I dont know what im going to be capable of in the future?
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my severe clinical depression is getting worse every single day. i self harm alot on a daily basis and have multipul panic attacks each day.im on prozac. i dont know what to do with my self. i cant 'hang in there' anymore. im seeing doctors and start CBT in a few weeks. im just another depressed heartbroken worthless teenage boy who knows nothing about the world. suicidal thought have been entering my mind lately. please help me, just reply(((((
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AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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worldlywings kirancrampton
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Mercybemine kirancrampton
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kirancrampton Mercybemine
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Vickycam kirancrampton
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AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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Just to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope last night wasn't too bad. Did you call a helpline in the end? Just to remind you as well, you don't have to wait 'till it's really bad to call them!
Anyways, hope you are doing OK. We're getting there!
Best wishes,
anonymousgirl x
kirancrampton
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robin77577 kirancrampton
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Kiran, write to us and tell us that you are leaving the house to go to the hospital. If you cannot go by bus...and that is likely too much for you, then call an ambulance. Btw, it is the fastest way to be admitted immediately without waits, delays etc.. Best idea: call 999.
Take a special amulet or key chain or tiny object that is dear to you that you can put in your pocket and hold or touch to keep you feeling safe. Keep focussed on the light at the end of the tunnel. Create some kind of visual so that you can stay focussed. Maybe it is a happy place in the country where you went as a child and were very happy or maybe it's a lovely beach where you once went.
If someone can go with you, or even drive you, that's better. You must get to the hospital now, Kiran, now!
AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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I don't want you to feel this way and I'm sorry that you do but I can't be here all the time.
Keep trying at your breathing exercises and maybe call your therapist again and ask for a drop-in session instead of waiting until your next session.
Still thinking of you,
anonymousgirl
AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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But maybe Robin, has a good idea to go to a hospital. Maybe they will be able to help you more than we can.
We are still here if you feel you can't bring yourself to hospital though. We are just very worried about you because we care about you. We don't want you to be in pain anymore and we know it's hard waiting but please do it for us.
Just either way, keep chipping back at it as I said, keep chipping back.
I think Robin's idea of a visual is good. Even if you have to close your eyes and talk to yourself, do it. But maybe you would feel better if you call an ambulance.
xxxx
Mercybemine kirancrampton
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robin77577 Mercybemine
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Thanks for caring, David.
Robin
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AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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Are you online by any chance? I was hoping to get to talk to you for a little while while we were both online. I was offline when you wrote again a little while ago. Sorry I missed you.
I am worried about you, hope you are doing alright?
I would love to have a chat if you are free at some stage to talk?
Thanks,
anonymousgirl
kirancrampton
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hopfully it will start to get better in a month or somthing. thankyou all for your suport
xxx
robin77577 kirancrampton
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kirancrampton robin77577
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robin77577 kirancrampton
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As anonymous girl said at one point, I think. A panic attack isn't going to kill you although it may feel like it. Find what calms you; visualizing something that is calming to you...a beach. Would this help?...or any other video you see at the right side of the screen? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qREKP9oijWI
Good that you have some relief...which may take some time to kick in.
I still believe you should be in hospital...but you are the only one who can make the decision to go. They would be able to assess, observe you and help you 24/7. You decide. Take care.
AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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This sounds like great news. The sleeping pills will help you sleep and this will help your mood. I am so glad you went to your doctor.
Sounds like your doctor and therapist are really trying to help you which is great.
xxxxxx
AnonymousWoman kirancrampton
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I hope my tips were helpful in some way too.
Keep trying, we are all here for you and we all want to help you get better xx
kirancrampton AnonymousWoman
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