Marijuana Induced Hell (PLEASE READ/HELP)

Thought I'd check in after about 6 months or so since this incident.

Honestly, it still tries to come on but i am MUCH better. What did I do? Get healthy, stopped booze, stopped marijuana, started taking vitamins and exercising. Sure at times it felt like it wasn't working but it slowly does. Our bodies take time to adjust to these changes but it will and it'll slowly get better.

Take heart, you WILL get through this believe me. Also PM me if you need to talk I am available.

For me it still comes on here and there but not as intense and this rocky road is getting smoother.

I never took any prescription drugs save an acid reducer because of digestive problems but other than that I am fine.

I did therapy for awhile but I stopped that and am feeling okay, I went from feeling like i was at the worlds end to being able to go outside, breathe and smile.

Trust me you will get through this!

At Least your stories doesnt sound as bad as mine!

I smoked weed about 3 or 4 times in my life, the last time i smoked pot was almost two years ago. I remember the day like it was yesturday. I was in my basement, I was at the back door smoking on the stairs. I never had any effect so i took about 40 hits, After I went upstairs and sat in my chair. I remember staring then it hit me, I felt like i died, I became really numb all over, I got up and started walking to my parants room, but as i as walking it felt like i was still sitting in the chair then slowly catching up to my movement, everthing became really slow, my brain felt like it died! then things started getting faster then slower. I remember i was looking at my mom then looking at a wall then looking back, if felt like i was in a pocket universe as in that moment in time was repeating over and over again. then is subsided and things just got slower and sped up. I remember waking up the next day being confused on what happened. 

I still have those effects today, like the not feeling in my body type, like reality is not there, as in you are somewhere but you feel like your not there. Very hard to explain! 

As my 2 year of going cold turkey im trying to find a tenique or something to speed up the healing proccess. If i had a one wish... i would totally go back to that moment in time and never smoke! I havent beenthe same since but im getting better. My anxiety really isnt that bad as it once was. I have hope that ill get better soon!

I wonder if there is any book written about getting a severe anxiety disorder,clinical depression, Ptsd,depersonalisation and derealisation disorder from Marujuana. I got at least 3 of these disorders from them. I am suffering for 38 years taking all sorts of meds.I looked on line and cant find a single book that is written when the cause came from Marujuana .All the books that write about all these disorders dont mention of Marujuana as a trigger at all.

Hi,

I am responding to your post over a year later but there was something you mentioned that caught got my attention.

Almost as an afterthought you stated that you stopped taking your SSRI about 3 or 4 months prior to submitting your post. I, unfortunately, stopped taking my SSRI as well and 3 - 4 months later crashed into a hell I didn't know existed both physically and emotionalIy. At the time I didn't put two and two together and spent the next year and a half unable to live a normal life or think a calm, rational thought. I lost 35 pounds and looked emaciated, had no appetite and cried uncontrollably.

Eventually I was able to make my way to a psychiatrist who tried every drug in the book, it seemed, except for the one that had worked in the first place. Eventually I asked to try it again and sure enough my life began to come together once more, albeit slowly.

Fast forward ten years and life still has it's challenges but I thought depression was no longer one of them so I, once again, stopped taking my SSRI four months ago. The nightmare began to unravel just as it did the first time at the end of the fourth month and I realized, with total horror, that I lost almost 2 years of my life ten years ago due to the most horrible withdrawal imaginable.

This time, it didn't take me long to refill my prescription and I have been Iincreasing my dose every 4 - 5 days and, thankfully, I am starting to turn the corner. It's not perfect as I am definitely feeling depressed at times but I am not sobbing uncontrollably and my thinking, for the most part, is clear and I am able to function.

I know from the past to look for subtle improvements in the first week or two with full cessation of my depression and anxiety following within 3 - 6 weeks.

Hope this finds you past the ordeal you described in your post. God bless!

I had a reaction like this but much much worse, and i was really young. Unfortunately, for me, i didnt do my research on marijuana as a young teen and i thought it was completely 100 percent harmless. If i knew it could cause permanent changes, i would have never tried it. I started when i was 14, and around 14 to 15 i started smoking really heavy and i use to feel high 24/7 even after i stopped smoking. Again, i thought this would go away once i stopped smoking. In which i planned to do, just not in that moment. I was never the kid to have anxiety and i was really confident growing up, marijuana was destroying my life and i didnt even know it. When i had the experience that was similar to yours, if i would have stopped, i could have saved myself . So much for thinking it was a harmless drug, i now look at life like im high 24/7. Along with that, weed me so depressed to the point to where i sat home for 2 years after getting kicked from high school. I did get my equivalent soon after, but, its been really hard to find a job because i look like im 12 years old, at 19, and i really want to change my nutrition in order to get my brain back on track, before its too late. I'm at the point where i look at words in English and i cant even recognize them anymore, even though it gets back to me at times. People talk to me in conversations, in english, a language i was so fluent in, and i cant even understand what they are saying, it sounds some of them are mumbling, but not all. It almost feels like ive reached the point of dementia. I now have social anxiety, i dont even bother with the panic attacks - they only happenned maybe 2 or 3 times in total. My biggest mistake was not exercising when i was kicked from high school, i believe that would have changed alot, because i have a wide range of medical symptoms that i dont even know whats going on. Living in the moment as a kid and thinking marijuana was harmless backfired on me big time. If i dont act fast, my life will be gone forever. My perception of life changed dramatically after smoking from 14 to 17. Im disgusted by the perception, but its almost like my brain is programmed to value and praise this horrible perception. I still remember alot of things, but i misplace alot of things aswell. In my opinion, weed made me do alot of stupid sh*t, even after i stopped using it. I now have heart problems, and even high blood pressure. I made the absolute worst outcome of my situation. And sometimes, i dont even care about it. Weed definitely ruined my life. Recently i got my license and i feel like i will never even learn or gain experience from driving. It feels like i will stay in this state for the rest of my life. So far, its looking like marijuana completely dismantled me, but only time will tell. I will try my best to try to overcome this, but i fried my brain so much at such a critical time, with no good nutrition to make up for it, or even exercise. 😞