trying to cope without.  I know it is no consolation to tell you that you are not alone, because it does not help.  Many people hide their depression, there are many around us, I am sure, who feel the same.

So many times you have come here and given hope to others with your kind words.  I want to do the same for you, lovely lady.  We are all in this together.  We all understand. 

Every day is an ordeal, and anxiety difficult to cope with.  I do not want to go back on medication if I can help it,m butwill know if I do have to.  My body will tell me.  Meanwhile I battle on.  I am so lonely, as live alone, but try to get out.  Times I could not leave the house or speak to anyone.  Yes you make perfect sense believe you me.  Been there often.

I send you love and courage to continue this fight.

Gillian 20097 posted that "Depression is a liar and a thief", sometime back.

 

Keep hold of that thought in bad moments and repeat, repeat over and over.  I hope it helps you hun, meanwhile know that we all send you luv and support always.

Wishing all of you a safe and  settled Christmas.