Endo and my positive pregnancy story.

I do always question why me? And it's true "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

I just really hope this is the last of it all. Your right I need to put baby making on hold for now. I just get so worried the endo will come back. I'm physically not ready though I need to put my health and recovery first.

Did you just recently start getting anxiety after what you have been through? Or has it just gotten worse ? Can you take any medication for it? I feel like I might have mild anxiety because when I stress my chest goes really red and look sort of like a bad rash but it's not itchy? When I calm down though it sort of eases then goes away.

Have you seen the doctor ? That must be so frustrating to go through that. Does the anxiety just come out of nowhere or does something trigger it?

I'm also starting to feel like I will never fall pregnant

It all started 8 months after the surgeries. I was so traumatised it set off anxiety. I went through none stop anxiety attacks for 6 months until the GP diagnosed me with GAD.

So with everything I was dealing with, anxiety made it 10x worse.

On medication now and worries me about being on it during my pregnancy but it will be worse off for me if I got off them.

How are you feeling today?

Hi Lind,

How have you been? Sorry long reply. The bleeding has stopped now and it's just sort of brown now coming out. I just did an ultra sound both internal and out and I'm so nervous for the results. I pick them up in 3 hours. Have you ever had one? When she went in she was pressing down on my abdonam is that normal ??

Hey sweety. Im doing ok. Trying to battle the sickness. Yeah, its normal to press down on the tummy. Did they give you any indication that it looked ok? Sometimes they do, sometimes they dont.

Just finished work. Do you have your results back?

Hey Lind,

I just got results back and everything is good thank God!! So I probably wasn't bleeding from my uterus it was def from the cervix. I reckon I bled because I had sex 2 weeks after and I wasn't healed and I done yoga and went for walks when I'm not meant to. Anyway I pray that my amh results come back good (egg amount).

Are you feeling ok?

Thank god!!! Was thinking of you. That is really good news and I suspected it could have been from having sex. Tell your man that you're 'out of order' for a little while and will make it up to him when you're 100% better 😉

I have a feeling you will get pregnant in the next 12 months!

To be honest, Im in struggle town. The anxiety is feeding off the nausea and then vice versa. Its so frustrating and tiring. You don't know if its all in your head or your actually sick from the pregnancy. I have to be really careful as to which way I go because I could convince myself its morning sickness and think it acceptable but its really anxiety and it could get caught in the loop I can't get out of.

Haha I told him and he was like :O but he understood his like whenever your comfortable don't rush anything. We even told each other to put baby making on the side for now. I really hope I do I just feel I am losing a lot of hope lately. I hope my ovaries are working well after being repaired and that I'm ovulating and everything is good for baby making. I can't take the stress anymore of being tested and waiting for results.

I don't know how it feels to go through anxiety like that but I know someone who does go through it. She says it just hits her at anytime and she breaks down starts shaking can't eat and her whole face and chest go red and her body just heats up. Is it when you think it triggers it? I know your probably confused because you don't know if it's the pregnancy sickness or the actual anxiety. But let me tell you the hard part is all over for you. Enjoy this moment and try not too think about the hard struggles you went through. I know it's easier said then done. I can't wait to fall pregnant and just feel relieved that I've done it! I hope what I am going through is all worth it in the end.

He sounds like a good man and a keeper 😊 Its going to be hard but I know Im alot stronger than I think I am and I will get through it. If I can beat anxiety, I can raise a child no problem haha. Ill keep you updated so you know what your in for 😆

He is! He has been by my side this whole time even though I can become a big stress head and a nervous wreck ! Lol yes please do

Did you find out about your egg count sweety? Update with me, sick all day every day, feel like I haven't slept for days even though I get 11 hrs of sleep at night, cant stop eating but constantly feel hungry, bad headaches and feel a little light headed. Get cramping which is the only thing that doesn't bother me. All in all, sucks to be pregnant but still happy that I am 😊

Hey Lind,

It will all be worth it once your holding little Bub in your hands

Not yet Hun just waiting I think end of this week or beginning of next week. I hate just waiting for results keeps me anxious

Yeah, waiting sucks. I decided to wait till Im 8 weeks to do my first scan. I dont want to do it any earlier in case there is no heart beat yet which will freak me out heaps.

Hi Lind!!

It's been a while since we last spoke. How have you been? How is the pregnancy going. I hope everything is going well.

I've been meaning to reply but have been so busy lately it's crazy.

Hey hun :-)

Im doing a lot better. Seems that the pregnancy symptoms have gotten better (except the sore breasts, they are painful) and have the odd sickness here and there but only after I eat something that isn't fruit, salads, vegies or steak lol. I go for my 9 week scan tomorrow so I'm a little nervous for some reason? Hoping the little fella is developing ok and on track.

How are you feeling? Xo

I'm so glad to hear. Let me know how the scan goes. Don't be nervous you'll be fine.

I'm doing better aswell my fertility doctor said my blood work looks all good. My ultra sound was good too thank God. My periods are back to normal. I used the clear blue ovulation kit and I ovulated yesterday which was day 14 I'm praying everyday that this month is it. I'm over being picked and poked at. But I don't think it is because I'm dry now right after ovulation. Aren't I meant to get more cervical mucus if the sperm did meet the egg ? Or Too early lol

Thats amazing news. YAY!

Na, I never had any increased cervical mucas. The only thing I noticed differently was my right ovary was sore for a week instead of 2 days. It might have been a coincidence and my egg was finding it hard to get out of the gates or it was implantation. I had the cramps and spotting leading up to my period for 3 days then it just stopped. Everything was leading towards me getting my period and then it dissapeared on the day it should have got heavy. That was when I took a pregnancy test because I thought it was really strange.

My gyno said its common for women to not experience extra mucas during or before ovalation, I never did. :-)

So you never suspected it like right after ovulation ? Okay cool coz I had increased cervical mucus on my 13th and 14th day during ovulation and today it's my 15th day and nothing. We will see how we go. I did have minor ovulation pain as well I'm really hoping because if I don't this month in doing another internal ultra sound after my next period which is a special one that they check if my tubes are free and stuff I dno

How are you feeling hun?

Hey Lind,

I'm feeling good I got my egg count results yesterday and everything is GOOD !!! Thank God I have a normal count for my age. Also just done an internal ultra sound today and my ovaries are free and my womb uterus all good. She saw I have follicles in both ovaries ready to ovulate soon yay. How are you?? How did the ultrasound go?

Yay!!! Thats good news 😄 The scan at 9 weeks went well. I have my 12 week scan on Friday, a little nervous about that one. Thats when they give me my down syndrome results and hoping bub is doing well.

My 1st trimester symptoms mostly subsided around 10.5 weeks but had a little anxiety setback yesterday. Still not free of that dreadful illness! But today Im doing a bit better.

Yay! I know I'm so happy that I'm finally getting some good results I just hope I get some good news soon too!

Aw that's really good do you know what your having?

Don't stress too much everything will be fine

It all went well 😁 Got to see it wave at us, was so cool! So weird seeing the little thing moving around, but really awesome.

We think its a boy but we wont find out until 20 weeks.

Get results back for chromosomes on Wednesday but they said at the ultrasounds that everything looks good. Fingers crossed! Xo Will wait till after Wednesday before we tell peeps.

YAYYY! I'm so happy to hear that. Why do you think it's a boy?

That's so cute the baby waved to you. Now you need to just enjoy this pregnancy and stop worrying or getting nervous. Everything is fine

So glad to hear that.

We think we saw its willy lol. We counted 2 legs, 2 arms then there was the little tik tak haha! But who knows!

Hahaha how cute!! Lol no matter what gender as long as the baby is healthy

Yeah, thats all we care about 😊

Hey hun, how are you?