mirtazapine nightmare..so fed up and no idea what to do
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Hey folks where do I begin.. Been checking out the forum the past few months while I've been trying to get off this awful little tablet.
Basically suffered anixty from a young age now 32. Started getting ocd negative thoughts over a year ago. It scared been at first it was all my worst fears playing tricks with me. So docs put me on mirtazapine as i really don't like taking any meds, I take the odd pain killer but other than that I try not to take anything. I especially didn't want to take AD. But with pressure from folk around me and docs recommend advice they suggested it was best I try mirtazapine as I suffer from anxiety disorder. It was causing me to not want to go out to certain places etc.. Anyway its been over a year now and by far the worst of my life. I only started on 15mg as it blew my hair off, litterly couldn't function and ended up bed bound due to feeling so all over. Anyway after a couple of weeks it eased and I started getting out more and felt more positive maybe it's placebo Effect, no idea it's all just been a blur. I suffer from a vertigo( balance disorder) it pops up now and again so I know sometimes I have to rest, but it's the worst thing when your an over thinker. Anyway I've been back and forth to the docs and getting no where, some say up the mirtazapine some say they think am best off not being on Ad. I'm currently waiting for my Cbt. I've tried since Dec to reduce off these awful tablets as I'm convinced they are not doing anything other than making me crave foods at night and sleep qnd have weird dreams. I wake up feeling so hung iver
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pixie22 shez32
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shez32 pixie22
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Karl_-_UK shez32
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STILL, where Mirtazapine (15mg) is concerned, I can't distinguish what little good is being caused by placebo or the meds ...plus in any event I sense where my depression is concerned NO meds (even Mirtazapine) is making any significant positive effect. They may actually may only be 'zombiefying' me!
I think I will soon (maybe over the Easter) just ween myself off Mirtazapine and go it without any ADs atall.
shez32 Karl_-_UK
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Since going back up to 15 nearly three weeks ago I can't sleep now. My head is in over drive 24-7. I can't even nap as i have very weird dreams and most random thoughts. I do feel the butterflies in the mornings have eased and no crazy adrenaline rushes. But this onky started on these Dam things. I feel they have messed my body uP and that I'm stuck on them as i can't handle the wd. Never experienced anything like it. I am an anxious wreck on reduction. Can't be left alone as i trip out and think am dying 24-7. The adrenaline is through the roof. I'm at 15 now getting steady and some stength back and I might try ween even 1mg every month. I've read u can go as slow as u need lower the better. So I'm hoping I can get off these thjngs as I'm pretty confident it's these messing me up. I cry all the time just over the thought of knowing I can't get off them, its really upsetting and I don't know what else to do. I thought about trying to take another to try remplace the wd of these but I'm terrified now. I feel no one listens or understands how bad thjngs are apart from craig on tbis group. Honestly feel my life is over at 32. I have zero fight or motivation anynore. Completely different person and everyone noticed how differnt I am since I've been on these things. I wanted to try not take one for the day like craig but I mentally and physically can't handle it incase it sets things off for me while I'm trying to find some strength. anyway I hope u find the answers and defo agree with exercise, good eating and also positive reading and just keeping busy. My mind wonders non stop so I try to catch it then change my thought to a nice one. it's hard but over time u csn change your thinking habits. Let us know how u get on. Take it easy and stay strong
craig2828 shez32
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Karl_-_UK shez32
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Q. Do you find that alot of your hard to come by energy is often spent dealing with the frustration and effort that comes from TRYING to get people (even family) to understand what depression/anxiety is, and how you are feeling ..and how challenging life is, and how even the simple things (such as being happy, confident, optimistic etc etc) are so hard to come by?
Sorry for such a long winded Q ..but its an important question for me as I have so little energy and optimism (its a precious and rare comodity for me as I normally feel like you that my life is over at 50yrs) ...It is so hard having to explain to people who say they care or should care what lifes like for me. Of course its a small breath of fresh air when I hear of someone else (online) who reports some similar experiences, worriers to my my own. Then I don't feel so very alone and isolated ..and this provides some comfort.
Hope I've made sense...
Wishing you peace and a settled mind and a measure of everlasting optimism!
shez32 Karl_-_UK
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Cbt is good so once I start thst I'm hoping to learn new ways of dealing with things.
My last tutor told me over and over treat each thought equally as thoughts can cause us no harm
I try apply this but when your stuck in a habit over time it's hard to change but I do try. Positive reading helps to lift Me too. I Miss working out so much and I hsve so much energy trapped in side it needs out in a positive way. I've learnt from the group thst I am not the only one suffering and that it's nornal and apart of life these days so I feel better talking about anxity issues. Dont dwell on things lad in time we will get stronger. Keep pushing and remember the thoughts cant hurt us just we end up feeling uneasy with them.so we can control our reaction to them over time. The book I read said carry on as normal as possible and face your fears then things get easier in time. Just take small steps for now until u feel like you can fight on. Stay strong for now :-)
shez32 craig2828
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Waa thinkkng the long life on them is meant to be so many hours I think like it varies on each person sure it's 2-4 days or something. I feel ok on reducing for 3-4 days then boom haha. I agree with u 1100per as i feel the effects of reduction Just 2mg after only a year on theM.I'm.adiment mine are making me worse too but am holding out an hour week or so just to make sure. I've had an average day too still feel blibs of it coming and going. Went out and ended up anxity anxous and came back felt my heart was racing and it freaked me out .never used to be like this I feel weak and frustrated. I feel so sensitive to like shocks and noises etc and feel my emotions are all over still get adrenaline zaps and muscle twiches. My head thinks I hsve allsorts wrong but apart thinks its this stupid tabelt. I feel so unfit I'm scared to exercise and everything
I fear everything for some reason. I am tempted to just cut to half and try stop again after a another week or so. I've lost who I am and I know it's these tabelts but no one listens
We both clearly ain't getting better sp why should we mess our self's up more with drugs that make our battle worse not better.
I hope the docs listen to u haha I just get told to calm down and up me tablet haha one doc did agree that I shouldn't take them anymore mind and he knows the normal shez. Maybe I need to just be stronger and fight the wd on reducition. Or reduce 1mg every month to try keep things calmer this time
I'm fine going 15-13-11-9 then.boom 7.5 blows me face off haha I'm scared to make any more adjustments while I'm trying to be strong. Gosh what a situation we have. That's me u and Karl funding things funky with these tablets. We should write a book ha
Karl_-_UK shez32
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I have a question though re. part about: ..."Dont dwell on things lad in time we will get stronger. Keep pushing and remember the thoughts cant hurt us just we end up feeling uneasy with them"...
What if the thoughts are to do with 'real' legitimate stressful things?
For example in my case I constantly worry about my lower back condition which causes debilitating pain that I require morphine for, and the forced sale of my house which is the result of being taken to court by my ex partner, and X and Y etc). True maybe X and/or Y may not hurt me ..may not even happen but what about the 'real' stressful situations that will impact on me.
shez32 Karl_-_UK
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It's our reactions to our thoughts that causes the response. Flight or fight. I believe we are some what in control of our thoughts. Obv for you, you suffer physical pain so your thoughts of feeling pain are real, I'm guessing you try control it by medication etc no idea, but for me i suffer anxity ocd and negative thoughts. I am trying to fix my problem, but it's proving difficult hence why I'm banging on, on here. haha
Maybe speak to your gp and look into cbt. Hope you get sorted tho. Stay strong
craig2828 shez32
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Karl_-_UK shez32
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Have decided to stop taking the Mirtazapine in favour of Holosync Meditation, Simple reason being, (for me) unless Mirtazapine (or any other AD for that matter) is making a clear and noiceable positive differrence to my mood/anxiety/thoughts etc (which they don't seem to be), and if I having even the slightest doubt about popping them into my mouth (which I do) ..then its a BIG NO NO for me!!!
Having listened to what you and others on here have had to say, together with reading and research I've done ...I am now convinced the key for me is not more 'suck n see' (try and hope) drugs, but rather something along the lines of the following formula:
MAKING APPROPRIATE LIFE CHANGES
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HEALTHIER DIET + WEEKLY EXERCISE
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SATISFYING DAILY JOB/TASKS
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SOCIAL LIFE
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PAIN RELIEF
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MEDITATION (OR CBT)
[some things easier to achiev than others I know ..but its worth a crack]
Anyway, hope you and others find the key or formula that works for them/you.
Thanks for support and wise thoughts shez...
Much peace at Easter!
shez32 craig2828
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shez32 Karl_-_UK
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I read a moto that said, keep the body active and the mind at rest haha I wish I could apply it :-)
Your totally right about the medication situation I think I'm going to give up on things soon as either try something else or change my lifestyle even more.
I hope u get sorted lad and take care
Karl_-_UK shez32
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Take care Shez
craig2828 shez32
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Karl_-_UK craig2828
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Yes having read your comments, I can relate to your experiences ... I was on 15mg of Mirtazapine and had this nagging and growing feeling or rather suspicion that there were more 'negatives' than 'positives' taking the drug (atleast at the higher doses).
So I began a 'weening' off come slow reduction process lastnight. And like you I have had a noticeably better day. Nothing to shout from the rooftops but yes, a slight noticeable benefit dropping to 7.5mg.
[Where 0 = Absolute worse a human can feel and 10 = Absolute best a human can feel] - I guess for those of us that struggle with depression/anxiety going from feeling 1 out of 10 to even a 2, 3 or 4 out of 10 now and again is to be considered a blessing and achievement. However, to those that dont suffer, anything under 5 for example is to be considered a seriously lousy day as they are used to be operating maybe at a 7+ out of 10 most days. How I wish I was so fortunate
Anyway, for me my plan was not purely to drop to a lower amount but rather over say a week to come off the drug totally.
So what about the anxiety (and depression) I struggle with? (GP refers to it as 'Agitated' but I refer to as 'Reactive') ...I am aiming to try and cope without ADs of anykind but use Propananol on a 'as and when needed' basis). That way I wont be left thinking "are these Mirtazapines/ADs making me worse?????" but instead have the Propananol's 'anxiety stopping' benefits (inc. its placebo effect) only when I feel I need to pop a pill. Hope I haven't confused.
Best wishes and much peace at Easter!
[p.s. As a new comer here, found all your and shez's comments comforting - many thanks]
Karl_-_UK
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https://patient.info/forums/discuss/propranolol-from-devestating-anxiety-to-calm-in-1-day-40199
May you have a peaceful nights sleep and awake refreshed and feeling settled and optimistic!!!
Karl
shez32 craig2828
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shez32 Karl_-_UK
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Sounds safer then these things.
I hope ur wd goes ok and keep strong and do what u thinks best
craig2828 shez32
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These just seem to numb us i think as i struggle with all emotions like my body dont know how to adapt to any emotions. Sucks but I'm out of ideas. Al just give it a week or so at 15. Just trying to get steady on things and more control. I hope you keep going well and can suss thjngs out. Keep strong lad your doing good
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Pixie I know how it feels I got through three months of up and down Tring to get off due to me feeling thry ain't doing much for me and the groggyness is hard to cope with. My biggest regret is ever tying these thjngs as i feel stuck on them. the wd floored me and I'm back to my full 15 until I have the strength to get off this year. Having an awful time at the moment I had cold and it kkockrd off my ear issue as I suffer vertigo. So being stuck in bed dizzy ovrr thinkng feds all sorts of anxity. I'm a anxious wreck this week. I know half the problem is my anxity and anxuius thoughts. But these tablets don't seem to do anything for it. I feel it's about my trying to change. Wish I could fix us all and get us off theee stupid things. I'm not sure if thry are making me dizzy or if it's my vertigo as it's flared up like crazy since I've been on these and the hesd aches are constant everyday like my heads pulsation. Never used to have this. No doubt it's all anxity haha the usual. Every symptom I get now I just label anxity or Mr A ha. Trying to soften the effect somehow. I'm taking omega 369 and vit b to try perk me up. My pmt is insane every month now with the increased anxity and lack of exercise. I generally belive I'm fdone for me and will never be ok. Just feel stuck in one big rutt keeping adding fuel to the fire.. It's frustrating. I can't even remember the old happy care free me anymore. My head is tired from the whole thjng and negative thoughts actually are draining. I was hoping summer would cheer me up but it's annoying because I don't even want to go out and enjoy it as it's a constant battle with my stupid heed. Hsd awful anxity attack last night worst one in a while. So I guess this is clearly showing that these thjngs are not working. I have constant fears sm going to faint and pass out nearly every second of everyday. No idea why. I've never passed out yet. But it certainly feels like I will from the physical symptoms that the thought leads t. Gosh what a want rant, it's nice to air off to people who underunderstand and are fighting similar battle. Poor us haha. I used to be more an optimist blimey now I feel so Negative from the crappy time im still going Throw. Product removed It helps me see it as just anxity but I csnt fully convince my self sometimes I can some I can't. I really really want off these mirtazapine tho, just not sure how and when anymore. Scared to make my self more anxious. I don't see it as us giving in just us needing a break by upping and getting our strength back so don't feel too hard on yourself. Paul I'm glad you are going ok and it's great that u finally worked out that the stupid things ain't helping you either. Keep going and take each day. Your doing great. We will all grt there in the end. I guess we have no option as live does go on anxious or not ha. Pixie I've been trying diapramic breathing it's meant to be real calming too. My tummy muscles feel so tight from stress and anxity no wonder I ain't breathing proper haha. There's lots of links on goggle for it. Anyway I've rambled on enough ha. Keep pushing u two
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