I'm struggling to cope with my anxiety
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Hello
I am suffering with generalised anxiety disorder, it started at the end of September when I came back from holiday, I feel sick all the time, shaky, palpitations, negative thoughts, tummy troubles, fear being alone, I just don't know where to turn.
I am on Prozac 40 mg daily that only got increased today as I was only on 20mg, and I was referred to the mental health team and they put me on pregabalin 50mg twice daily about a month ago but still no joy.
I am only 25 and I have lost both my parents a few years back, and turnt to alcohol which put me in intensive care with slight brain damage that caused visual problems, but I can't ever drink alcohol again, but I keep getting negative thoughts about drinking again which I hate, and I feel so down and hopeless, I finished my last session of counselling yesterday and that hasn't even helped!
I don't know what to do, please can anyone tell me I'm not alone? I just want to cry
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Emis_Moderator
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alex80074
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Emis_Moderator
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We do not mind links to other sites if they are not for profit and useful for other users such as self help groups, charities etc or general medical sites if it is something patient.info does not have information on. If we start allowing links to specific sites especially ones selling products it would snowball and is free advertising for those sites. If it is a product or person being discussed as in your post users can Google the details or use the message facility to ask for the specific link. Hope this helps.
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alex80074
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Emis_Moderator
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Alan
alex80074
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So yesterday I had a think. My usual tablet routine is a. breakfast 8.00am b. 5.00pm. which meant there was 15 hrs between doses overnight. I read yesterday Pregabalin has a 6 hr 'half life' in your system. Last night I delayed taking my Pregabalin until 8.00 (by which time I'd developed a significant anxiety tremor). It was 10.00 before the tremor subsided noticeably. Bed at 11.00 and read till 1.30 am and got off to sleep!
Woke at 8.00 am (my usual when 'normal'). That's the first nights sleep in a week. I did wake with a strong tremor but nothing like the 'hab dabs' of late.
Could be psychosomatic; I'll keep you posted on that one.
alex80074
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Don't know if it's coincidence, but I'm astonished to feel considerably better; ie. not laid in bed moaning and screaming.
The slight change in times taking the Pregabalin seem to be significant. It's the first time I've been out of the house in over a week. Starting to feel like me again.
My one pal (who lives 40 miles away) has been over for an hour every day. if it weren't for him I honestly believe I wouldn't be here now. He took me shopping and bought me lunch (which I devoured). I've lost .75 of a stone in a week.
Listened to the Jeremy Vine/Dr Tim Cantofer feature on radio 2 yesterday. It felt like they were talking about me! Will have to get in touch with them.
sally52255
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alex80074
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The information I've gleaned directly or indirectly from here during this episode has been a real eye-opener to me as a long term sufferer of GAD. Didn't even know it was a recognised condition!
My biggest problem in the past was articulating how I felt and what was happening to me. I think I've got enough to 'go back' to my GP and Consultant and be a lot more coherent.
Tomorrow I'm going to ring my GP and try and persuade him to up the Pregabalin dosage. That process in itself will be a battle.
hollie011288
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Just an update, my pregabalin has been increased to 100mg twice daily on Friday but I am still not feeling any better, I know you have to give tablets time but I'm fed up of feeling like this, I'm currently staying at my mother in laws but I am going home tomorrow and I'm dreading it, I don't feel comfortable in my house , and I don't no why, nothing has happend indoors and I usually love it there living 2 seconds away from the coast!
My side of the family keep moaning at me and shouting, and this was on my mums anniversary on the 17th (a day when I especially didn't need a grilling) I lost my mum at 18 , my dad at 21 and I'm an only child, my aunt and uncle took over the role of my mum and dad but now there the ones moaning at me, they live 3 doors away from me so I go there 4 days a week from 12 pm until 5pm because now I don't want to be alone, and now they don't want me round there because I'm apparently getting them down, but when my boyfriend goes to work I go into my aunts and now they don't want me I don't know what I'm going to do with myself throughout the day as I will be in full blown panic!
I know I need to return to work but I don't feel well enough and their forcing me back, I have to put on a big brave face but inside I'm hurting, and worrying/panic! I moved 40 miles away 3 years ago so I have no friends where I live, there all back to where I used to live and I'm going to feel so alone, I haven't got any hobbies I just like to keep my house clean have a normal routine I.e getting up going to work, coming home and preparing a meal then getting my pyjamas on watch a bit of TV and go to bed, then look forward to my weekends!
My life has come to a stand still with negative thoughts and now loneliness and I don't know what to do
alex80074
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It seems a sad truth for most people to want those around them to conform to what THEY regard as normal and perhaps the kind of 'normal' you have grown up to expect (that's the best way I can phrase what I mean).
In an ideal world we all would be better if we knew ourselves completely, what we are, what we want, what's possible, what isn't. Sometimes it's more, sometimes it's less.
There are aspects to your life which are immensely worthwhile. You have a home where when you close the door you can do whatever you want without someone dictating how you do it. That's an incredible asset and blessing in itself. There's nothing wrong with the routine you want and you have a job to fall back on when you are ready to go back.
I'm sorry you're lonely, but a lot of us are, it's the scourge of modern 'society'. Really, you're not completely alone.
Keep posting XX
alex80074
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And you have a boyfriend! I can only wish he is aware of how you feel and is your soulmate. There's only so much we can lean on people before they fall over. It's a mutual balancing act, hopefully.
hollie011288
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I know but it's the fact I need them at the moment and the only place where I'm comfortable is at my mother in laws, I don't know whether to move or what !
How do I get over the fact of being home alone, I just sant to be normal again, what medication do you take? Xx
alex80074
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I was put on Pregabalin for another condition, but found it is useful treating anxiety.I'm on 300mg a day at the moment. Due to my present crisis I've been compelled to look it up. I think my dosage needs to be increased and am persueing that today with my 'mental health team'.
alex80074
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It's been agreed to increase my Pregabalin dose and I'm so grateful it wasn't the hassle I'd expected. Will update on the effect.
Just letting everyone know things can be done.