Feel like an absolute useless, worthless, colossal failure.

I feel exactly the same however I'm still doing my A- levels and I feel hopeless everyday as i see all my colleagues succeed when I just seem destined to failure and I have no clue how the hell im supposed to live in society with three e grades in three of the easiest subjects at my school Art,society and media studies.  At results day I turned to my best friend and she said that she was disappointed in herself for only getting b's. This is the lowest my dwindling sole has ever dropped as I realised that all I will ever be is a failure to everyone I know and its the only thing I can think about is how i can try and redeem myself and my mind then wanders towards suicide and I know that commiting suicide is probably the most selfish thing you can do because no matter who you are there is someone who cares about you but I just can't escape from this pain and yes i started cutting but it still didn't go away so I got drunk to try and forget but it only seemed to amplify the feeling of hopelessness and I nearly ended my life but I realised that I don't have the will power to do it and I can't see another door so I feel lost like I don't belong to the rest of humanity that I'm just to s**t for anyone or anything to help me. I know that this post is 3 years old and no one will respond but if anyone is reading this thank you for getting this far because I really needed to get this off my chest. Recently life has been really challenging and I have glanced over the quit button every night before I go to sleep 

Hey X99

I hope you are feeling a bit better now as by now I'm sure you know that you are not alone and there are many people who understand what you are going through.

To offer some help I am wish to recommend an amazing guy who teaches many people at retreats and Q&As on enlightenment and concentrating on the present moment.

He is called Eckhart tolle and wrote one of the best selling self help and calming book called "The power of now". He really is amazing and is probably the best person for you to listen to on YouTube where you can watch many and many of his videos.

At least start by listening and learning from what he says as he suffered terrible depression and is now fully recovered.

Keep me updated and I hope to hear from you soon.

Kindest regards

Adam

I also feel a little down sometimes and I'm super depressed because of my injury. I just make myself busy so I dont have time to think about how unhappy I am

Hey mate. Im Sorry to read that you feel that way.

I have been combatting feelings like that for as long as I can remember.

Honestly.. I feel like I'm never not going to, and I'm okay with that! I have never taken anti depressants in my life, beacause I don't want them.

I'm gonna be real honest with you here mate, my strategy for combatting these thoughts.. just doing it anyway.. you know that thing you want to do but your afraid you are gonna mess it up somehow? Do it. Are you gonna mess it up? Probably! So what? People usually understand! And next time you'll be that much wiser! You don't have to jump in feet first in the deep end my freind, you can find activities in your surrounding area and train a bit first. When you feel like you are getting the hang on this "human" thing try socializing in your work space. And if you are thinking " yeah easy enough for him/her to say" then you should know that up until my 20s I was so afraid to interact with people that I would start crying just thinking about it. And about those thoughts about yourself that you have, f**k that noice!! Who are you, to tell you that you are useless?!? Huh? You think that s**t actually mean anything? Beacause I don't! Your just a person. Nothing more nothing less. And I think that's pretty f*****g good. So look me in my virtual eyes and say out loud, IM NOT WORTHLESS! F*****g DO IT!! I MEAN IT, SAY IT OUT LOUD! Beacause I know that you are not. You'r just a bit out of training. 

The reason I'm okay with not being okay most of the time, is beacause the times I am okay is worth it ten times over. 

Im sorry that this is a bit aggressive, but just know that I am a REAL person on the other side of a screen who cares.

Also, smile even if you don't mean it.. people will smile back at you. And you will start to mean it.

Well, at least you do work and get away from these feelings for a while, but for me i feel that im a mistake here, i dont find anyone that can understand me, 2 years ago i had the 2 friends that helped me but they died, i started to smoke, then i loved a girl who was a very good friend and a relative to me, but i convinced her and she just left me saying ( ur too fat for me) i lost weight and became in fine shape butcin my inside im completely broken, i just wanna graduate from college and put my mind in work for all of my time till i die, my family hates me because i didn’t go to faculty of medicine although im in Dentistry, im the type of person that say anything he feels but this made me unwelcomed anywhere so i spend all my time smoking, studying and setting alone in my room, i tried more that 4 times to kill myself, i really hate myself that i want anyone to kill me, I don’t know how to describe what i feel inside me, i feel like no one want to be a friend with me or at least talk to me even if it would be on social media, right now I’m listening to doom, death, black metal in hope to find who i am, I live because it will be my job to take care of people’s oral health, cus this will be the only thing im good at

Hey,

It's really very hard to even put down whatever you are experiencing right now, here in a few words. What you might be experiencing cannot actually be resolved by the few words and sentences I write here. But at least I can really advise a few things to you that might help you out. I know how difficult it can become to bounce back to one's usual self specially when someone is going through what you are right now. One often thinks of the time of how one was before and the realization that one has far moved beyond that state , doesn't really help. It's really not easy to get over depression. It's really cyclic and biological. Having said that , that doesn't really mean that we don't possess the power to overcome it. No amount of medication and therapy can ever help us, unless we are willing to help ourselves first.

Depression is a prolonged state where people find it difficult to experience happy emotions. Hopelessness, anxiety etc. accompany. A link that i found on the online counseling site ewellnessexpert.com that may prove to be very useful in tackling depression. The first step that must be taken is to consult a psychiatrist and take proper medications. Further steps that may be taken are mentioned in the following link:

https://www.ewellnessexpert.com/blog/246/yoga--a-helping-hand-in-depression

Needless to say, its better seek some professional help. they will definitely help you get a deeper insight into your problem.There are some things that you may do on your own to help yourself. Motivate yourself to work. find and revel in positives in your life. If your work gives you pleasure , well then thats great . You have one great reason to stay happy. What if you don't have any girls in your life. YOu are a confident individual who has a distinct identity regardless of whether you have girls around you or not. the very fact that your work people like you, proves that you are worth that appreciation and liking. Really. Don't dig in the issue further.

don't be harsh on yourself. The only person who can pull you out of the situation is you. Support your own self.

Take Care

Good Luck!!

I can relate to you, except i am a sucky 10 year old who surprisingly does have friends. But let me tell you something, I suck HARD. I am a failure, but you are not. You don't have much in life, so this is a perfect time for you. You just don't see it! Since nobody cares about you, you can change yourself. Just stop doubting yourself and pick up the gun, and obliterate your stress, your anxiety, and depression. Then you will be free, and be able to live free. As I sit here typing on a keyboard like I am only useful that way, you can change yourself. Also, try dreaming. This may be hard for the adult mind, but try. It is simple, just think about something you love really hard before bed, once you can become a dreamer, you are nearly unstoppable. Just don't believe that you are expendable, thats your bad side trying to corrupt you. Think you are the opposite of the hateful thougmehts, BELIEVE you are a awesome person, and once you do that, walk out the door and go get a friend. You need a little CONFIDENCE.

(If you have a phone, copy-paste this onto a reminder that goes off everyday. This is your chance, be a soldier of HOPE)

God created you for a reason, you will get what you need soon.

You are amazing. You should know that how the people see you depends on your self image. Work on that. No matter what it takes, even if take to become a absolute b*****d, develop you ego, selfishness and stuff. Doesn't matter, you are allready great. You know what bottom is looks like, now move! I dare you to move. Be allright.

i know its too late to reply you..but i feel the same way.I hope you are feeling better now.I am 21..i have been dealing with depression for 1 year..but the situation got worse when my boy friend of almost 3 and1/2 years left me saying that he has changed as a person and so does his feelings.I requested him continuosly for 3 months to come back to my life ..but all he said was i dont have feelings for you anymore and i won't come back to you..i have very few friends to talk to..i never had lot of friends.. now i feel worthless..and i think of dying everyday.