My panic attacks!!!!!!!

I feel like I'm gonna die everyday from my anxiety it sucks its like its never gonna go away but it will I don't know when it will end but the symptoms will go away 

I have been having panic attacks since i was 11-12 years old so over 10 years there not as bad as they use to be but i still get them regularly. mine started a couple months after my uncle passed and i was layed in bed didnt hear my parents go to bed and I remember thinking they left me or has something happened to them I started to panic even after i checked and saw them in bed i couldnt relax i struggled to breath and begged my parents to call ambulance since that night I have been scared of dying just the pure the thought of one day ill not be here what happeneds to me is what scares me my granny taught me to learn to breath and count from 1 to 10 till i relaxed and calmed down now if i find my heart raise and i start to panic i sit up and breath and push the thoughts to back on my head i try not to think about it anymore but random times i just be sat there and for reason the thought pops in and i start to panic so i know what your feeling it sucks alot.

Finally, someone suffering VERY closely like me! I also tried almost everything out there but to no great help. I developed Thanatophobia right after my first panic attacks that came out of the blue but still struggling back in 2005. The worst scariest feeling EVER !!! I know I will have to leave this world someday and don't want to until I'm old and achieved most, if not, all of my various desires/dreams. But, as you know, death is unpredictable and inevitable. When I get what I call my "death rehearsal" panic attacks that strike when I THINK my life is in great danger, real or imagined (does not matter, feels real anyway), I panic till bodily exhaustion. No meds or therapy can help/has helped with this sadly, for me thus far, anyway. I'm researching existential death anxiety which is the worst type of course (lucky us, right?) and hoping to find a solution. I'm getting really tired from all the fighting with my mind. Having primarily obsessional OCD and Scrupulosity makes me feel like a MONSTER, which does not help either, having been raised in a very religious culture. I've created "fake" safety zones in my head and only trust healthcare in my area, as STUPID as this sounds but it's there. I have a flight next months and you can imagine how I'm feeling to be away from my safety zone!!! What if I get a heart attack and the doctors overseas can't help me? I keep thinking about the worst case scenarios...oh well. I guess I'll keep fighting / looking for answers till I'm alive. Any advice from you would be greatly appreciated.

Keesh

Brampton, ON Canada

 

Hello everybody, i´ve read your posts and i feel the same, i feel tired about it, i dont want to feel scare any more, i allways feel like dying and feel anxious. after all i start crying like a little girl, then next day like if nothing happen. Tell me please if somebody have found a solution? i live in monterrey, mexico. 

I have just woken up from a stressful dream which then started to turn into huge anxiety and panic and questioning "why all of a sudden was I awake. Was it my time to die? "  my vision started to narrow and I felt myself "slipping" . I managed to quickly grab my cell phone "my security blanket" and im so glad to find im not the only person out there that is having such strong debilitating anxiety from the fear of dying.  It has got so bad in the last 6 months that I find myself crying nearly everyday cos im in fear thats it's my last day /minute on this earth. I was prescribed prozac from my gp. And have been taking it for two days now 10mg every morning.  I need to know there is definite light at the end of this very scary lonely tunnel....... thanks

Hi Danielle and Emma,

I know too well what we all have to go through. Panic disorder with fear of death is such a b1tch ! While meds like SSRIs and anxiolytics like clonazepam help me to a certain extent, I have accepted the idea that my life is a waste really. The pain is inbearable many times. I would probably be single for the rest of my life and never know what love and sex are as a guy. Mindfulness Based CBT and ACT work great to survive but NOT a cure sadly. Religion has made things a lot worse for me - the incredible level of guilt I feel when I did absolutely nothing wrong is too much to handle. I became agnostic which helped me breathe without guilt REALLY !!! I also suffer from Pure O, a form of OCD. It's A LOT for my mind to fight against. Anyway, I hope to find a cure for any type of anxiety disorder someday and help others in the same sinking boat. Time will tell. I'll be 35 next year but feel like 15 deep inside. My mind never gave me a chance to grow up. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you girls, hoping the next year will be way better for all of us!!!! 

I feel the same way. It's so scary and nobody understands what you're going through so you try and keep it to yourself and that makes it worse. I feel like I can't enjoy things because in the back of my mind that is all I'm thinking of.

I suffer with this every now and again.  Since stopping taking my venlafaxine it has happened a few times now.  I can really sit there and believe I have gone completely crazy and then sometimes somehting as simple as a glass of wine and all of a sudden it eases off, basically telling me I am not going crazy, but more than likely my anxiety has got out of control.

These things normally happen to me when I spend too much time by myself and give myself too much time to think.

Hi you guys I'm so glad I had found this page. There is others like me, I have been haveing panic and anxitey for 4 years and just like the rest of you I have tryed everything meds, therapy, acupuncture, herbs, I even talked to a phychic. Smh I just want them to go away I hate these I've only had them for four years and I have no clue why I get them. I wish I did know I think it might make it just a little bit easier to deal with. Does anyone know if people have these for life or do they just come and go.

I have same problem. It's very hard to live with. I've had it all my life. My brain goes into panic mode very quickly with anything stressful. I think gobapentin helps

Go on you tube and look up mindful breathing and learn it. It will help you in that moment very much.yes at first anxiety levels will rise more as you are in training. Keep at it. And remeber to be the observer not a participant in the panic attack.throw all your anxiety rules out the window they are tricking you and ruining you. Believe this will pass and it will. You need to write it all down you will see a pattern and it will clearly proove to you what occurs during a panic attack. At first you have to guide yourself strictly and say i can do this and i will get through it as i have in the past. Accept the symptoms but do so by observing them. Accept does NOT mean your okay or happy with these attacks. It means you accept they are occuring because you are having a panic attack.thenafter you observed the symptoms. Do midful breathing and be sure to write down your very negative self talk during this time.it will take a lot of energy and a few attacks before you realize that these attacks are horrid and ruining your life and nit worth it for you to feed into the experience. Observe, accept and breathe and you will get through it.

To Danielle

Sorry this was such a long time ago but I've just found it!!!

I'm in floods of tears reading this as I thought it was just me and I was a weirdo ! I can't actually believe people have the same problems as me !!

Please tell me what I need to do I can't cope anymore !!

Katie x