Depression - poem

I haven't started my counselling yet, I'm still on the waiting list. I do see a lady from the cmht once a month though and it's kind of like a counselling session.

I'm glad that writing your poems helps you, i know that it certainly helped me, especially at a time when i had nobody to talk to about my problems.

Hi sunset x

I hope you get to see a counsellor soon its one of the best things I've done it took me a long time to build up

the courage to go and see someone as I'm really shy and lack confidence but I'm really glad I did it as it helps to have someone to talk to.

Donna x

Great work. What an awesome way to deal with depression.

Thank you holly xx

Thanks Donna,

I've been waiting quite a while now I did have a choice to go to a group cbt session but I decided I would prefer to wait for one-to-one counselling, I didn't feel comfortable about going to the group thing. It's ok though I knew I would have to wait. Sometimes I wonder whether it will be worth me going, and whether I will find it helpful, and that I feel much better anyway with the medication I'm taking. Will just have to see how I feel when it comes to the time.

xx

I also was offered group therapy but it wasn't for me,I knew I wouldn't be able to speak up in a group so it would have been a waste of time.

I also found one to one really scary but as each session comes and goes it becomes that little bit easier and I'm lucky to have such a nice counsellor,he is great.

Its good that you're feeling better now but when the opportunity arises I would say go for it!

Even if you just try it the once,after all what have you got to lose?

Donna x

Yeah guess I am nervous about it aswell, I've been having the appointments with the lady from the cmht but I don't really feel that I've found it that helpful. My next one was in a couple of weeks, but just had a letter today saying they've had to rearrange it to May, so got a while to wait for my next one now. I just feel like I'm wasting their time when I'm going but not really finding it that helpful. I never talk about anything unless I'm asked, I never really know what to say so I only answer the questions she asks me. Yeah I think I would at least try the counselling once, if I can be brave enough. X

Just heard a professional colleague talk about Resilence and it got me thinking - I would not call this poetry (I can't claim to have Donna's talent :-))

Resilence have you ever heard of such a thing

The ability to bend but not break

Once buried under the weight of depression

But now out, up and about again

Resilence can be true or false

Resilence is not about life being a bed of roses

But undertsanding that it is okay to fall and to get back up again

Resilence is false if hidden behind pretence

The denial that nothing is wrong, the lie that I am always strong

Resilence is not about the abscence of fear

but the refusal to submit to fear

Yes I might fail if I try

But I am going to try anyway

It might not be now, or tomorrow but someday soon

I shall be free of the shadows that haunt me

the cords that bind me will become loose and eventually fall off

As I take baby steps, wading through the waters into the light.

On my first counselling session I stood outside too nervous to go in,I nearly walked away but I'd phoned a friend and she persuaded me to go in which I did and it wasn't as bad as I'd anticipated,don't get me wrong I was scared,didn't talk to much,he did most of the talking but even just to listen to his advice was helpful,every week I open up that little bit more,there's one big issue I have which he knows of but doesn't know the details,imscared to say and he doesn't push it but as I'm getting more confident now I'm hoping I can have the courage to talk about it.

So again I'd say try it! It might be scary at first but for me it's helped not only with my depression but also with my confidence.

Donna xx

Hi Bella x

That is really good of course its poetry,

Poetry doesn't have to ryhme,that's just my way

I think that is great! probably much better than mine

Well done

Donna xx

Thanks Donna xx

Thanks Donna xx you are amazing!

Aww,not sure about amazing but thank you No thanks needed,was just my honest opinion.You should write some more!

Here's a little poem I wrote in bed last night-

I had an ok day today,was good,I managed a smile

But this feeling didn't extend to tonight,it only lasted a little while.

I thought that maybe things would change but all alas,alack

As soon as I feel I could be happy the sadness comes flooding back.

But I will keep on fighting,I'll keep on pushing through

It's the only way I know how,it's what I have to do.

So I'll end this poem now before saying goodnight

As I'm going to need all my strength for tomorrow's fight.

Wonderful poems. Thank you for sharing them with us. I can only agree with what everybody else has said. I have written poems myself at times in the past to help me get some distance between me and the experience. I know it helps and you have reminded me how helpful it is. You have inspired me to try using it again. The poems don't have to be 'good' they just have to be real, and yours are. Thank you again.

Thank you atho?

It is a really good way of getting things off your chest and no you're right its not a case of them being of good quality it's just what helps you through the day be it poems,music or whatever it may be we all need something to help take away or at least lessen the pain xx