I still don't feel the same after smoking weed for the first time. NEED SUPPORT PLEASE
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Hello, Im posting here to get some reassurance and support. It has been over a year and a half now since I tried an illigal high (weed) for the first time and suffered a panic attack in which I thought I was going to lose my mind and die, and end up in a mental hospital. The high lasted about 4.5 hours. Nothing felt real and when the high wore off things didn't feel the same as before. I found out about derealization and depersonalization and I think that is what I have been dealing with since. I was diagnosed with GAD and I think I might of had it prior to smoking the pot but not to an extent that it bothered me.
The best way to explain it it just feels like something is off, nothings the same, i feel disconnected in a way. Like i keep trying to compare how i fet before the high (normal) to now but I cant exactly pinpoint what it is.
My vision gets weird and its hard to focus on anything. I see "noise" or static like tiny dots (visual snow) when looking at the night sky and floaters when looking at the blue sky. All things I have never experienced before the high.
At the start of this hell I thought I had died or that I was in hell. (It felt like it and my anxiety was through the roof and i felt nausous and panicky). I was obsessed with thinking i was going insane (schizophrenic) infact I still do get VERY VEEEEERY scared about it. Thinking that i could go mad. I also have light sensetivity wheb i look at something i get an afterimage if it that stays in my vision for a bit.
I feel like i had all my life ahead of me and now i cant live life like before. As if a part of me died. (Im not delusional though i dont think).
What has made it tolerable is being busy with study and work... But when im free all i do is be upset about it and feel miserable. I dont want medication because if the side effects and risks of psychosis/suicide.
I have no energy to do anything at times...
And i think the more time goes by the more i lose hope.
Please PLEASE if you can relate or have advice/support please contact me or reply to me here.
Thank you so much
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jonathan2020 Leah208
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KEEP YOUR BRAIN OCCUPIED WITH OTHER THINGS NOT JUST YOUR BODY BUT YOURE BRAI @ (sorry forgot to mention it)
josh39986 Leah208
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I still feel like that after I smoked 2 days ago please reply if you see this
sam30413 josh39986
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how do you feel now? mine mostly went away after 3-4 days. This is what happened to me:
so I've tried smoking weed twice and edibles once (so a total of 3 times over the past 5 months). The first time I passed out and felt like I was in a time loop and when I woke up I got super anxious and scared (the scariest experience of my life. I felt like life wasnt real for a bit!) The second and third time I passed out again and then woke up really anxious and scared but less severe than the first time. I will NEVER try weed again. I felt better about 3 days after the weed had worn off but I still have a little anxiety and fear at the back of my mind because of it. When I'm alone i can get a little sad and overthink a lot now but when im around people I tend to forget about it. Everyone says weed is safe, but it really isnt.
Jadon213 sam30413
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well what your experiencing is really scary. mine ended after half a year. now i still don't always feel me but I only feel like that when i dont get sleep or i get super sad. so what the weed did we trigger really bad depression and anxiety and when that happens your head activates safe mode making you numb to feelings and emotions thats why you feel weird because you dont feel no emotion.
addie1617 Leah208
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I have had some health problems that cause me to have chronic nausea. I have been recommended weed by many friends and I was going to try it but I am hesitant now after reading this. I have a pretty bad anxiety disorder already and feel mostly all those symptoms you listed above on a daily basis already. I have never smoked weed for real but I have been using CBD in high doses in attempt to control horrible period cramps and nausea. At first I swore It was making my heart pound like crazy but I didn't get anxious or anything I think it was just in my head tbh. But now it doesn't effect my heart I just dont think it does anything at all. They say you need real weed for it to work but I am terrified now after reading so many people being impacted years later? I always was under the impression that once the high wore off it would be fine? At a concert one time when I was 18 EVERYONE was smoking and I was inhaling second hand from the person in front of me for like three hours straight. I didn't think anything of it at first but looking back I think I was second hand high cause I was so anxious at the concert, it went away right when I got home tho and I felt fine after. I really want to smoke cause I can't really drink cause of my stomach and I refuse to ever do hard drugs so I would like to do something,,,,,, but now I feel like I should just avoid all together if I have an anxious personality?
sam30413 Leah208
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so I've tried smoking weed twice and edibles once (so a total of 3 times over the past 5 months). The first time I passed out and felt like I was in a time loop and when I woke up I got super anxious and scared (the scariest experience of my life. I felt like life wasnt real for a bit!) The second and third time I passed out again and then woke up really anxious and scared but less severe than the first time. I will NEVER try weed again. I felt better about 3 days after the weed had worn off but I still have a little anxiety and fear at the back of my mind because of it. When I'm alone i can get a little sad and overthink a lot now but when im around people I tend to forget about it. Everyone says weed is safe, but it really isnt.
david76205 Leah208
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i just found out in the last week that marijuana withdrawal is a real thing. i am an anxiety/depression sufferer and i was self medicating with weed for years. last week i decided to quit to make my wife happy. i then had an anxiety attack for two consecutive days. i was freaking out. chest pains, bubble in my throat, mind racing, stomach problems and cold sweats, leg bouncing up and down a mile a minute. called my therapist, told her i stopped smoking weed, she said i may be going through withdrawal. i had never heard of such a thing, but i just was not smoking regular weed, i was vaping it. turns out the vaping has more thc than a regular joint, so my body was use to the increased dosage of thc, and when i quit, my brain went into withdrawal. my therapist told me to flush my body with water and vegetables. and to take a xanex. so i did. two days later, i feel okay again. still a little jittery, but nothing like 2 days ago. so live and learn.
danielee21 Leah208
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Hi! so I am going through the exact same thing. Whenever I smoked weed I was perfectly fine and I felt great. I tried an edible once and felt great. The next time I took an edible (my last time) I had a really bad trip and I thought I was dead and it scared the s**t out of me. Ive never had a panic attack before so it was very scary to me and I didn't know what it was. Well its been two months after the edible and everything feels like a dream and its very scary. i went to a doctor and was diagnosed with GAD and depression. Which I've never had any bad problems with before the edible. I am now on Buspirone and Lexapro. i keep waiting to feel better again but i feel as if nothing is working ),: I also have these intrusive thoughts making me think that I'm going crazy. I just want to be normal again. any advice ?
david76205 danielee21
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see my comment above. it also applies to edibles. i dont know about buspirone but i am familiar with Lexapro, because i take it every day. i supplement my Lexepro with Latuda and its amazing. prescribing anti anxiety meds is not an exact science and its possible the doctor should switch you to something else that may work better for you. it took me several tries to find the right meds for me and it can be frustrating until you get the right meds. the meds control your anxiety to a point, you have to do your part too, in trying to recognise triggers for your anxiety. for some people its lines or crowds, others have problems with conflict, or heights, or germs, or tight places, etc. if you are prone to panic attacks, xanex works wonderfully to ease them in as little as 15 to 20 minutes. but what i am saying is if those meds are not working for you speak up to your doctor because he needs to know, so he can consider a higher dosage or another medicine entirely.
taimoor95068 Leah208
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its been 4 years in 2016 march 25th i hit 3 bong hits of weed i curse that time and shirty friend who didnt told me stuff is so hard and i suddenly got blackout unconcious for some i was dead deaf . suddenly with a blow i came to life and every thing is blurr and in slow motion. looks like i am grabing the cup and it takes me too much time everthing got so slowed . i feel numbness tingling pins for the ist time time in my life which i dont know is going with me with next each day of my life . my sensations touch turn in to numbess and tingling pins all over . this drama continues till 4/5 hours . i slep and wake up in the morning like there is nothing happened . but after 2/3 days panic attacks started with racing heart and difficult breathing muscle spams so much tired after working half . and rhis life continues till this day but smptoms got very less now . it took four years and now 7 months my body feels 70% better not 100%
david76205 taimoor95068
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its tough to know where your weed is coming from or what was put in it if you get it from a friend of a friend (off the street). better to get it from a dispensary where its not cut with anything and they stand behind their product. vaping it isnt much better and the THC content is much higher, again a dispensary is safer. but it sounds like you found this out the hard way. and i just found out recently from my therapist that THC has withdrawals associated with it when you stop smoking it after a long period of time. best bet, dont smoke it at all, as it affects different people in different ways. if you happen to have anxiety and come down from the THC, your anxiety goes up.
rockszee david76205
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Not true. I only got mine from the dispensary. I quit over 2 years ago and the day after i quit i ended up in the hospital for 3 days because my heart started racing and beating irregularly. They ran all every test on me and concluded it was anxiety. I was diagnosed with cannabis induced panic disorder. And put on medication because that was the only way my heart will stop racing! On top of that i have a lot of the other symptoms that are being talked about on this forum. I do not know if i will ever be the same as i was. I only took edibles at night for insomnia. I was not using it to get high and i ended up like this. I have lost hope that i will ever not hear buzzing in my head, seeing double and continual anxiety. So the dispensary is no better!!
toby79960 Leah208
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About a month ago I smoked marijuana with my friend for the first time and had a similar experience, I had a panic attack and my heat beat so hard, I called for an ambulance but my friend was high and didn't take me seriously. I didn't know what to do as my thinking was severely impaired and I laid on the floor twitching like crazy and thought I had died. I realized I hadn't and tried to sleep off the effects but was impossible. After the experience I haven't felt the same, I feel like I'm disconnected somehow. I would love to know if there's anything that's helped to feel normal again.
david76205 toby79960
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Are you on any medication? Where did you get the weed from, a friend? Do you know what was in the weed? Sounds like someone put a little something extra in the weed. Just saying.
phillip27 Leah208
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I feel like this all the time. I always zone out and feel like everything isn't real.