Hyper awareness to my existence

im so happy im not alone but im so sorry that so many of you all understand this feeling...i always get a hot flash first which makes me then start panicking because i realise im alive..ive never been able to explain it to anyone who understands, everyone just looks at me like im crazy, im not sure how to stop it or what triggers it but i hope you're all doing okay 😦

i know exactly what you're going thru and the thing is you're not alone. ive been thru the depths of hell with that condition...like it was so bad like english sounded like vowels and sounds coming from my parents mouth. i was even scared to look at my nose and ill catch a panic attack right there because i wasnt breathing right...BUT even tho i been thru all of that stuff..all of the symptoms you might have trust me ive been thru it the muscles spasms, the hyperawareness, the sensory overload, the panic attacks, the oins and needles, the constant switch from reality to a different dimension..i am 100% cured. and it took me a little bit to understand what was going in and what i had to do to heal myself from this..basically you just have to learn how to face the thoughts that come to you and let it happen...and as scary as it sounds its the only way to get better. cause once you start face those thoughts, facing those fears..eventually there wont be nothing to be afraid of..and also what really helped was playing my favorite video game, watching some nostalgic movies or shows..have the brain feel like its in a safe place again instead of constantly worrying cause thats why it STAYS in fight or flight mode. it takes time, just face the thought and breathe then go back to whatever it was you were doing. uhh reading out loud helps, talking on the phone with friends, listening to music, dancing, drawing, literally all the things you love to do...and some days are good some days are really bad but after the bad days the good days get longer and eventually there wont be no bad days. its only temporary, its not a forever thing.

It's nice to know that others are relating to this.

I first experienced this when I was 16.

It's like all of a sudden the whole world I was in just became a world of my own awareness of my existence. It felt like existence stopped existing. And it felt like the existence of it was either so long ago or it was just in a dream I woke up from that day. And I woke up in this void where I became conscious of my own unconscious. It didnt feel like I existed.

So, I dont know if this hyper awareness was just a symptom of depersonalization, or maybe depersonalization a symptom of hyper awareness.

But its felt like a puzzle I've been putting together since 1998.

I eventually got fed up with the help I seeked out looking at this like there was something wrong with me and that I needed to be fixed.

My consciousness started expanding and I found gifts with this "ability" and ways to integrate the intensity.

I also started to feel like that for about a year and it's too much for me to handle.It's almost as if I just realized that I exist and makes me feel like reality is fake or something.

hey im 26 , i have the same issues . idk why im here to be exact and its hard trying to figure out why . im at lost with this myself . hate to hear you go thru this , but from what im seeing its a journey . it just doesnt help when you have anxiety because the thoughts wont ever stop

I am SO happy to see that others have felt this. I've been suffering with this since 2015 and I haven't known how to explain it to therapists or how to help myself. I always become afraid that the thought or feeling is permanent and that it'll never stop. and that no one can help me because I'm so alone in it. I've recently started Effexor XR for the anxiety and panic attacks that I get, and I think it's made me better so far, and I just hope that it will continue to help me, and that I won't be held back from doing and trying things because I keep being afraid of the feelings and the panic starting.

This is exactly what I'm going through, pretty late to this thread but I'm literally so relieved to know I'm not alone, I thought I was losing my mind, I thought that I was going insane.

I've been going through this for a few days but it already feels like too long. It started after a long few weeks of depersonalization, dissociation and derealization all mixed together, I believe my process of reality checking eventually turned into conciousness/awareness checking? It's like I'm suddenly out of auto pilot but it's like constant, one awareness realization followed by the other and it makes the past seems meaningless, like I lost myself in the past and am a new person now.

I've also felt as if I die each time it happens and a new me is made. It's maddening. For now, I take calming meds and distract myself the best I can. It's helped me so far, if anyone know a way to fix this or at least get used to it, please share it

Hi.. reading this thread brought me so much peace.

i have been literally looking left and right to find someone i can speak to about this. I tried E V E R Y T H I N G !!! (and i have also heard it all).

From being told my '3rd eye is opening' to booking an appointment with a psychiatrist (keeping in mind i already have a life coach so i thought i had my s**t together). i just need answers. i need to understand why do i feel like i was just born? like i just became alive? then what was i doing all this time? i am scared all the time.. i am even scared to cry.. i am scared of my own feelings and my heartbeat.

everything feels and seems so strange to me. the simplest things from driving my car to attend meetings at work. nothing feels the same. Everything feels extra real. extra alive. extra colorful. extra.. scary...

Can someone let me know what this is? How do you get over it? What triggers it? How can i move on?

i miss being and feeling normal.

Hi! I believe I feel the same, if not close to what you have described. I've felt too aware of myself and living and its always on my mind all day. I feel alone about it all too. It's a bit hard to describe and put into words, but whenever I get the flash of feeling aware of things, I suddenly feel alone and stuck, like you've described. I would feel so conscious of existing and the existence of others and feel that nothing is real but at the same time feeling so real. Sometimes like a nostalgic feeling mixed with. This feeling would last for a while. Ive told other people what I've felt, but I don't think they really..understood? Ive searched what I've felt many times but I've never really understood it. I too have recently started feeling this way. More so for a month or two now. I don't know what caused it to happen. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety when I was young, but I'm still very confused on what has caused it. I'm just so aware of being aware of it, if that makes sense. But again I do think I've felt what you have. It could be anything like hyper awareness or along OCD. Not sure. Also, sorry if my words are all over the place lol. I'm trying to put my thoughts into words and it is HARD.

Hi, as a person who is battling this since around 3 years now and has known this feeling since many years, I wanna tell you the first thing first: IT WILL PASS! YES. The biggest concern I am reading in all comments under this topic everywhere is that "what if my brain is changed forever" or "am I gonna feel like this for years or forever?". No. It is not gonna be forever. It is not gonna be even an hour. It is one form of OCD, yes, and like all the OCDs, it feeds on your fear and attention. A very quick solution is to divert your mind if possible. Second solution, when you can't seem to distract, is to be mindful of the resistance you feel for these thoughts. Yes. Be mindful, not of the thoughts, but the resistance. The resistance is whats feeding it. If you watch movies, remember when a villain forces the hero into inhaling some kind of "fear toxin" which brings out their worst fears that can mentally cripple them. That is what's happening here. Notice the resistance, dont fight it, just see the monster, and say "oh you again, look man I got interesting things to do right now, laters!", and watch/listen something encouraging like fight soundtracks and visualize yourself walking away from that confused monster like a hero walks while a blast happens behind them. This may sound silly, but it has worked for me so many times. One more thing, remember when did you eat last time, if it has been over 3 hours, go and eat something. OCD attacks are harder on empty stomachs. More than at least 6 hours of sleep is compulsory as well. At least 15 min of exercise everyday. Do these activities like you are preparing to fight that monster from fear toxin. Try it! Make habit of doing any one breathing exercise regularly. One important thing: Journaling. Please Please Please do the journaling for every Hyperawareness attack once its over. Note what triggered it, and especially note how long it lasted and what got you out of it this time. So that, next time you will have references of your own experience that yes it passes, it did last time. You will see the time decreasing in your journal. If it lasted 4 hours, soon it will be an hour, then it will be 5 min and then you will live with acceptance that "even if it happens today, I am gonna be okay". That's your ultimate victory!

Seeing the responses and reading through has been so comforting as (much like everyone else has been saying lol!) ive felt very alone with this. However i think my situation might be a little different and i was hoping anyone could relate/help/share insight. i very much struggle with the reoccurring thoughts of awareness, while doing pretty much anything. the awareness that i am doing all of these things makes it feel fake? forced? almost like i cant enjoy the moment because im aware im experiencing it? and instantly spirals to the why. why am i doing this thing? with the addition of a pretty messed up view on life, most experiences feel meaningless as we are humans on big rock. the cherry on top is the anxiety that i am forcing these experiences (its lead me to think im manipulating it on purpose) and making me unsure of what i am feeling (good or bad). its very hard to put this kinda stuff into words and my issues could be caused by numerous things (WHICH IM ALSO VERY AWARE OF UGH)

very brief insight into my wild brain at the moment and any comment is appreciated 😃

Hi there,

I'm not sure if this is an old post or not, but I went hunting on the internet to see if anyone understood what I was thinking, and all I could find were explanations that didn't fit what I was thinking, until I stumbled across this! You word it so perfectly; ever since I was very young, I would just become hyper-aware of the fact that I am in a body and capable of movement and decisions, almost like when you remember you need to blink or breathe. It's always been highly unnerving and terrifying to me, and I didn't tell anyone because I thought I was crazy, but I'm so glad I found you!

If you ever find a solution or reason for this strange feeling, please let me know, I would really like to get a better grip on it!

thank GOD i'm not alone in this, i thought i was crazy for real. been having these thoughts for many months now and it like happens SO many times a day, like i suddenly just stop whatever i'm doing and become so conscious of my existence and uncomfortable in my own flesh that it feels like i'm gonna go nuts. it's super creepy and tiring. i tried explaining this feeling to my dad today but he did not understand me at all. it's really hard to explain, i couldn't really get the right words out... just glad i am not alone i guess.. but will it ever stop though??? i hope so cause literally WTF

ive been dealing with these exact feelings for about 6 months now! it all started when i was under a lot of stress and started experiencing panic attack, i started to fear them which turned into panic disorder. i started to fear that i was going crazy and felt like i could break any second. recently i found out i am extremely deficit in vitamin D3 so i started taking supplements along with magnesium glycinate for almost a month now and i think its already helped those thoughts go down a lot. not sure if theres an exact interaction between vitamins and anxiety but ive done research and many people have the same experience. the feeling hasnt gone away completely i still deal with moments everyday where i feel like ive just woken up and realize i exists but i try not to let it get to me as much. distraction helps a lot! i feared even getting out of bed because i didnt want to feel that way. now ive been forcing myself to live my life as normally as i can and ive been doing better.