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I'm Tom, 23, and I've had quite a worrying time recently. Cancer is a big thing in my family, and being a huge hypochondriac it's always the first thing that comes to mind when I get ill.
It started out as frequent urination (but no pain) about a month and a half ago, they took a urine sample, and found a trace of blood, which was scary, they tested me again to be safe, prescribed me antibiotics. The test came back clear and there was no trace of blood present anymore, which was a relief. But basically in that time, I had this kind of dull pain/discomfort and popping sensation almost, just below my ribcage, where my liver is. I described this to the doctor and he put me through for routine blood tests.
The results came back, kidney function normal, white blood cell count perfectly normal, liver function normal, but an elevated liver enzyme (Not sure which). This immediately had my alarm bells ringing, because as soon as I started looking online (I apologise I know this is frowned upon) Cancer was the hot topic. Pancreatic, liver, gall. I instantly panicked. I got these results back on the 2nd October. I was referred to the local hospital for an ultrasound. In that time things kind of developed a bit. My stool has been on and off, some quite pale, some normal but greasy. The pain (In my upper right) had changed slightly, almost feels like burning almost, inflammation? The pain has also spread to the left hand side, and I've noticed my appetite has gone a bit weird.. I still feel hungry, but not as much. Although, once I eat I can eat the normal amount. There's no nausea or vomiting, I don't have jaundice or any odd marks on my skin. Not sure about weightloss, as I've been running 3/4 times a week and eating healthier food. So it would be quite hard to see where the loss has come from. There's no heartburn, It's basically the pain, and the appetite.
I went for an ultrasound today, and the specialist there told me what he could see, as he could see how scared I was. He said that no abnormalities had shown up, which to me was a slight relief but not a complete one. I know Google is a huge no go for stuff like this, but afterwards my instant reaction was to google 'Elevated liver enzymes and pain, ultrasound clear' and there were some positive responses, and some scary ones, stories of people being told by their doctors they have IBS and all these different problems that are easy to deal with, and then a year later, they've got stage 4 cancer.
Nobody wants cancer, and I feel awful posting anything on here because I don't want to complain when there are people who are seriously ill, but there's always the possibility and I feel like I need help. My friends, family, girlfriend all think I'm overreacting and are telling me not to worry, which makes me feel worse, I know it shouldn't but it does. The worst part is as soon as you google any symptom, cancer is always the first thing that's mentioned.
I do believe I have a seriously problem mentally when it comes to my health, but I'm genuinely worried about my physical health at the moment.
It's difficult to separate the symptoms. I suffer from really bad depression, so being tired all the time is a big thing for me. I also hardly sleep as I go to bed quite late, and get up early meaning I have no way of telling if the tiredness is from stress, my depression, or an actual issue. When it comes to my stomach, ever since the age of 13 I've had on and off issues with my abdomen, the doctor couldn't find an issue whenever I went, and he put it down to an 'inflamed appendix'. I had an incident when I was 18, where I had drank a ridiculous amount of alcohol, to the point where I was throwing up bile. After this, for about 4 months, I had constant problems with my stomach, really bad acid reflex, it was awful. This eventually passed. I've experienced loss of appetite in the past, but it was very different, I couldn't even look at food without wanting to be sick, but it's not felt like this. I can eat food, I can stomach it, I don't feel nauseous, it just feels odd? Another problem is that I have a really severe vitamin D defiency. I've been quite silly recently and I've not taken them in a long long time.. I've been told that it can help with your digestion etc? Not sure how true that is.
It's hard to know if some of it's psychological, if it's sevaral issues in my body that are causing all different kinds of symptoms, I really don't know. All I know is I'm scared, and even though I have quite nice results from the ultrasound, I don't feel convinced? You constantly hear of people being misdiagnosed, and I don't want to be one of those people. If it is something as severe as the worst.. I'd like a fighting chance.
Thank you all for your time, I understand I may sound completely ridiculous. I just have no idea what it might be.
It's kind of interfering with my life, I think I've convinced myself of the worst, started losing track of my own life.. it's gotten out of hand really.
Apologies for the rant, and thank you to anybody who reads this and has felt the same in the past.
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