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Can't stop crying...feel like a burden and affecting my family

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Lecasco
Lecasco

Does anyone feel numb as if a wet blanket over your brain? Or is this what depression feels like? I have never felt like this before in my life until reactivated EBV...it's spring..wanna clean, walk my dog, play with grandbabies, cook out on grill for my family, help my aging parents, get my hair done (scared of chemicals in color), put on makeup, enjoy a movie...this all seems so far out of reach..I have been going to my oldest daughter's often to be with her and grandbabies (we always were together a lot before I sick also) but the past few days I can tell im wearing on my daughter..I know me being sick has been so difficult on my entire family but now i need to leave my daughter alone for awhile as even my granddaughters are getting frustrated cause I can't play like they were used to (they all have been so sweet and supportive but no one expected I would be ill this long and things are changing now).. I've been crying all day uncontrollably..this has amplified my symtoms 10 fold and I'm angry with myself for doing this! Anyway, my days will now consist of being home and basically sitting and staring at all that needs done here...is it time to try an antidepressant?Does anyone have same experience? And anyone try antidepressant? This doesn't necessarily feel like depression but maybe it is? I wish i could come on here and be more positive! I've stayed off for a couple days as i knew I would be a downer like now..im thinking of you all and hoping you all are making improvements! Wishing you well..lecasco

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  • Poppy89
    Poppy89 Lecasco

    Posted

    Hi lecasco really sorry to hear you arent feeling great sad i also have never suffered with anxiety or anything up untill this virus the doc gave me some anti depressant/anxiety tablets (small dosage) but i think they have helped me a little as once i calmed to down abit my symptoms seem to ease i dont plan on taking them forever but if they help for now why not?? Wishing you all the best 
    • Lecasco
      Lecasco Poppy89

      Posted

      Thanks so much Poppy! Really messing with me right now but im hoping let's up soon! Hope you're mouth problems doing better! I think i miss some updates cause I'm always using my phone..take care and best wishes! Lecasco

  • 40with.gf.
    40with.gf. Lecasco

    Posted

    Hi Lecasco,

    i had days and days like this when I couldn't stop crying for no reason, last year I also longed to do all those things you want to do, walk the dog, clean, etc and this year I'm doing all those things, the crying has pretty much gone, I never took anti depressants during this illness or before this, I've never suffered with it before, I didn't really understand why I was crying like this. But I have improved immensely....its been 1yr 3 months for me. And I'm pretty much normal except I just need to fill in that last 10%of my life so I'm back to normal as I still get tired and have to be careful.

    it will happen, just slow!

    Caroline x

    • Mono_too
      Mono_too 40with.gf.

      Posted

      Hi Caroline,

      So glad to hear you are better, I feel the same about 90 percent there,

    • 40with.gf.
      40with.gf. Mono_too

      Posted

      Hi mono,

      yes, 90% or so...... It's just this last little bit to go now. I'm normal enough, just get slightly breathless sometimes and a bit tired. I'm not doing any rigorous excercise yet don't want to push it!

      i can even have an occasional beer or wine now, just daren't have any more! 

      Its just incredible how this virus effects us. Lovely to hear from you too, xx

    • Lecasco
      Lecasco 40with.gf.

      Posted

      Thank you so much for your reply! Means alot! I am so happy to hear you're almost there! And I hope that last 10% fills in fast for you. So encouraging to hear theres a possible end in sight to this evil virus! ?..All I can do is keep taking it one day at time..thanks again..lecasco

    • 40with.gf.
      40with.gf. Lecasco

      Posted

      Hi Lecasco,

      that is what I say A LOT!  Just take one day at a time, and just do 'NOW' as that is all you can do. Just go with it. I promise you it does get better,it doesn't seem like it but it does. it's just frustratingly slow.

      the relapses or set backs are tough to deal with, I thought this is it when I was feeling better and then when I felt bad again it was such a blow. And that also happened a lot!!

      caroline x

    • craig07920
      craig07920 40with.gf.

      Posted

      Really pleased to hear you are making progress Caroline, you deserve it so much as I know you've been through an awful time. You're being wise not to push things too much, but let me tell you from experience that your full body resilience does return where you can get to the stage where you can do things like exercise fully or take on extra activities or a busy lifestyle without your body letting you down. It doesn't always feel that way even at the stage you are at now, but that does come fully again over time!

      Always good to hear from you too!

      Craig

    • 40with.gf.
      40with.gf. craig07920

      Posted

      Thank you Craig, that means a lot when you tell me I will go on and make a full recovery....I kinda know I will or people say this but the doubts sometimes are there. I need to be told that this will go, it's nice to hear it from someone else. I hope you're having better times with your back. I also believe you will get better, our bodies are complicated machines! Just takes such a long time.

      ttfn,

      caroline.x

    • craig07920
      craig07920 40with.gf.

      Posted

      Thanks Caroline, I know it means a lot to me when someone tells me that too - need it also as going through a tough time with prostatitis and back pain, hoping something changes soon!

      I totally believe you are going to get 100% better Caroline, you're not just going to be stuck in this 'kind of' recovery mode, absolutely not, things will continue to progress I truly believe.

      Craig x

    • brent_83487
      brent_83487 craig07920

      Posted

      Craig you are being attacked by the enemy! You have helped and uplifted so many of us on this site. You speak against our illness in the name of Jesus and the enemy doesn’t like that! The enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy! This illness has almost destroyed me, but you always give words of encouragement and hope that a new day is coming. A day where I won’t be sick with this illness anymore. I have lived on your words for over a year . It has been a slow process, but I am believing that I will one day return to my old self.
    • Mono_too
      Mono_too brent_83487

      Posted

      This is so true, Brent. Craig has been a god send to all of us who have struggled with the virus.He was more help than my doctors in giving guidance and encouragement. I am forever thankful for all your kind words Craig. I hope all of you are feeling much better soon.
    • craig07920
      craig07920 Mono_too

      Posted

      Thank you Brent and Mono - your words mean so much to me and have made me feel a bit emotional because I just want to be better too and finding it so hard to deal with my problems right now. I really want the Lord to protect all of us from all attacks from the enemy, I want so much for us all to be better.

      Please keep me in your prayers too guys, I'm having a rough time right now. I'm still believing in recovery for everyone on the site thanks to Jesus.

      Craig

    • Poppy89
      Poppy89 craig07920

      Posted

      Really hope your feeling better soon craig you have been so helpful & friendly this forum has genuinely helped me through!! Try to stay positive i no its not easy but i have deffo learned with GF that by being negative it can drag you down further! Keep pestering your doctors if your uncomfortable or scared! 

    • craig07920
      craig07920 Poppy89

      Posted

      Thank you Poppy yes will keep trying, have been pestering doctors for months to not much avail really, hoping so much also you feel better soon too - it's been such a tough time for us all I know!

      Craig

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