I still don't feel the same after smoking weed for the first time. NEED SUPPORT PLEASE

im going thought this exact situation. i thought i was alone. lets start a chat guys? i need some support with this.

i must also share this in reading the comments i realized it i felt as though I was a stranger and people i know my whole life friends family i felt they were strangers that would laugh at me my whole personality changed i was once young full of life and lived out in the sunlight i loved the desert in summer 110 115 degrees i would soak up sun i always hated the cold and the dark now i hate the heat sun and light i want a cold dark room and gloomy weather i was so naive and innocent yet happy i cried the 1st time i smoked it and told the guy who i smoked with that i felt my soul was tainted and that i would never be the same i spent the better half of these 17 years trying to find that person i once was being a single dad is what got me through raising my 2 sons was my only salvation again i hope your better sorry to rant so much i just never thought id hear of anyone who felt this way and you came along thanx many blessings

I COMPLETELY understand you its insane you practically just told the same story I would've told others. I deal a lot with light and sound sensitivity and I have the same thing with the noise / static vision. I genuinely thought I was crazy and I'm glad that me and you and any others who have experienced this that we're not alone!!!

This happened to me the other day. I took a few hits and started feeling it like 20 seconds later. It wasn't a good high. I already have anxiety, so certain kinds of marijuana just scare the s**t out of me instead of making me feel good. About six hours later, it still hadn't worn off. I just told myself it would be over by tomorrow. The next day, it still hadn't worn off .I had a lot of trouble paying attention to anything I felt dizzy and my short term memory was very fuzzy. It was a full blown panic attack at that point, cause I thought if it wasn't over now, it would never be over and my brain was gonna be changed forever like someone cut it out and replaced it with someone else's. Keep in mind that I have anxiety and panic attacks a lot. A long time before this experience, I kept feeling like I could have a heart attack at any moment, but when I went to the doctor, they took blood and gave me an EKG, they never found anything suggesting that I was at risk of having a heart attack or anything like that, and they told me that it was just anxiety. I just kept reminding myself that it was anxiety and eventually the fear went away and I never thought about it again. This morning, I remembered that experience and it immediately made me feel better and I don't feel afraid that I'm going to be stoned forever any more. I'm not saying 100% for sure that you have the same problem as me, but I know that anxiety is a really really really powerful thing. It's like the devil, it can present itself to you in many ways. It presented itself to me as a potential heart attack the first time. and the second time it presented itself as a potential lifetime of having a bad marijuana high. I know that anxiety can be like a shape shifting demon that makes you feel like something is happening to you even though it's really not and it will last for as long as you keep worrying. I used to take medication for it, and i stopped for a while and I only started taking it again a few days ago because of this and it has helped a lot. Maybe you could see a psychiatrist and they will prescribe you with something for it. I really hope you see this and it helps.

Hi there! my name is erin. im 24 years old. I had to reach out to you because ive never read something so spot on to what ive been dealing with for the past (almost) 2 years. First off, I have to tell you, it gets better. I promise you. You adjust to the new normal, you learn coping mechanisms, your body and mind will adjust. You are not dying, I know it feels bizarre, but it will get better. In February 2019 I smoked pot for the first time in 8 years, I started out with a panic attack, then I passed out and hit my head, I was out for two minutes. I couldn’t talk for the rest of the night. Woke up and was in this immediate state of panic. I couldn’t drive a car or turn a corner without disassociating. I couldn’t walk into a store without because so anxious I would black out. I was so anxious 24/7 I would throw up often. I couldn’t even have a conversation without disassociating, I was a different person, couldn’t even talk to my parents without getting so panicked I couldn’t finish a sentence. I would lay in bed for months and cry, it was a living hell. I finally gave in and went on Lexapro. It took the edge off. I still wouldn’t drive my car. But I took a leap and worked on a commercial fishing vessel for the summer. The distraction, the focus and the teamwork really shifted my anxiety. That helped. Now whenever I came home, I would go back into this crazy anxious state. I mean this anxiety that would make me Black out and almost pass out. I got cat scans, MRI’s and everything, brain was okay. I then talked to a therapist and just her reassuring me, telling me I’m not crazy, telling me she’s seen this before, made me feel a bit better. I’m not perfect now, I feel off, but it is what I’m used to, it gets better. And sometimes I even feel back to normal. It gets better, I hated hearing that a few months ago, but each day I learn something new. Self talk. Deep breaths. I am here to talk whenever, I wish I had someone who experienced this would’ve reached out to me when I was at my worst. Message me anytime please!!! I have so much more to say, you are not alone.

leah, i totally understand you!!! i took my first edible on July 15th 2020 and it was 500mg. I was really naive about the effects of it and took it to "relax" and i got the exact opposite. i had the WORST panic attack and felt like i was dying. i thought the feeling would never go away and i kept saying i wanted to die. 6 days later i still didnt feel the same and went to the ER to make sure no weed was left in my system and of course there wasnt but my anxiety and panic attacks were still bad. they gave me clonazapam to calm down and it didnt really do much. i felt totally disassociated and to this day, i STILL feel like it. its not as bad but its interfering with my life. i stopped working because i started crying every single day about feeling so depressed and disconnected. it probably doesnt help that i already have anxiety and depression. everyday i regret taking that edible because i believe it did something to me mentally. i even went to a substance abuse program for weeks to cope with anxiety and depresion and that didnt really help. although the staff was helpful and understanding, i merely just wanted the awful feeling to go away. A psychiatrist prescribed me olazapine and zoloft etc for my panic attacks and delusions. i dont necessarily see hallucinations but i feel like im not here or in my body which makes me not want to work out, see friends or do my usual routine. i feel totally paralyzed from my anxiety, depression and disassociation. i CONSTANTLY think about my life BEFORE i took the edible and wish i can turn back time. i beat myself up everyday because of it. i wake up everyday hoping it goes away. i feel like im going to be stuck like this forever and that tears me apart. i even contemplated ending my life. i hope we can help eachother out or anyone else that has the samw feeling/experience.

Wow! The experience/reaction you described is exactly (TO THE LETTER) what I went through 3 months ago, upon being peer pressured into trying weed. However I did go to my local GP because the resulting panic attacks were too disruptive to daily life, and I'm on a low dosage anti depressant (Have been since 3 weeks after the incident). It's comforting to know that you and many others have been through this experience and are coping with it but on the other hand I'm sorry anyone has had to go through this in the first place. (Would've loved to have found this forum beforehand.)

I feared going crazy, and although that exact feeling has subsided while I'm getting on with life, the disassociation/depersonalisation remains, and I've come to see that the meds only manage the extreme panic and anxiety. This has led me to consider stopping them knowing that the depersonalised state will likely not subside, and just coping from there. This thread has given some comfort as I'd prefer not to develop a psychotic disorder and evidently that is unlikely.

I find myself obsessively searching the internet for answers to this poorly understood/documented reaction and it has lead me nowhere, until finding this thread.

I'm aware the original post was a long time ago and wish I could've been here sooner to understand and avoid the stuff, but here we are. I wish everyone the best in their journey, and thank you again for giving me some hope 😃.

Hi, I'm 16 and i think I'm experiencing the same thing that you are. It's been about 2 months now since I last smoked and I've been losing so much sleep and nothing feels the same anymore. I came here looking for an answer because I'm terrified of what's happening to me. It was somewhat reassuring to hear that other people have gone through what I'm experiencing but it's also really frightening to hear that these effects could last years. I want to have a successful life but I'm finding it harder and harder to focus and sometimes I have these mini panic attacks and I get scared when people come too close to me. I try to tell myself that it's all in my head and that I can just override it just by thinking about it but that never works. I'm considering telling my parents about what I did but they aren't very understanding and i would likely never step foot outside again if i did so I'd love to hear back from you about how you are doing and if you've found any way to deal with these problems. Thanks,

-Holden

Yeah so basically this same thing happened to me when I was like late 16 - or something and I use to smoke a lot of cannabis for like two weeks and then one day i wanted to get really really high with my friend on a video call so I was 4 cones in and then I remember my friend said " you know if your on acid and look in the mirror you can go insane" - which i don't know if that's true or not - but yeah anyways so basically I looked in the mirror and then it caused the most horrible panic attack I've ever had and I thought I wasn't gonna be there much longer and the way I can describe the feeling is like you are in the middle of a blackhole like legit its horrible. Whenever I drunk or smoked it worsened each time, and now I just stay away from cannabis and I hate it because I really want to know why when I smoked before I was fine and it was an awesome high?? and then it just turned to being misery. I still to this day feel like there is glass in front of me and the way I feel around me doesn't feel like reality like I'm looking through a hazey mirror, and I cannot focus on things and my vision isn't the same. I'm unmotivated and get nervous REALLY easy. This sucks i've gotten prescribed fluoxetine but I still have been nervous to take it. Can anyone give me suggestions / help me out here? and I've been reading all ya guys stuff and it's really helped me calm down and sometimes I get the thought where i could be brain damaged or the only person in the world that feels like this.

Yeah so basically this same thing happened to me when I was like late 16 - or something and I use to smoke a lot of cannabis for like two weeks and then one day i wanted to get really really high with my friend on a video call so I was 4 cones in and then I remember my friend said " you know if your on acid and look in the mirror you can go insane" - which i don't know if that's true or not - but yeah anyways so basically I looked in the mirror and then it caused the most horrible panic attack I've ever had and I thought I wasn't gonna be there much longer and the way I can describe the feeling is like you are in the middle of a blackhole like legit its horrible. Whenever I drunk or smoked it worsened each time, and now I just stay away from cannabis and I hate it because I really want to know why when I smoked before I was fine and it was an awesome high?? and then it just turned to being misery. I still to this day feel like there is glass in front of me and the way I feel around me doesn't feel like reality like I'm looking through a hazey mirror, and I cannot focus on things and my vision isn't the same. I'm unmotivated and get nervous REALLY easy. This sucks i've gotten prescribed fluoxetine but I still have been nervous to start to take it. Can anyone give me suggestions / help me out here? and I've been reading all ya guys stuff and it's really helped me calm down and sometimes I get the thought where i could be brain damaged or the only person in the world that feels like this.

You are not alone. I feel totally the same!

I have been having the exact same problem as you, I'm 16 and I did weed for the first time with some friends about a mouth ago. I had a terrible panic attack while my friends were flying high. I tried not to overreact so my friends wouldn't worry but inside I felt like i was gonna die. Over the past mouth I been having pretty bad anxiety and depersonalization. What made it worse was that I thought I gave myself brain damage and was screwed for the rest of my life. Recently though I've been feeling a whole lot better. This is because I realized that the depersonalization and brain fog wasn't because I had brain damage but because of my anxiety. when I started to focus more on my anxiety I felt the depersonalization start to go away and soon my anxiety followed to. Anxiety is an evil thing and it can make you brain think evil thoughts which just makes it worse. focus on your stress and calm yourself down, It wont be easy and it will take time but I assure you that you will feel a lot better. I am still not 100% but I am very hopeful that I will get there soon. Good luck and stay away from weed for awhile.

also what helped a lot was having a good sense of humor, I know that this isn't a laughing matter but it often helps to blow off anxiety.

Hello i don't know if you're still having these sort of symptoms but I can tell you that they will go away. This happened to me before and I felt like I was still High while sober. I know you guys might think, "I wish I was high while sober" but trust me you don't. It was a very uncomfortable feeling. I felt everything that you were feeling. I thought everything around me wasn't real. What I did was I first spoke to the therapist and she basically told me to relax and I just told her all the problems I was feeling. Me telling her how I felt helped it a little bit more but what even helped better was working out and meditating two times a day for 10-15 minutes. It helped refresh my mind and made me feel way better and positive. Also you have to stop thinking about it and stop searching up the symptoms. You're not going insane. You will be fine believe me. I hope this helps.

hello,

Im sorry you experiencdd this but I would like to tell you my experience from a extreamly similar situation and how I "over came" it.

I used to smoke a bunch of weed, everyday for like 2 years and never had ang problem... One night I was smoking with my friend and got a really bad high. and starting having my first panic attack. At the time I had never experienced a panic attack so to me... i was dying... i serar my heart was beating at 200 BPM... i ended up comjng down after about an hour and being able to sleep...

to this day i swear that night changed my life. Before i never experienced anxirty and now im learning the hard way how terrible anxiety can be.. for months after that night i had very bad anxiety at places like work.. so bad i would not be able to proform my job correctly.. I didnt know what to do.

fast forward about 4-5 years later im doing well and have a good understanding of what was going on back then. To my understanding is the "derelization" that I experinced aswell js just a form of anxirty. What ive learned is not how to get RID of my anxiety but how to control it.. that being said i still have some anxiety filled days but nothing even CLOSE to what it was before.

My recomendation would be to try to be okay and understand your derealization and anxiety as it will help you better control it when you noticing its ramping up.

I hope you see this and I know telling you "it will get better" will do nothing but trust me.. it will get better

i recently went through the same thing id say about a month ago. I got super stoned and felt fine but a little bit too stoned id say. Ended up having a bad panic attack. For the next few days following this time didn't feel real, nothing did, like i was living in some sort of fog. I obsessed over it and it only made it worse. For me it took having a super hard conversation with my parent to take my mind off of it completely and forget for a minute or so and then i came back. All i can say is you need to do something to completely have it slip your mind and once you do that you should come back if that makes sense. you may question if you're back or not still but you'll know once you're back to normal. I hope this helped 😃