Lost myself somewhere!

Hi Marley,I was exactly the same a year ago .Every little thing got to me in fact it took me all my time to get out of bed in the morning I just wanted to stay in bed where I felt safe from the outside world. Even walking to the local Supermarket gave me panic attacks and a desperate need to be back home in the safety of my four walls. I also had a dread of being seriously ill....every ache, pain , even a cough I was convinced was Cancer and I was going to die . These are all symptoms of  perimenopause and it does get easier ,I still have the odd panic especially if I'm traveling to a new area I,ve never been to but no where near as bad as I felt before .We are here for you whenever you feel down remember that.I do so love this group I'm a newbie to and all the people here are so kind friendly and full of advice and understanding 

Hi I'm new to the site too

I've experienced excruciating back n now experiencing it in both my knees I've asked to be referred bk to see my consultant as he offered a wash out of my knee if the pain didn't subside I've got an appt for nxt week n today the left knee feels settled just stiffness but the right 1 is terrible toothache type pain only 50times worse I saw my gp as I wasn't feeling 100% & pointed out I ? I cud be menopausal blood test shown my FSH stimulating hormone was high n shouldn't be so he put me on a low dose of HRT I feel better in myself like you I cried a everything n nothing n felt really down in feb I sat for days in my Dressingown not wanting to do anything or go anywhere as the pains in my legs where horrendous that seems to have subsided slightly but pain still there I'm trying to forget about it but can't it's constant

Hope you get sorted n we will all keep each other going on here

Hi Marley, 

i completely agree  - I'm 51 and in peri - I've driven to the airport and almost left the suitcases by the car, find concentrating really hard and worry about things that I would have taken in my stride a couple of years ago. I go upstairs but come down without the thing I want up for, and my partner thinks I've lost the plot sometimes because I say stupid things or fail to even follow a simple list. Sometimes it all feels overwhelming, then I have good days. The best thing I have found is this site, aswell as a sense of humour - some of the stories we girls can tell! If you try to tell yourself that this is scary but is just a new stage of your life, that you accept you are worrying, or tearful but you know it's out of character and is down to hormones, it can at least give you some comfort whilst you're sobbing! Might sound a bit mad, but then I guess we are! The great thing is, there are loads of us out there doing stupidl crazy and messed up things - and if you go off this ŵebsite and into a supermarket, or onto the street, just imagine how some of those together - looking people are really hot, sweaty, confused tearballs of women like us, trying to hold it together! Good luck, keep reading! 

Hi Marley, 

i renamed myslef self as part of the 'peri humour therapy' - I call it PHT - it honestly helps! I have days when it's all Mad Marilyn, and nothing goes right, and others when I feel more like my old self. I do have days when I get a feeling of dread or anxiety about the day ahead for no reason, and that's when I try to acknowledge that I may be feeling it, but I can also tell myself that although it feels awful, it's just another part of the whole process of meno pause, and isn't real. 

This forum is great for humour in the face of adversity - we can all use our stories of losing the plot as a source of fun and unity, then try to go back to our day jobs! Wishing you well, and a big smile - next time you feel anxious, try a bit of PHT and come here for a read! 

😊😊😊😊😊😊😊omg ladies yous have beautiful sense of humor it always makes me feel better coming on here.... Cos one part there I thort I was going looney😊😊😊 an I can relate to all of yous...peri-menopause... Anxiety not pretty ...........but to Marley an everyone else we will get thru this thanks for sharing😇😇😇