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Lauren1607
Lauren1607

To some people you'll just think that these are just words. But I'm hoping some will be able to associate and give me some help. 

I'm 20 years old, 21 in 5 days. 

And I have serious health anxiety,  i'm terrified of feeling sick, and every time I had an upset stomach the anxiety stocks with me for months,  to the point where I'm losing sleep I can't eat I don't really like going out of the house.

I've been forwarded to CBT, which I'm on the waiting list for. 

It's got to the point that when I wake up i think it's the same thing everyday and panic,  I genuinely do not think I can go through this anymore. I'm struggling to cope.  

I also get panic attacks, I try ti control them but it's easier said than done. 

I've tried everything I know and feeling like a lost cause. I cannot do this, anxiety, panic attacks and phobias all at once is a life ruined. 

Any advice. 

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  • gordon77178
    gordon77178 Lauren1607

    Posted

    Do you also have phisycal symptoms that cripple you, like sense of fainting, or that dizzines like the earth is moving under your legs and you are going to fall?
    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 gordon77178

      Posted

      I feel like km going to faint sometimes not every time. 

      The worst physical symptom is the cramps, and the nausea I can't bare them. 

    • gordon77178
      gordon77178 Lauren1607

      Posted

      You can't imagine the nausea i had this morning, i had to call work and tell them i am to sick to come to work, i am a programmer, and i need to be able to concentrate. I also wake up very tired altough i sleep pretty well and ocassionally have pretty nice dreams. But the fainting part is the one that's killing me. Anyway you're not alone and presonally i will take my bike and go to the park, even though i am dizzy, if i am going to die, i will do it like a hero, trying to get my life back from whatever this ilness is. Remember the human body was engineered by whoever engineered it to regenerate lots of things, so one day we just might get better.
    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 gordon77178

      Posted

      How are you feeling now? The fact if any possible bug is going round ill go into hibernation.  I'm terrified.  

      I hope that's the case because j can't go on like this forever. 

    • UK-Ven-medicate
      UK-Ven-medicate Lauren1607

      Posted

      Yopu sound like your at your whits end. has your doctor given you anything to help you calm dowm. Even short term sedatives would help tak ethe edge of so you could at least try to fight back.
    • gordon77178
      gordon77178 Lauren1607

      Posted

      Still kind of dizzy, sometimes my heart races, feeling iminent fainting, loud sounds make me feel like i am going to lose it and like i am going to have a heart attack (Eg. Jackhammer, ambulance siren, etc...). I am also terified i will go like this forever, though a solution must be found. When i'll get back from my bike trip, will let you know if i died or fainted, well, if i died i probably won't write back... Joking, but will let you know for sure.
  • steadfast
    steadfast Lauren1607

    Posted

    Lauren,

    You are not alone.  Please see your primary doctor to see if there is any chemical imbalance or some other reason for your sick feeling.  If everything is okay physically which I suspect it is, see a therapist.  You need to discuss your anxieties and get feed back.  Much of which we are anxious about will never happened.  Some of what we are anxious about is a mole hill not a mountain (though it doesn't feel like a mole hill - small thing).  You are not going crazy, maybe over analyzing your health problems. Try focusing  on positive things in your life when you began having health anxieties. Praying for you.

    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 steadfast

      Posted

      I've been to the doctors and have been forwarded to get CBT, it feels like an mountain,  but nothing lasts forever right? 

      I have good days and bad days, but the bad days happen more than the good. 

      I need to go back to my doctor again, they prescribed me sertraline.  Which doesn't seem to be having any affect.  rolleyes 

      I appreciate all your kind words, it makes you better realising your not on your own and not some sort of odd person. 

  • shell58234
    shell58234 Lauren1607

    Posted

    Hi you have heard this a hundred times everything you said is the most nasty feeling ever. And you can't put it in to words how or why this is happening to you. We all know that feeling so well. You most get to see your doctor soon as you can. And tell him or her what you wrote, cause you really need some medical advice and support for these feelings your having. I know at the moment things look dark but you will find the light of living again. It will also take time but it will get better. Writing a dairy day by day is a good idea cause you will be able to notice your feelings changing trust me I knew how and what your going through. Take care
    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 shell58234

      Posted

      Thank you shell,  the diary idea is a good idea because I know it'll help. 

      I do have food days and bad days, just the bad more than the good right now. 

      My doctor has forwarded me to CBT and has gave me sertraline. But I don't think the dose is strong enough. 

    • shell58234
      shell58234 Lauren1607

      Posted

      Hi yeah sertreline is good I started off on 50mg for 2 week then 100 mg then 150mg then 200mg lol 200mg was just to high level then went back to 150mg which are working well. But this took me months to feel like a human again. You will be find just give it time. Read others people story s I found that help me on my bad days.
    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 shell58234

      Posted

      It's bad as it is, but it's just all happening at such an inconvenient time. It's my 21st birthday in 5 days,  and the old Lauren would be super excited and cannot wait to go out with all my friends,  this lauren anywho is completely different.  

      I'm not excited or looking forward to my meal since I'm scared ill have an anxiety attack or an IBS flare up. 

      There's always other years! 

  • carl36762
    carl36762 Lauren1607

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    Hi Lauren

    Health anxiety is teirrible. Myself and a lot of otherd here are going through the saMe thing so you're not on your own.

    I am at work right now and have had to come sit on the loo because I felt so dizzy and nauseous for no reason, but some how this helps. 

    The problem I have is I'm paranoid about my heart. I work at a hospital where a lot of people come with chest pain every night. I see people hooked up to the monitors so I get to see what condition their heart is in. And to be truthful it scares the living day lights out of me hearing the beeping and seeing how fast or irregular their beats are.

    I know i am healthy. But my mind keeps telling me otherwise and thats whats happening with you. Dont give up on yourself. I tried that route and believe me, you do not want to go there. Giving up is harder than battling through. 

    We will all get there in the end

    • Lauren1607
      Lauren1607 carl36762

      Posted

      Hi Carl,  

      Health anxiety is the worst, my problem is my stomach, I I've suffered with IBS since I was studying my gcse's at school, I had a very bad time as I had to force myself to go and sit exams when o was having panic attacks.  

      Now I'm terrified to be in an uncomfortable situation while being sick. I can't cope with feeling sick,  there is nothing that terrifies me more. 

      I barely eat because I'm scared a certain food is going to upset my stomach.  

      I've never had anxiety this bad before with it, somehow miraculously I managed and debt with it when needed. 

      Now I'm a wreck. 

      I hope you are ok, take some deep breaths and think positively! 

      I'm trying my hardest not to give up, i'm determine to get back to the Lauren I used to be. Easier said then done! 

      Keep your chin up, it'll all get better eventually.  

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