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Have been on mirtazapine for 6 years and the last 3 have been pure hell!
They worked to start with was put on them after birth of daughter because i wasn't sleeping making me depressed.
Tried sertraline but made insomnia worse.
First 3 years they worked great either on 30 or 45 depending how i was at at the time.
Then 3 years ago i increased to higher dose within 7 weeks I had my first full blown panic attack! Never ever had one before.
My oartner at the time called an ambulance we both thought i was having a heart attack! I was a very chilled laid back bubbly girl whocould handle pretty much anything.
I dealt with my problems and whoever else needed my help I'd take it all in my stride. I had no reason to panic and still don't now. Didn't occur to me that it could have been the meds causing this
Quite the opposite. That maybe i was really ill and I needed them more than ever.
The paramedics told me that it was just a panic attack but I was first one in the docs the following morning.
My usual doc was on a sebatical so had to see stand in. She gave me diazipams and told me to relax and see how I feel. They helped but id be wakingbthrough night with attacks
Whichbi found impossible to calm down from. I was scared! Why was this happening to me?
Doc said i think youre on wrong meds and cross tapered mirt with citalopram. Long story short I got much much worse. How i still functioned I dont know.
Thingd did calm down a bit on 30nof mirt and 40 of citbbut not much panicking daily only think that helped was alcohol.
I was afraid to take diazipams due to addiction. Wt? I remember the days I used to taoevthese for fun?
Cit made my belly bad. So weaned myself off those felt a bit better so struggled through for 6 months using diazipams if i got too bad. Wasn't having full blown panic attacks just terrible morning anxiety which carried on low through the days.
Started to hate diazipams because of sedating effects I wanted to be able to get on with things as it made me feel better. I was getting quite frustrated. Not depressed. I wasn't scared to go out and do anything just didn't have the energy for it.
So went back to doc who increased my dose back to 45. Within 7 weeks BAM!! Id been set back 3 years.
So finally think weve got to the root of it. But now having to withdraw. I keep my focus on that I can already seeing great improvment already. Ie no panic attaks or anxiety spikes and the ones ibdo get are manageable and down to withdrawal.
I thought id start this thread now to see if 1 anyones experienced anything simular/or is expierencing it now! 2 to gain support from people who understand.
I will check in regularly to help supprt anyone who thinksbi maybe able to helpnand let you know how withdrawal process is getting on
Currently on 30 mirt day 9 of reduction from 45.
Pahic attacks have stopped and anxiety spikes have dropped. Diazipams help when needed. Tried propranolol but they kade me tired flat and depressed.
Have a headache and feel sick but if i lay still I'm fine. Funny though in the evenings i feel instantly better after taking my mirt. Like a sense of calm.
Anyways thanks if youve made it this far and look forward to hearing your views
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