I still don't feel the same after smoking weed for the first time. NEED SUPPORT PLEASE

I'm really glad I ran into this comment. I was thinking about the afterlife today, and the memory of smoking weed a couple years back came to my mind. The reason this was because during this high I felt like I was dying and somehow went to hell or something, still dont know where I was and how, but Its crazy that you literally explained EVERYTHING I felt during this scary experience.. as well as the after effects leading to vision problemm, schizophrenia, ect. I'm kind of relieved that i ran into this comment, so I know that i am not the only one who has experienced. Im glad you said in another comment that you are mostly fine now. Just like you, life in general has distracted me from this awful experience, but today it came up in my head and has gave me a weird feeling today, which lead me to this comment! Hope you are still doing well!

So I have been experiencing this for 5 years now after smoking weed with my friend, after smoking it I had a severe anxiety attack and I thought people were chasing me home. After that night I have never felt the same, I experience a lot of floaters along with blurred vision very often. The blurred vision is always worse in busy environments and at night time. Sometimes I really struggle to do simple activities such as my makeup, I freak myself out now whilst doing it because it doesn't feel real. A lot happened to me since that day but I am still trying my best to live my life normally since then. I do struggle on a daily basis but I keep pushing. This thread has made me feel so much better because I know I'm not alone. I think the main root of the cause is anxiety and learning how to handle it better. I hope we can all fully get rid of this one day and live our lives normally again.

right pretty annoyed I had to sign up to give people life changing information but okay. so for your issue, you've clearly sent your brain and body through intense trauma, now the reason this may still be going on years later, firstly it has nothing to do with what you took in now, at the time it did, but your body has long pushed that out, the reason you feel 70% 4 years later is because you are still dealing with anxiety and depression which can cause a wide variety of symptoms including like not feeling like you're in reality and sometimes can feel like border line insanity. I got this before after overdosing on pre workout, which the product i used is now banned because of how much it was ruining people's lives, but i have been completely 100% cured from the exact symptoms you're describing. you need to cut all sugar out, get in the sun as much as possible, exercise regularly, eat food high in vitamin d and food that causes regulation of hormones, sockeye salmon, spinach, eggs, lemons, blueberries, brown rice, avoid white bread and white rice, sweet potatoes are really good. only bottled water that doesn't contain fluoride, fluoride leads to brain fog and sense of withdrawal from reality. once you've got diet and exercise under control you need to meditate you are trying solve a spiritual problem with physical remedies. and if non of the above works there's a cure that will work almost immediately, magic mushrooms, look it up they reset chemical imbalances in your brain, your trip will be very relevant to your issues, people in your position have reported hallucinations of crying black tears while on their trip which they believed was all the badness leaving their bodies, magic mushrooms will reset your brain completely, it doesn't matter if you have a good or bad trip your brain will be reset and you will feel the once upon time grounded to reality feeling you've been craving from all those years ago, they're called magic mushrooms for a reason, they work like magic

Hello everyone,

I read through everyone's replies on this topic and what you guys are all going through. TRUST ME it gets better. I smoked weed/dab pen for the first time back in junior year of high school. I had such a bad panic attack because I didn't know what to expect from being high because I never smoked and was in a bad enviroment for trying it. I felt my eyes get very heavy then my heart opening and closing and it really scared me. I layed down on the ground outside a teachers room and asked for help felt like I was having a heart attack. Ambulance came checked my heart rate and it was 180 Beats Per Minute which was extremely high. I thought I was dying. Went home once I was with my family and my mom I mellowed out and relaxed and just sat back and watched TV and had laughs. Around a week later I tried to smoke again. This time in school. I was trying to "fake" a hit to be "cool". So I took a hit of the dab pen and blew the out and saw I blew alot of smoke out. Went to sit down and I was thinking oh my god i'm going to freak out why did I do that. Went to the nurses office and asked if I could go home. Then the "high" hit. I wasn't enjoying it because of my anxiety. It wasn't laced or anything but anytime I turned I would see slow motion and see it happen multiple times in my head. Any time I drank Ice Cold water during this the coldness I didn't feel hit my mouth till around 5 Seconds after drinking it. I really thought I was dying during these times but it's just in your brain. So after both of these times I didn't suffer from depersonalization. It was after I got in school suspension and was in the room and just thought to myself im fd. I have so much work to do and this is going to f**k so many opportunities I had set for me. I started tripping out and after that day every day I would feel like i'm "constantly high". Derealization also known as Depersonalization is the feeling your not actually there and your basically "high" all the time. Trust Me everyone I promise you it gets better. I suffered from it for Months because I didn't do anything about it. Then 1 Day I was sitting in my room and just accepted everything I did. Yes I fd up and smoked and had bad anxiety. I'm not going to let this conquer and take over me for the rest of my life. You just have to accept that you have it and this might not make sense but focus on your depersonalization for around 5 Minutes and just think to yourself. All it is is your brain tricking you into thinking your not actually in this world. I started smoking CBD Flower and taking CBD Gummies and it helped me so much and relieved all my stress. I wanted to try smoking weed again so bad since Junior year and to this day am still afraid. Not from the weed. But if I have a reaction. The smell of dabs and weed makes me anxious because of the 2 times I smoked and had bad trips. I got these gummies called Delta 8. They get you high but not so much that it pushes you over the edge. You can smoke and take them all day and night and it won't make you so high your paranoid and trip. That's what I do now. I hope everything I said helps some people through what there going through and just want to tell you it does get better. If anyone wants to talk or needs someone to ask questions about any of this add my snapchat i'd be glad to help people through it. My snapchat is BrendonVallery

hey! im 20 and recently smoked for the second time ever. this time was definitely stronger than the first and i instantly knew it was a bad trip. i started nonstop spitting, followed by symptoms of an anxiety induced high (shaking uncontrollably, sudden feeling of doom, racing heart, trouble breathing, nausous, felt like i was freezing cold, and a major sense of body detachment). this happened 15days ago. i have taken delta 8 gummies before, and they NEVER made me feel anywhere close to how that weed high had me. my friends were all perfectly fine from it, but ive definitely not been anywhere close to the same as before smoking (only took 3hits). ive been to the psychiatrist and majority of the medicines arent working with me well. ive never had such an awful feeling before i started experiencing this constant anxiety. its hard for me to even go on trips, i havent driven since just because im scared ill freak out. even just going fishing with my friends the other day, i barely made it through. this whole process is just scary and i want to go back to normal! i just dont know how, especially since this is literally the only article i have found that has described how i felt to a T. Before i was such a uppity go person around friends, in fact, life was going good besides my grandma dying a month ago. there are so many possibilities of what could be causing this: the stress in my life, the weed i smoked 15days ago, or since im THIS desperate for possibilities- mercury retrograde. Im genuinely at a loss. ive been healthy all my life, i dont want to be dependant on medicine that makes me feel like s**t/uncomfortable, i dont want this constant anxious feeling, i want to be able to confidently go about my life again- including being able to drive without worrying.

At first i thought it was just the weed & that id be fine, then i had a breakdown in my car & went to the hospital bc i couldnt stop crying snd freaking out. then i convinced myself that it would stop once the weed was fully out of my system. then i was convinced that it just is having lingering effects on me thatll go away soon. i just dont know what to do! ill NEVER do any drug ever again (even tho ive only smoked twice in my life). Any helpful advice? tips? recommendations on talking to a doctor about this to fix it? has anyone overcome this? will i overcome it? will i have to live with this feeling the rest of my life? someone please help 😦 im scared and have had so many plans for this summer & dont want them screwed up bc of this one mistake that id take back in a heart beat! help please!

my snap is leekie_daname

I am literally going through the same thing now.

Im 15 years old nearly 16 and i have bad trips nearly everytime i do it. There was only one time i didn't and the very first time i did, i didnt know what to expect and i thought i was living in a dream, like nothing was real and everything was just going in a loop over and over again. Its like i was stuck in this alternate dimension but then i calmed myself down and i carried on. But then i did it again 3 days ago, i had a bad trip and i had to go to school, it went down during the day and then i drank alcohol that night, and then smoked again in the morning and its been 2 days now and im full freaking out because its like im in someone elses body, watching what they are doing. Im really glad that im not the only one though but im scared that its not going to go back to normal. If i stare at a wall it goes back to normal and then if i get up or touch something it goes back to it. When i talk outloud its like im not actually talking, its like im talking in my head but im not? and then i would ask if i talked outloud and they would say i did, And everytime i move my head i forget that i moved my head and my chest feels tight and i cant sleep at all, i tried sleeping and i kept forgetting to breath, and so everytime i would close my eyes i would have a mini panick attack because i wasnt breathing. is this normal ?

Hey i ran across your post and it is what i really feel like now, out of my body, cannot concentrate or focus, it is hard to thinks i cant think clearly, feeling like i am dreaming or depersonalized. This is my first time smoking weed and feels like its never gonna end, this is 4th day i am feeling like this, it is strange to interact with things and i am conscious bout everything but like somethings off, i don't know if its ptsd or something wrong with my head because like my mind is sleeping while i am awake, it is really strange and i am anxious, stressed and scared, somebody help?

oh my god. i just read this and burst into tears, it's EXACTLY what I'm going through!! i thought i was having a mental break down but i remembered i had two edibles on a week off before these symptoms came back (i used to feel like this after edibles a year ago and never put two and two together). you're definitely not the only one! thinking back on it, i didn't feel like this a few months after last smoking so I'm hoping it will go away. I've also been feeling intense paranoia, not sure if that's something you've been experiencing also?

I smoked weed for the first(and last) time a year ago with a friend. We both smoked the same bud, from the same pipe yet I totally lost my mind and she was fine. Within 3 minutes of smoking it, I got super panicky, like I knew too much. She tried to calm me down which only made things worse; I knew how bad things were because of how she was responding. Everything went down hill from there. I sat down and, as she tried to calm me, I fell flat on my face and had what I can only describe as a total out-of-body-experience. It was like being full body slapped out of myself to where I could see me laying on the floor dying. I can still vividly remember the entire thing as if it happened yesterday. My friend was kneeling down on my left trying to get me to respond. I was in a trance, stuck between life and death, and God was giving me the choice of weather to live or die. My head was turning from left to right, left to live, right to die. My entire life flashed in front of me, things I knew, things I had yet to know and it was here that I knew what my choice was. The whole time, my friend was saying, "Oh, Jesus, Andrew!" Over and over, she kept saying that. And in my head, I was saying, "Just Jesus, just Jesus", like I wanted her to pray I guess. Finally, I got aggressive and forced the words, "No, Just Jesus!" and instantly, like everything was being rewound, I found myself sitting again. I knew right away something strange had happened because my friends cat was freaking out and she had a terrified look on her face, like she couldn't comprehend anything. She tried to ask me if I was alright, but, for some reason, in my head she had become the enemy now. At some point during my out of body experience, I had come to the conclusion that she was a trap, a temptress and I had to avoid her at all cost. I knew the very act of even speaking to her would end me. So I did the only logical thing I could. I got up and made a bee line for the door. Within 20 feet of her house I came to the conclusion that I had to get rid of anything I had in my hands, which was my wallet and car keys. Those went in the nearest trash can(It was garbage night and all the trash cans were at the curb) Over the next four hours I wandered the streets of her town barefoot, living a thousand lifetimes and dying just as many. What happened in those hours has somewhat faded, but what I do remember vividly is the many times I ended up in hell. Each time had a distinctively creative touch to it, as if the one who sent me there took pleasure in the fact that I was there. Of the many times I found myself there, one was the cliche of the ending road with signs of warning. Only, this road was a road I knew, a road I had been on and the signs were actual street signs somehow interpreted ominously at the time. The other times were decidedly more creative, with a harsh flare to them. In one, I was walking along through this town I was actually in, only to find myself walking onto sand. And on this goes up onto an empty beach, with an umbrella and beach ball. A Hawaiian shirt and sun glasses drop down onto me. A picture perfect scene. And on the right, as I'm walking up to the waters edge, just on the horizon, a sign- WELCOME TO HELL. It was to late to turn back and everything fell away to the street I was on before. I was relieved! Panicked but relieved. I roamed the streets for what seemed like a lifetime, coming to the conclusion that I had indeed died and this was in fact my hell. Just when all seemed lost I made it to a part of town that had some shops and one was open.(It was well past 2am) I had been walking for forever and I had to use the restroom. I went inside and found the bathroom. Opening the door, I stepped in, the light came on. Instantly, like being on a ride at an attraction, I was moved to directly in front of the mirror. A sign lit up just to the right directing me to look over and smile. I knew what was coming. A twisted smile curled on my face; I fought hard not to look in the camera. A second passed and I considered looking. I ran. I opened the door and ran as fast as I could... back onto the streets of my death. Out there I was alone, and I lived eternal. And then I wasn't. After a lifetime of convincing myself that my friend was the enemy, sent by God to test me, I found my way back to her house. Only she wasn't there. Someone else answered the door. It was a man with kids and a wife. I lost my mind. It turns out I actually went to the wrong house. Hers was a block down, but in my tripping state I got them confused. Once back at her place I sat down and started to gather myself. She sat there and reassured me that everything was going to be okay. And she sat there and reassured me that everything was going to be okay. And everything's going to be okay. For another lifetime. And on it went. Once I had had enough of that, it became a game of how long can you not use any random object in the room to kill yourself with. And I succeed. I got up and left. And lived a lifetime. And found my way back. The song "What Sara Said" by Death Cab for Cutie kept flashing in my head the entire time I was experiencing this. To get out, to find my way back to my friend Sara after such an ordeal always felt so far away. And yet I made it back. When I finally made it back, she had called her dad out of horror at what had happened, terrified that she had nearly killed me. We sat in the living room and they both asked me if I was okay. They wanted to make sure I was okay before her dad left. And that they were here for me. They just needed to know that I was okay... that I was okay... that I was okay...

I think we all just need to realise that we suffer from anxiety as mentioned by many. Anxiety is treatable we just need to find the right help. If you feel your going crazy you are actually sane. As God said be not afraid.

Hey Leah, I am going through the same exact thing and am looking for help as well. If you see this by chance could you please shoot me a text or a message on sc. My snap is peytonmck5801

im sorry but you are not alone im 15 and tried weed i weed i tried it 3 times and thos times where fun but than i tried a 4th time and my heart was racing i thought i was dying and went the hospital they said everthing is fine. all the sytopms you have is everthing i have ive been having them for about a year it is getting better and i think nothing last forever so i think it will ware of just it will take alot of time to happen.

im sorry that this happen to you to but it happen to me aswell when i was reading your story i thought i was seeing things everthing u said im going thru too u took my words out my mouth but im getting bettet and its only been a year and i think stuff like that does not last forever and it will go away it will just take some time hope u feel better!!!