Will it have to be Prozac for life?
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There doesn't seem to be much activity on this board - but I would be interested to hear from anyoneelse who finds it hard to come off Prozac. Apologies in advance for the long post.
My last attempt to come off Prozac lasted almost a year. I have tried so hard...but I am finally admitting defeat. I am going to ask for a new prescription tomorrow. It feels like this little capsule that twenty years ago was my saviour has now become my captor. It is with feeling of utter failure and slight despair that I take these pills again. I feel I have no choice. The worst thing is, I don't understand why I hate it so much.
I was on Prozac for almost twenty years until I weaned myself off almost a year ago. This was one of many attempts. During those twenty years, I was never completely comfortable taking it.I was grateful for how it worked, how it changed my life, but for some reason that I could never shake off, I just didn't like the the idea of being on medication every day. I was not at ease with the idea of having to be on a prescription - of being dependent on this little green and cream capsule - simply to feel normal like everyone else.My GP could never understand when I talked about coming off it. He would more or less say, its working for you - why change things? Just take it, and forget about it. I still don't understand why I am so uncomfortable about taking it.
I thought in the beginning, that I would be cured of my depression and anxiety, and go back to the happy person I was, then when I was 'fixed' I would stop taking it. I was told then it was not 'addictive', and it WAS only for the short term. So how come, every time I came off...I not only suffered the most awful symptoms..I also felt 100 times worse than I did before I started taking it? It is like Prozac has changed my brain, so I am dependent on it simply to have any quality of life.
With Prozac, I am relatively content, I enjoy socialising, I can run a house and 'look after' my family and my ageing parents. Simply, I just get on with my life which is a good one.
Without Prozac, I am anxious and irritable all of the time. I feel far, far worse than I EVER did in the before I went on on it. I thought I was depressed then....but from what I remember it was never as bad as this. Its hard to explain, but it is like it is self fulfilling... like Prozac itself is causing my mental health problems. I panic at the thought of having to do anything that involves social evenings, sometimes I can't even cope with trivial or ordinary things like organising meals, or making lists. It all seems too overwhelming so I just don't do it. I get completely worked up about nothing. I fly into rages and feel awful afterwards. I wake in the morning with a nervous tummy and terrible anxiety about the day. When I physically get up and get on with it I feel better...but I can lie for an hour in bed in the morning feeling sick with nerves, and cannot find a 'place' to go in my head that is pleasant. It is always doom and gloom, and anger and sadness....and recently I have been contemplating all sorts of ways of leaving it all behind me. I can't live like this any more.
I guess it is just a case of getting my head to the point where I can see Prozac as a friend and not the enemy. I guess I blame it for getting me where I am in the first place - totally dependent on it. It's like, I have no choice in the matter. This is not how I usually live my life :p.I feel defeated and overpowered, even though the outcome is to my benefit. Its hard to explain. I mean, what if they find out it causes tumours, or my doctor just decides to stop prescribing it down the line. I feel trapped, no matter how I look at it.
I guess I would tell anyone thinking of going onto this drug that it is like a pitcher plant. Once you are in, you are in it forever no matter how much you try to scramble up the sides. It is not just a case of take it till you get well, then thank it, and move on. Prozac has you in its grip forever. From my experience.. I would say only start it if you can accept the fact it probably WILL be for life.
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NigelW
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Happiness is a decision making process. I decided to be happy. How does one do that? Choose to be happy. Simple but not easy. I read The Art of Happiness by Howard C. Cutler on conversations with HH Dalai Lama ISBN978-0-340-99592-1 and it has a lot of useful thoughts therein and I commend it to you.
Lesley998 NigelW
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Most anti depressetns to work for people, but for some people, nothing can cure them of their hopelessness. My sister could not escape the inside of her own head, and she could not take it any longer. She had a lovely home, was well off and had lovely children. According to you, she should have been 'happy' but she took her own life at the age of 57, something no one does lightly. Please.
Think carefully before posting such pompous, ill informed crap.
boing333 Lesley998
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Medication is not always the answer. Psychiatry is a science and like all sciences, is based largely in theory and as such, medication can theoretically work. It is, however, the pharmacological equivalent of ECT in that it should, by all accounts, be the last resort in - I'd say - about 95% of cases of depression.
Lesley998 boing333
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In my opinion, mental illness cannot be 'shrugged off'; a horrible analogy that gives the impression that it is somehow up to the sufferer to be in control of such a dibilitating disease. Biological clinical depression cannot be 'talked through', or reasoned with any more than cancer can be eliminated through talking therapy or, answering questions, or sitting under a pyramid. It can be beyond the control of the sufferer to simply change the thoughts of a mind altered by chemical imbalance. I did not say in my post that medication was the answer...indeed, having helplessly watched my sister take everything from ecitalopram to lithium AND have ECT, none of which worked as she is now dead by her own hand - I would say that at times there are no answers. I too have suffered with depression which thankfully is controlled by medication. I can identify with the original poster of this thread.
As you quite rightly say, you don't know the full story or the severity of my sisters condition. But she tried everything. Everything. Please dont patronise me by telling me that psychiatry is a science.what else could it be? You don't understand it any more than I do, or indeed the psychiatrist dealing with my sister who I have since spoken to.
Let none of us make statements that we can not back up with facts.
gypsarella boing333
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lesley1985 Lesley998
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SadRat NigelW
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I know this thread is old but when I read this comment I had to address it. This is an incorrect and extremely dangerous opinion. You cannot think away depression. If that worked for you, you weren't suffering from depression. Job related stress can cause all sorts of unwanted health effects but actual depression is not one of them. If what you're saying were true there would be no one with depression. Despite your implication, people with depression don't want to have depression. If we could wish it away we would. Please refrain from posting such dangerous misinformation in the future.
LRICHMAN Lesley998
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agyengo gypsarella
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What you're saying is very true. I took diazepam yesterday and I was a bit relieved of my depression but just this morning I've been taken back to my old situation though it's lessen a bit. Please I need your advice on what to do cus I've not been in a happy mood since I this depression for a bout a month now. Please what do I do to overcome this situation? I need help
karly89414 agyengo
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Hi agyengo Ive taken 20mg Prozac for two years now and its the best thing Ive ever done. Diazapam (valium) is quite strong and not meant to be long term its good for panic Ive taken it when I had a very stressful life situations and it gives temporary relief. I have always been a happy person but suffer from anxiety and a bit of depression and Prozac is a life saver I'm on the lowest dose and all I can say is I feel 'normal ' I don't suffer severe anxiety over nothing like I ised to or the thought of social situations. I was so against anti depressants for years and now I think the world of them they are not the personality changing things I thought they'd be. I had no side affects I think it took the 2-4 weeks to work like they say but I did feel better straight away maybe just because I had finally made the decision to try them. Hope they work for you they seem to work for the majority of people and there are other brands and types of meds out there too see what your foc reccomends xx
alice7
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I like your theory...but I wish it was as simple as that.
NigelW
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lesley1985 NigelW
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r85430 lesley1985
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I agree with you. I've lived with depression (undiaganosed at the time) for many years before I finally attempted suicide and as a result ended up at the pediatric section of the psych ward. Before I've decided to end my life, I've struggled for many years to "snap out" of depression, but to no avail. I am very glad I got the help I needed from my stay at the ward. I am on anti-depressants now and I go to therapy every week. It is helping me a lot. I agree with NigelW that removing the cause of depression helps, but it is also a long process for some people whose irritant is not easily removed. (Body image, self-esteem, family issues etc.)
frankzac alice7
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i was very moved by your posting, partly because it mirror my own feelings and experience so closely. I too would love to stop taking
Prozac,, but seem shackled to it.
Plese leg let me know if you read this posting - there are some points I would. Like to discuss and ask you about.
Best wishes
Frank