I wish I was dead. Tired of living.

This is exactly like i feel. But i have no friends because i do not trust anyone. i do knot talk to a expert because they never really listen to me, just interested in what the insurance pays.

I know how you feel. I pray for the strength/courage to kill myself but can't because I feel guilty leaving my family. I take wellbutrin now and was on prozac for over 20 years but they kept increasing the dosage with it last being 100mg but it wasn't working. Medicine may work for you though. my primary gave me wellbutrin. i cant believe your dr wont gibe you any. Fing ridiculous, just like this Finger world. I can't wait to leave this place and wish I'd just get an aneurysm or cancer or something. 98% of the time is pure misery. Sometimes I can't help myself from crying on the train to work, etc. it's hard to pretend everyday. it sucks. I can't find a therapist on my stupid health insurance and I've tried calling over 30 of them with no luck, either not taking patients or not taking insurance. I started listening to the podcast "coffee over suicide." it hasn't helped. my job is dull and boring. I try and find podcasts or music to listen to so I don't cry. it's soooo hard some days. I feel your pain. I'm constantly looking up ways to do it but I'm a coward and know my family would hate me and never understand since they don't get this disease. they're out of touch and I can't talk to them because they're superficial.

You have just expressed exactly how I feel.

I hear you...I'm 62 and it looks like I will be working until I'm 80 ...I just hope that someday I just would die in my sleep and not feel a thing.. I'm just tired...

S.B.

I'm on a good mix of prozac and wellbutrin now.i get jittery sometimes but otherwise its helping. dying hasn't consumed my brain for a couple weeks. of course I do still think about it, it's just not as extreme

I feel the same way. Life isn't enjoyable for everyone. Pretending life is good when I'm around friends, family, and coworkers isn't enough.

You know, I used to visit nursing homes, homes for orphans and children of cancer patients! I visited there as a volunteer for several years! We also invited new people to join us! Newcomers always cried after seeing them (seeing their smiles, efforts) and admitted that their problems were nothing compared to orphans and cancer patients! So it was like instant medicine for them to increase their energy! You can do the same, or at least think of it!

Where you from. I am student at age of 29. Still not employed, still not earning to feed my parents. Most of the month i got frustrated easily on any kind situation. When it is on the peak i just travel.

Every life should have moto in life. That i want to do it want to do that. With out it life would be boring to lead. So have some aim.

I want to earn money to travel the world and experience all adventure..

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it has been a while since i have seen communication from the writer of this post. HOW ARE YOU . ?

As a daughter to a mom thats gone through a hip replacement and other major sx's.... i know my life gets hectic and i might miss calling her here and there- but there would never be a moment in my world that i could EVER imagine my mom NOT in it! and i'd venture to say that 99.9% of daughters WANT their mommas around.

some just get a little more wrapped up in their everyday to day lives and forget the lesson of "appreciate what's/who's in the NOW, because it's/they might not always be around" and forget to honor it.

i know with every brand new day with my parents i get -i am blessed!

& i thought you mentioned you had a cat. (maybe i am wrong) if so, this in itself is a reason to live. cats are amazing awesome little creatures. he/she would be absolutely devastated with out his owner.

God Bless

i feel the same sad and lonely i cant get myself sorted i have had depression all my life i feel like i have no life and no friends i am on meds but they do not seem to help i feel so down i wish i was not here x

hi jahnssteve, what has done this and left you feeling like this? why were you released from your counsellor. go back if you can or talk to your doctor about more support, you may need something longer term. you can't leave this, wherever you live you will have some sort of mental health support. a counsellor needs to support the underlying problems you have. if you feel this bad ring the samaritans now or in England 111 if you feel it's too bad to cope. people will miss you, you don't know this but they will. i got to a stage 3 weeks ago where my whole world went black but i am having really deep assault counselling but i picked up a phone and told someone. i now want to live, well most days. i will fight for you if you fight for you, open up please speak to someone, p.m me if you want.

i feel like i need more help i have been seeing my counsellor but know in lockdown its impossible to see him i am on antideppressants but really feel theyre r not working feel so alone all the time x