Feel like an absolute useless, worthless, colossal failure.

Thank you for sharing how you feel. Sometimes we feel we are alone in this feeling of depression and even though its hard to imagine there are people that are also going through the same thing. I lost my house, my vehicles, my business is going down the drain. The only thing I have going right is my family, kids and wife are all fine. We get together and have some laughs, even though when I see them all laughing and having fun I turn towards my inside and just think, why? How is it the we can be laughing and having at least what I consider the resemblance of been happy? Then I go to my world and start again crying and aching and hoping things would change for the better. I feel miserable and a total failure. We had to leave our house and went to live in a smaller house that we own, actually its a mobile home, its pretty comfortable but we got used to living in this really big and fancy house in a very nice neighborhood and now we are back where we started. I was just told in court that we had to evict my place of business. I built a business and everything was doing fine, untill it didnt. Now we have been ordered by court that the building I built with my own two hands is no longer ours, it belongs to the bank and we have to leave. I feel like a complete failure.

I absolutely feel the same as you (I feel like I do), the only difference is I'm in high school. I feel detached from my friends and it's 100 precent my fault. I'm a worthless piece of sh*t, constantly getting irritated by everything, hating everything I do, losing interest in things I used to love. My grades are getting worse (but that's on me). I'm a bad a daughter and still don't understand how my mom puts up with me.

I always overthink everything when somebody does something and the same with me. I can't speak Dutch correctly or speak my parent's language, so no one understands me. My problems aren't even problems, if I talk about it with someone I know, I'm pretty sure they'll laugh at that. I feel bad to even think of just dying, quitly without anybody knowing. The people I know have (had) partner and then there's me, below avarage looking girl. I just despise how I look even when I try to think "hey, maybe you don't look so bad" oh man, I do.

I'm uninteresting, I mean, the only thing I can do is drawing and even that I slowly am stopping. There are times that I just don't go to school and would rather stay in bed not talking to anyone.

This whole thing doesn't make sense, the things I wrote doesn't add up.

I just hope to get a job, apperantly there's a chance they'll accept me and send an email if they do, but they still didn't... Eh, I'll just hope for the best.

Sincerly,

Naghma

P.S I hope this makes in some way sense

hi,

I know it's been two years. I hope things have improved. I know exactly how you feel or felt. Until three years ago things changed I realise that I was created by God and loved and that he sent his only son Jesus, To die for me. To pay my debt to God that was preventing me from knowing Him because my sin was so great. We all have done wrong things, evil things. This stops us from knowing God personally. He knew this and be, and because of His great love for us He sent Jesus to die in our place to take our punishment on Himself. Without Jesus we don't have hope. He loves you so much and He died so that He can know you, you have to come to Him and ask for forgiveness 10 from your wrongdoing and trust only in Him. Jesus is the way The Truth and The Life

From Elizabeth

Hi X99 and all who are in this discussion. i really was not expecting this much of count of people who are feeling like me. I have just searched i am worthless and found so many reply. thanks to all of for sharing your experiences about hiw u people recovered from such situations. I will pray for you all and for me too. hope we all will do good in future.

There a song u ever Heard of rudimental?

Believe!!

I know this is is a super late reply. But I just wanted to say even as a Christian I go through huge bouts of feeling worthless and useless and feel like a nobody. Infact I feel like I'm just a voice and customer to hold someone who is completely worth everything, God. There's a verse in the Bible that says apart from God I can do nothing. Satan can easily take that verse and make it sound totally negative which he has with me. It sounds like I'm absolutely worth nothing and can can do nothing good without Him. Therefore it makes me feel like a costume. However that's exactly what the devil wants is for us to feel like we amount to nothing and there's no point in us living. Don't listen to his lies! God created every part of you in your mother's womb. Every part of your personality, every physical feature, including the parts you label as weird and wonder why are you like that. The verse "Apart from Me you can do nothing" means that He's always with us, constantly at our side fighting every trial if we invited Him into our heart. It means apart from His love ourselves and Satan will cause us, convince us to kill ourselves, completely give up on everything. So basically in a nut shell...He is our Helper! If it wasn't for Him I would be dead. You are worth so much to Him and he wants you to see His worth. Without His help you'll never see it just like I would never see my worth without Him. Even with a husband and a baby on the way...no matter how much worth they see in me if I don't see it, if I don't realize it then I will never feel like I'm a somebody. God is the only One who can cause me to see my worth. But it doesn't happen over night and like I said I still struggle with it.

I'm 24 and I have social phobia and agoraphobia, depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. There's millions like us that feel and think the same if we all somehow got together we wouldn't be alone. Dont listen to the bad thoughts you are having it's the depression talking. Get help talk to your family if you have them if not talk to a therapist they will be able to help you. Stop saying you are useless you are NOT useless you have a job. Be Graceful and think about all the good things you have. Smile you're young don't let time pass by and live with regrets when you get older. Make the best of each day. Enjoy Life try to make small talk. It's the little things you do that will help you with your Social Anxiety. I feel the same way I am a socially awkward person and I just don't know what to say to strangers I always think I will mess up so I just rather come off as rude to them and I avoid them at all costs. It's better that way. I always let everyone down. I can't even kill myself I've tried twice and just ended up in the hospital. Life is difficult. Some people ask, "Why would you consider suicide for a temporary problem."My problem is not temporary it's permanent. My Generalized Anxiety Disorder and depression are the problem. There's no other life than this one. This is the only one we get. It's been two years since you wrote this so I do hope your Life is alot better now and you are not feeling down anymore.

I feel like you just described me. But I'm a female. I think like that too how did I end up hurting myself. I hope you're still alive and holding on. Our low self esteem and Depression make us feel this way.

Skype with me. I am nobody in particular.. but an encouraging individual, hoping to hear you out. I believe in you - and most of all: you have worth ! Message me if interested