Yeah I know I have been MIA lol
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Hi fellow hippies
Sorry I have not been about for a while. I have been very busy getting the house puppy proofed. 2 new furballs will be arriving soon..
Just a little update. I go back for more hydrotherapy in a couple of weeks I still can not put my right foot flat on the floor. I am still using 2 crutches when out and about. I am so unfit that I am struggling to walk more than 500 meters and have to sit down to get my breath back but I am working on excersizes at home to help with this too. Celabrated 25th wedding aniversary a couple of weeks back. Lost my dad 14th March never got to see him.All I was looking for was some remorse from him for the abuse he put me through as a child. Wont get that now will I?
Other than the above I am doing pretty well. I can walk in the house without my sticks but can't stand straight I guess that will come with time.
Started doing a little gardening like pruning the hedges and trees that havn't been done for over 4 year wow what a mess the garden is in. Got myself some fruit bushes. A cherry tree some strawbeerry plants and a rasberry and blackcurrant bushes and some Fusha plants that also produce edible fruit. Any fruit I don't need will be frozen till the winter and fed to the birds. I make them fruit cake instead of just feeding bread. There is no nutrition for them in bread. Fruit cake is the best.
Renee I hope you are well
Hailea x
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lors23 Hailea
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I have not seen you posting for a while now l understand why.
Sorry about your dad but l agree with what renee says try and let go now l understand you had no resolution to what he put you through but some things happen for a reason and maybe it was not meant to be. My husband lost his mum who he loved dearly and it hit him hard and he was left to look after his dad which there was a lot of bad feeling with nevertheless we went down every week cleaned his house made him dinners and generally looked after him until he died 4 years later. My husband did not grieve for his dad l think because he new how hard he had made his mums life and he never had any sort of relationship with him like father and son. All he can remember was getting hit with a metal dogs leash when he was a boy if he had got into any sort of trouble. Later in life to me he was just an arragant old man no matter how much we did for him he would never say thanks. My husband was adobted you see as the person he calls his sister is really his biological mum and being from a strong catholic family this was shame on them and he wanted my husband adopted away from the family but his mum who brought him up could not let him go so it was really his gran and grandad who adopted him but he called them mum and dad as thats all he even new them as but his dad wanted nothing really to do with him so him and his mum had such a close loving relationship. She was a lovely woman but terrified of the dad and he mad her life hell l think so my husband mark will never forgive him for that. He was from an older generation were the womans place was in the kitchen and the man provided the money but he was really unkind. At the end he was just a helpless old man who l think carried a lot of guilt for the life he gave his wife and did not realise it until after she died. Anyway they both have gone now and mark my husband still carried on looking after him and never really got to say aĺl the things that bothred him. My husband was emotinally scared by life he had. He said there was nobody like his mum she was a lovely person and l got to know her and love her to. But his dad was a hard man and in a way when he died it was sort of a relief to mark. He has let it go now. And maybe iyts time you let that part of your life go to.
Anyway 2 puppies how exciting for you l sm sorry your recovery is not going as well as planned. I though mines was but l have had a few thing that have made me see l am still very much in recovery. I though l was nearly back to normal but in reality l still have a long way to go. Its not as easy as you think. Especially with my 2 hips being done l still have loads of backpain. I just drove york on monday for a few days holiday and lasted 1 night and had to come home as l need my house my place of safty and comfort. I feel like l have aged years l am 43 but feel about 55 just now with the little amount l can do. I just wonder if l will ever be the same person again. And as for my wotk l can not even think about a date to go back or if l will go back at all. I have another few months signed off by doctor but even at that l can not ever imagine working in the bank again. But who knows how l will feel down the line.
Anyway sorry for going on. What type of pups are you getting? I love animals and like you me and my hudband cook up loafs and stuff for the birds. We love getting all sorts coming into the garden. We get a oair of woodpeckers coming in at times. My husband spends a fortune on peanuts and other various food.
Well l hope you get on weĺl with your new puppies l would love a dog but at the moment we took in a stray kitten and spent a fortune on her at the vets now she thinks she is the queen of the house spoilt rotten. I dunno how her and a pup would get on.
Nice to hear from you hailea you are one if old bunch that went through all our stuff around the same time.
Love
Laura xx
Hailea lors23
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yep my life was much the same as your husbands. But I was belted with a horse riding crop. Sometimes so bad my butt bled. On my 18th birthday. I was ment to have a party my dad cancled it. I packed a rucksack punched him in the face and left. I have not seen him in 23 years not since my mums funeral. Once my mum passed away I didn't want any more to do with him I got on with my life. His sister phoned me now and again but didn't tell her much because I know she would tell him. I cut myself off from that family and moved so far away into the back of beyond it would be hard for them to find me if they ever tried. I even took the house number off the door. Like I said above I really do not care for that family. They didn't care for me or step in to stop the abuse so why should I bother with contact? Once I move they won't be able to find me at all. All phone numbers will be changed as well as anything else I can do to cut all ties.
My dad was never like that with my mum. But I was treated far different to my so called brothers. I can't forgive or forget what I have been through. But I can't do anything about it either so I am just going to get on with my life the same as if he never existed. Which is what I have been doing for the last 30 odd years.
brenda92532 Hailea
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Sorry to hear all your bad news but at least you are trying to get over it by keeping busy.
You must be doing well to be able to go in the garden. I have tried gardening but only managed about 30 mins weeding. I have to get down and use a trowel because I have problems digging. I find it relaxing in the garden and hopefully as the weather improves I may improve and be able to do some more.
Keep up the good work and hope you get your garden done.
Love Brenda x
Hailea brenda92532
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Thank you
i can't kneel down yet. I am only just 14 weeks since my second hip op was done. I use a hoe then pick out the weeds with my grabber.
I really could do with with a couple of sheep or goats to clear all of it and start again lol
annie.conway Hailea
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