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I still don't feel the same after smoking weed for the first time. NEED SUPPORT PLEASE

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Leah208
Leah208

Hello, Im posting here to get some reassurance and support. It has been over a year and a half now since I tried an illigal high (weed) for the first time and suffered a panic attack in which I thought I was going to lose my mind and die, and end up in a mental hospital. The high lasted about 4.5 hours. Nothing felt real and when the high wore off things didn't feel the same as before. I found out about derealization and depersonalization and I think that is what I have been dealing with since. I was diagnosed with GAD and I think I might of had it prior to smoking the pot but not to an extent that it bothered me.

The best way to explain it it just feels like something is off, nothings the same, i feel disconnected in a way. Like i keep trying to compare how i fet before the high (normal) to now but I cant exactly pinpoint what it is.

My vision gets weird and its hard to focus on anything. I see "noise" or static like tiny dots (visual snow) when looking at the night sky and floaters when looking at the blue sky. All things I have never experienced before the high.

At the start of this hell I thought I had died or that I was in hell. (It felt like it and my anxiety was through the roof and i felt nausous and panicky). I was obsessed with thinking i was going insane (schizophrenic) infact I still do get VERY VEEEEERY scared about it. Thinking that i could go mad. I also have light sensetivity wheb i look at something i get an afterimage if it that stays in my vision for a bit.

I feel like i had all my life ahead of me and now i cant live life like before. As if a part of me died. (Im not delusional though i dont think).

What has made it tolerable is being busy with study and work... But when im free all i do is be upset about it and feel miserable. I dont want medication because if the side effects and risks of psychosis/suicide.

I have no energy to do anything at times...

And i think the more time goes by the more i lose hope.

Please PLEASE if you can relate or have advice/support please contact me or reply to me here.

Thank you so much

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  • julyana06642
    julyana06642 Leah208

    Posted

    I know exactly how you feel. I have felt this way and idk what to do. If you could please write back so we could get in contact that would be so nice to talk to someone who feels the same way I do!!
  • Chills07
    Chills07 Leah208

    Posted

    I am going through the same thing when I saw this I cried cuz I thought I was the only one I don’t wanna live my life like this and I just keep hoping that I will the same one day I’m sorry that you have to go like this and now I constantly rethink my life and wishing I didn’t 
  • ray97372
    ray97372 Leah208

    Posted

    Hey Leah,

    Your story sounds very similar too mine. I smoked weed and never quite felt the same. its been 8 years now. And its started to get really hard to deal with this. I go through immense anxiety and depression cause of it and dont know what to do anymore. Id love to talk you. do you by chance have an email or some other way i could contact you. Id really like to talk to you on a personal level.

  • chuboy55375
    chuboy55375 Leah208

    Posted

    hi lena , i recently made the same mistake and smoked a gravity bong and i went on a bad trip never been the same again .

    I NEED TO KNOW THE STEPS I GO TO BECUZ I HAVE BEEN TO THE HOSPITAL

    twice alone this week and all this happened due to peer influence

    need your advice please

  • fatima45552
    fatima45552 Leah208

    Posted

    I'm 17 I smoked weed 4 or 5 weeks ago.. everything you said I'm going through as of right now and in those 4 or 5 weeks. it's scary I doubt my experience everyday.. and honestly looking at people doesn't feel the same and sometimes things sound speedy, The most that scared me when I was high is the feeling on being stuck in an endless loops. Everything doesn't feel the same anymore it feels off and it can be overwhelming. I'm scared and I don't know how to deal with this. I keep thinking back and never did it. Everyday is a challenge. I do yo through metal health but this weed has made things worse I just miss feeling normal again and I'm afraid of doing anything. Simple stuff like going for a walk alone like I always do.. I feel much more paranoid as well.. I feel so drained.. Honestly sometimes I feel as if my body is numb it scares me I think sometimes I'm in a coma it sounds stupid but seriously my mind is everywhere and my emotions are caught up in a not I just want help but no one seems to understand after this weed nothing feels the same and I hate it.. I feel so alone and everything feels so quiet it drives me insane I don't k ow what to do...

  • data86684
    data86684 Leah208

    Posted

    hey I am also feeling the same effect just as you have mentioned above from past 23 days

    I smoked weed for first time

    Please tell me that how to cure myself

    Is this is temporay or permanent

    Have your effects gone or not

  • vicky60291
    vicky60291 Leah208

    Edited

    Hi Leah ,you sound as you are vitamin D deficient , your brain function took a hit with the weed , an allergic reaction to a chemical in the weed changing you brain chemicals . First have your vitamin D tested ,or start taking a low dosage is 2,000 iu of D3 a day ... Do you not get a lot of sun a day ? Second start eating foods that is brain healthy as in oats , nuts , blueberries , eggs , broccoli , etc , research a list of healthy foods to replenish your chemicals . Third drink plenty of water to help flush out any toxins . Forth calm down by , putting on easy listening music or your favorite tunes , get a hobby even until things even out .. Best.

    • data86684
      data86684 vicky60291

      Edited

      SIR

      i am also suffering from the above condition as leah mentioned

      I know that i am in my sense but it feels like that i am not in the present moment

  • dayton94361
    dayton94361 Leah208

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    I understand how you feel i smoked weed for the first time two days ago and i had a bad trip everything you said i felt . Hearing your story and others made me to believe that it was just because i did to much

  • holden95031
    holden95031 Leah208

    Posted

    same here going on 9 years almost for the same reason. if anyone would like to talk that has the same issue and or if i could help with another issue please feel free to talk

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