I wish I was dead. Tired of living.

Hello GOD loves you dont go!

You shouldn’t be ending your life like this, there might be very beautiful moments waiting for you, just give a thought to how your close ones will feel when you are not alive.

If you were a happy person while working then why don’t you start doing that again which will add joy in your life and in addition to this, meditate, trust me meditation is a great way to heal from any kind of anxiety.

same. I've never been happy. Have suffered from pain loneliness and depression my entire life. My boyfriend - now ex - of nine years has hurt me so much. Just found out he's been seeing other women. I am tired of antidepressants. Sick of taking them. I stopped taking them about a week or two ago when I ran out and I am not getting them refilled. I'm on 450 mg brand Wellbutrin. Also on Vyvanse. I have a nineteen year old son who would be devastated if something happened but he would also understand. He's in college but living with me in an apartment. He'd have to live with my mom and he'd hate it. thinkijg about taking all my propanolol and a lot of vodka. i am so so tired.

i'm a new widow and never have lived alone. my husband and i were married 54 years and he was the greatest man ever. so lonely.

My advice is, you help people who are far more unfortunate than you.

Or find the meaning of life.

there is.

meditate.

as long as God keeps you in this body, continue to think of God and count your blessings. .

do not meet God with negative thoughts but with positive ones.

Hi There

I know exactly how you feel. Somebody said to me the other day that I was always smiling and positive...I am just a very good actress. Inside I am empty. I wake up every morning and lie there wishing I was dead. I have many good things in my life BUT I have this dark depression and dark thoughts that I cannot shake nor share. If I was diagnosed with a life limiting illness tomorrow I would be incredibly relieved and not at all upset. There are many of us out here...you are not alone.

I know how you feel, but life is something to be treasured and loaded with memories. I feel you should pick up a hobby which excites you or listen to some good music, or try reading a book. Do something that makes you happy. Talk to your friends and keep yourself occupied. Hoping to hear from you soon! big hugs to you, God bless you , keep me posted on how you are doing, take care

I feel the exact way mate. Ive had enough too.

life is just a constant trial. Struggling financially all the time. My daughter treats me like rubbish, ignores me for no reason. I dont even want a lot from life. just want my daughter back in it. Meanwhile shes changed gender. Shes now male and i get told off for using the wrong terminology even though i dont see her. shes 18 and still hides behind her mum.

I wish there were places we could just go, to die. I wish others could understand and just let us go. instead of keeping us here. In this hell on earth.

They think they are doing good but all they are doing us prolonging our misery.

nicki,

I couldn't agree more with the last three lines of your post. Just talking about suicide is an absolute no'no.

Why does it have to automatically follow that if a person doesn't want to live there must be something wrong with their minds and the so called experts question our sanity?

Talk about crimes against humanity. I do despair.

Ending life is not the solution to all the problems, you should connect to a therapist and find the right people to have friendship with and remember to not let your happiness rely on someone else.

I can empathize with how you feel. I also have not enjoyed life since I can remember. Every day is about convincing everyone that I'm fine because if I don't the only outcome is being locked up in a mental facility with no rights or a means of escape. I don't really have any advice as I don't know how to come to terms with it myself. All I know to say is that you are not alone. I'm suffering along side you and everyone who struggles with depression. Maybe it will get better maybe it won't but I think that if there is one person who will miss you if you're gone then it's worth fighting to live another day. My hope for you is the same that I have for myself. That is to be able to find relief and peace of mind one day.

i have reason to live but not for myself but for everyone else and the ones i live for don't appreciate anything i do for them so honestly i just don't see the point of continuing any more I am a middle age men married for 26 years no family to count on and no friend i can talk to without the worry of being judged . I get it i truly do it sucks i cant even talk to my wife because i'm the reason she's unhappy . just wish id pass away in my sleep

Oh, do I ever know what you're living through as I feel exactly the same. One of the hardest things is that nothing touches my heart anymore, which may not be true for you.

Your depression makes sense to me as you have a number of very difficult and painful things going on.

I don't know why your therapist let you go but that alone would be quite painful for most people... to feel rejected or abandoned. I so hope that you do not give up on therapy and that you try to find a more competent seasoned clinician. You absolutely need someone to talk to who knows how to help you come through what's going on..

I may be wrong but it sounds as if you feel profoundly alone and lonely, which can be ungodly painful and throws most people into depression, sometimes severe depression. Sometimes the pain can be so terrible, that we shut almost totally down to survive.I wish you well... Sylvia