I still don't feel the same after smoking weed for the first time. NEED SUPPORT PLEASE
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Hello, Im posting here to get some reassurance and support. It has been over a year and a half now since I tried an illigal high (weed) for the first time and suffered a panic attack in which I thought I was going to lose my mind and die, and end up in a mental hospital. The high lasted about 4.5 hours. Nothing felt real and when the high wore off things didn't feel the same as before. I found out about derealization and depersonalization and I think that is what I have been dealing with since. I was diagnosed with GAD and I think I might of had it prior to smoking the pot but not to an extent that it bothered me.
The best way to explain it it just feels like something is off, nothings the same, i feel disconnected in a way. Like i keep trying to compare how i fet before the high (normal) to now but I cant exactly pinpoint what it is.
My vision gets weird and its hard to focus on anything. I see "noise" or static like tiny dots (visual snow) when looking at the night sky and floaters when looking at the blue sky. All things I have never experienced before the high.
At the start of this hell I thought I had died or that I was in hell. (It felt like it and my anxiety was through the roof and i felt nausous and panicky). I was obsessed with thinking i was going insane (schizophrenic) infact I still do get VERY VEEEEERY scared about it. Thinking that i could go mad. I also have light sensetivity wheb i look at something i get an afterimage if it that stays in my vision for a bit.
I feel like i had all my life ahead of me and now i cant live life like before. As if a part of me died. (Im not delusional though i dont think).
What has made it tolerable is being busy with study and work... But when im free all i do is be upset about it and feel miserable. I dont want medication because if the side effects and risks of psychosis/suicide.
I have no energy to do anything at times...
And i think the more time goes by the more i lose hope.
Please PLEASE if you can relate or have advice/support please contact me or reply to me here.
Thank you so much
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Jean440.. Leah208
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hi there ive been through the exact same thing you've been through but probably worse because, I was addicted to weed and smoked it hoping that "next time" would be different.
I used to see things, hear things and even feel my whole body and environment vibrate intensely, after finally quitting I still felt the same just with a whole lot of depression, memory loss and self consciousness. I never felt the sane one bit. turns out I was going through a spiritual battle, and my "friends" were using dark arts against me.
I soon learned that alcohol, drugs and even caffeine weakens your body and makes you sensitive to the spiritual world the perfect tool for people to use to get you to pass out and have them "enchant" over you to make you lose your mind.. I might sound crazy but people around me went crazy the exact same way.
I never felt the same ever since, till I started praying and reading the Holy Bible regularly. my joy returned to me as well as my memory and focus, anxiety, fear, hopelessness and depression all left me, I can just praise God for helping me in my time of need.. maybe this is not for you but it will be fore someone else out there, because I prayed for a colleague just 2 hours ago who felt the same way. be careful out there and God Bless in Jesus name
david76205 Jean440..
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Just out of curiousity did you know where your weed came from or if it was laced ? Or like me, you probably didnt care at the time.
aidan05153 Leah208
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Hey its weird reading this because a similar thing happened to be when i was about 11-12 where i suddenly one morning woke up with the visual snow symptoms that you describe followed by depersonalisation and derealisation.....its a true mystery how and why it happened but ive just taken it on board as part of growing up.....
david76205 aidan05153
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Lack of oxygen to your brain while you slept is why you had those symptoms, it happens to a lot of people who snore, have allergies or sinus problems. I dont think it has anything to do with weed.
nathan87138 david76205
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i believe marijuana can somehow have an affect on the hypothalamus which is the control center of the brain. this could cause people to have long lasting symptoms but with exercise, a heathy diet, and minimal stress this can be relieved and brought back to normal because of the natural endocannoboids in the brain which also affect the hypothalamus
david76205 nathan87138
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thats amazing. But THC does cause withdrawal symptoms and it does get laced often, if you get it off the streets. Your theory (or facts) only apply to those who get their weed from a dispensary. You can not apply your theory to weed off the streets because you really dont know what you are getting. Most, not all, bad trips, are caused by other chemicals in the weed. This happened to me and set off my anxiety so bad, i had panic attacks and was throwing up. It wasnt until my therapist explain to me what was going on, that it all made sense. I quit smoking, and my anxiety went into overload for a few days, but i havent smoked in a month and i dont miss it at all.
aidan05153 david76205
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Sorry i should have clarified i didn't take any weed when this happened I was only 12-13 . I stayed up one night playing some game on the xbox and the next day when i woke up I had the visual snow so I always thought looking at the screen must have done it to me instead of lack of oxygen. Interestingly years on when I was 18 and smoked weed it would cause my visual snow to worsen whilst under the effects and I would see those strange lights and after images described. The visual snow has stayed with me up until present day along with the derealization and desalination that perhaps came with it, im now 20, the only way i can explain it is that having strong visual snow makes it feel like you are looking through a filter at the world like looking at the sea through one of those old diving suits.
taimoor95068 Leah208
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I just wana know after my weed attack or panic attack in life . when will this sudden numbness tingling pins and needle which sometimes comes from no when once in a week or month will leave my body permanently? such a pathetic feeling weird really fed up of this . i know its much better now but still some times it comes in a week on a month .
which basically started from 1st day of weed panic attack.
dylan62813 Leah208
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trust me its not just you, I've had many experiences where i thought I was gonna die. one that was worse then all other i thought t was the very end of my existence i forgot everything the only thing i could think is I'm dying and i couldn't feel my body at all. it was the worst and scariest experience I could I possibly comprehend. its changed my life.
micky61145 Leah208
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hey bro im 16 years old and i smoked weed 2 days ago, the day after smokibg and still now i didnt feel the same either. i didnt have panic attacks or anything but i felt like i didnt feel the same feelings (touch,being cold, hot or eating/drinking.) i dont know how to feel normal again and kinda scared im not going to again. My vision is fine but i dont feel like im well me. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP.
sarah81916 Leah208
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Hi, this just recently happened to me and i feel like i cant talk to my loved ones about it. is anyone still experiencing this that would like to talk? i am new to this website so I am not sure how to contact anyone who is feeling this.
william67491 Leah208
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dude, this same exact thing happened to me, including the floaters and the fuzzy sky thing, and the eye thing.. about a year and a half ago also. I haven't felt the same as well. I've been not depressed but always empty feeling and like a feeling that something is off. Crazy to think I'm not the only one.
mike02278 Leah208
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Did anyone else get a bunch of eye floaters, visual snow, and BFEP. I used to be a huge stoner for about six years, and after one bad experience about seven months ago i got all these symptoms. Most of my anxiety is gone but my vision just feels different, mainly having sooooo many floaters. Black cobwebs, transparent ones, bunch of clumped up ones. Did anyone else get these and if so did they go away?
t36030 Leah208
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heya... so yeah i think weed definitely has different effects for different people who try it for the first time at different stages in their lives. I'm gonna try to say this without sounding completely insane... so I'm almost certain that being at a certain level of high for most mature people is getting to a state of realizing fully where we're at spiritually. it's like our physical reality aligns with our metaphysical reality. it's really hard to discuss because i think that we're in such a vulnerable position... literally naked before God. and we're able to literally feel how we are viewed before Him. it can definitely be hard to comprehend especially since most people have no clue how or what the consciousness of Christ views us humans especially as being His own creation to be. But i think honestly the panic and terror we can feel if we get so high is really just our own souls burning in literally hell. Forever and ever in complete shame with only ourselves to blame, complete agonizing horror with no hope of ever escaping or finding a second of peace or rest from. Aligning with that reality is terrifying and it will definitely leave you at the very least feeling off from your normal self. Not sure what it is about this plant but wherever your soul was your heart and mind were also there for a period and it's changed you for good, hopefully really for good because we will all be judged and it doesn't matter what your reasons for your decisions were in life there's no excuses. The conscious decision to let Christ be the only thing in this world you truly cherish and adore is the only way we can begin to walk the journey that lets us change into the person God wants to see. We gotta get correct. The devil is keeping us content and complacent with comfort in sin. Hell is endlessly dying in the worst way, not dying endlessly. we all hate being here sometimes and no one really knows why we gotta be here to suffer... how else could you describe the panic when your high but being naked burning in a lake of fire forever without the aid of the God who made you. It's real we must eliminate all sin and iniquity from ourselves and allow The Holy Spirit to live out complete faith through us, otherwise though we may not seem wicked... we're dedicated subconsciously to the people and things of the world which is exactly what we're gonna be asking forgiveness for as we burn, this is quite serious. There Is Still HOPE!
Mowie Leah208
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lol dudes. This is a classic experience that ALOT of people have. Your particular body isnt used to the extremely high THC content that today's weed can have in it. You smoke. Have a SEVERE panic attack and now you're left with an anxiety disorder because of it. You as a person, weed is not meant for you. I am saying all of this because it happened to me when I was 17, I'm 25 now. it is an ongoing process. I've suffered "heart" anxiety and what I believe depersonalization EVER since. Some days are harder than others. So unless you want to get hooked on some crazy pharmaceutical pills, then you must just breathe..