Need help with withdrawel

I won't take subs, I just want to jump, but a few days in bed is impossible for me!! Taper it is with my Son's help x

No I would not suggest you do. Not worth it for where either you or I are at the moment. Was a different story when was I was in excess of 40 + Fentanyl plus Morphine.

Wow that just brought back powerful memories of how bad withdrawal can get. I guess I should be happier that it's been easier this time. No walk in the park but easier. I'm gonna do this! I'm gonna be happy and well AND pill free! Yay me!

You to NickI'm excited to win the battle ((((hugs)))) xxx

Oh I long for that feeling I lost 2 stone throughout my horrendous relationship, I ended it in Jan 2015 but still struggle to eat I NEED a stone & half within as little time as possible I've been up since 6ish, yes taken 6demons, house done, wash about to go on the line! I'm not going to feel ashamed as tomorrow is my day, scared yeh, hopefull yeh, love my GP so that's the easy bit...Handing them to my Son, he won't give in to me lol.. SO WANT TO JUMP but I can't as could be called to babysit anytime, cannot be too ill, although if I could I would..Nick, I mostly take 6 every morning, can you suggest what I should take tomorrow & each day after, I want it fast but with the Wd's not so bad that I can't cope! The tum bit doesn't bother me, the sleeping doesn't bother me, it's just the, well I don't know, the fear of finally saying goodbye, this time, for the last time!! Any suggestions, advice welcome...Due to weight loss I have complan drinks, full of all the goodness u need plus almost 400 cals a go! I will get back on my multi vits & my spoonfuls of , I will also get some extra vit C in....Please Nick, I have so much support on here, I know I can do this, please help me xx

Don't worry, I'm here to help you. My suggestion is to drop to four tomorrow... Have an iron strong will and agree that no matter what happens, no matter what needs to be done you will get by on four. Work on stabilising then we can drop again. Dropping from 6 to for won't be that bad honest! You can do this and your time is now!

try and only get as many pills from the doctor as you need to avoid temptation. You can so do this, I know you know that!

Hi nick am replying to this not sure what way this works but your sounding negative when you should be positive nearly 2 weeks the cleaning thought is stressing write a to do list like room by room 1 polish 2 Hoover that kind off thing defo help with your OCD try it now before daughter leaves if you flush them it will be the biggest step forward man no going back please keep in touch I truly want you to get through this trust me I may sound confident but I am just hanging on by a thread a good night sleep will help you tomorrow you will be brand new when you wake up tomorrow it's gonna be a good day say it xxxx

Oh my gosh, I'm OCD to, I have to do whole house everyday!! That's one of my biggest fear, not being able to keep on top of it!! I can't afford a cleaner, not that it would help as no one does it like me lol...I'd only clean after they left.. Also they are looking in to if I have Fibro, I suffer badly from PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, sever IBS etec etc, I can manage the pain without the pills, so worth it! My biggest fear, house a mess if I'm not able to do much in 1st week of taper, I'm scared I'll get a few extra just to do a top to bottom?? NO, I won't, don't let me Nick please!!x

 

I  know what you mean about no-one doing it as good as you can! When I was struck with fatigue I had to drop my standards some and it nearly sent me over the edge! I've had a lot of help from my daughter, she hoovers for me every other day. I use to do it every day before I got sick but I can't do it now. I've got painters in on the 24th and the hope is a repainted will make me feel better about things. I also want it done before I get a cleaner in. It will be weird for me having someone in, I don't like the idea much but I guess I will get use to it. I bought some paint today and also a tester pot... Farrell and Ball, Pavilion Gray... I'm thinking of having gray in my bedroom but am worried it might be too dark. I'm sure you've better things to do but if you have a minute Boole it and tell me what you think... I don't wanna mess up! It's half past five already, the day has gone quickly.mim sitting here thinking about what to cook for dinner... It will have to be something quick and easy coz I'm done. Anyway freedom, how did it go today? Have you started on 4?

Boole was meant to be Google lol

Awful isn't it, but I love a clean home, unfortunatly it's Council & the walls/doors in awful state, need the whole house re plastered but could never afford it, I don't want to wallpaper, doesn't cost much less either there is wood flooring right through, dust trap, dust spreader, ahh I need to hoover everyday!! I'm glad your getting your house done & yes it will make you feel amazing, I did my bathroom, about £20 in cost, bright pink/black & white, a real retro look! I just want the rest to look as good, oh Nick, it's not that bad lol, just really want my walls done Wish we lived close, OCD + OCD an amazing combo haha!! Going back to bathroom, that was my original idea, shades of grey, go for it, keep the wall's light, & accesorize the crap out of it, so many lovely shades of grey as well, I had loads of idea's, until I saw my retro shower curtain!  I shall Boole it now is your B.room big?(length/width in inches) Oooh love it, but maybe you could do white walls & the smaller walls with the grey, if you have a big B.room, you would get away with it, then maybe lots of white, such as mirrors, wall cupboards etc?? Gooo with it, I'm a bit jel now lol, wish I could post a pic of mine on here!! At least I know what colour paint I'm using when I change mine haha!!

Any idea's on bedroom, very unlike me, but I was doing white & candyfloss pink in my room, 49 with a little girls room, never had a nice bedroom, now thinking beach theme? Can't change sheets as they were given to me from an old hotel owner & don't think I could sleep in any other now lol, they are white so could be dyed, like you I do not wanna mess it up, I also don't want to go do the 'usual' bedroom colours, any advice greatly appreciated  

 

You asked, I have to be truthful, 6 yesterday & 6 this moen, I will be giving to my Son today as I NEED to start, so I promise you now, tomorrow I start the 4's  Sorry to be a let down xxxx

Ooh lots of Lully advice, thanks Free. I'm glad you like the Grey. My bedroom is not that big unfortunately but I do have a six foot mirror in my bedroom . Oh LOL, PMSL I just realised how that sounded! It's not that type of mirror... Hehe haha! That will have me laughing all day. Anyway, it's a large antique style gold mirror. Maybe not the best to go with grey but I like it so I don't wanna change it. It's a narrow room but reasonably long.  Period building so very high ceilings. I always say house but I actually live in a flat which is in a converted house. I too have the dreaded oak floors. Put them in years ago and was not prepared for the amount of dust... It builds up in a day! I do however love how it lasts. No dirty carpets! We don't where shoes in the house even now, I was a maniac when I had carpet throughout, don't think I could go back to that! I do miss the wall to wall carpet feel though so im gonna carpet the bedroom and abandon the wood but just in that room. I do actually have carpet in my sons room. Typical beige/ caramel wool carpet. I got a real good deal on it a few years back on eBay. It was new from a shop. They fitted it too. It's not worn, nor does it have a mark on it! Always worth looking about before shelling out! I love, love the sound of your bathroom! Sounds so happy!  So are you saying your bedroom is pink and you are changing it to beach hut style? I like that it's classic. In fact I had a bit of that going I'm in my sons room when he was small. I picked him up this cool blue and white striped mirror which was actually a bouy when I was I France for the day. I'd forgotten that... It was a cute look that I never tired of. Very fresh. At the moment I'm seeing grey walls black, solid wood furniture,it's kinda lacquered. I'm als gonna put some bronze or gold in there... Check out these lamps... Gonna buy them I think. (will add address). Just BC your house is council it does not mean they are not responsible. I would complain and if they don't listen take it to Ombudsman, I bet if you did they would end up doing them. Just don't give in, take it to the top and beyond! Why an earth should you have to pay to plaster the effin walls, what a cheek! Let me find the address for the lamps...