Not Coping Anymore

I know how you feel, the panic attacks are awful, I can't seem to stand in a queue at the shops now without feeling panicky x

I really think people who have never suffered panic and anxiety haven't got a clue. When you tell them they think you're mad I'm sure.

Yes,

I ABSOLUTLY hear your pain!!

I the same, as a chaperone for my daughters class. A few days before this took place...I started to feel anxious! Was a basket case until I got home. Of course, tried to be normal as I could be while I was there, but never volunteered again!!

Just started to back away from social events. And started to Second guessed my self, constantly!

This is not me!

Same with expressing my feelings. If someone upset me and I knew it was uncalled for, I would have no thought of having to say what I felt at the time..now, I'm like a little lamb not knowing what to do, what would be the right thing to do, it's like I am over thinking everything. But desperately trying to do what's right on both ends. It is a struggle for me daily. But knowing it's not just me gives me hope.

Thank you all for your advice and for sharing your lives on this forum. It has truly been helpful to me!

Maggie xo

Isn't it awfull I've actually walked out of a shop before were I got so bad x

Doe, thank you... this is what I am slowly beginning to understand, too.  I keep beating myself up over trying to find solutions instead of just taking it a step at a time.  Lifelong anxiety issues, 20 years with Crohn's disease, about 2 years with obvious peri symptoms... yes.  I do have to come out of this in one piece, and ditching my guilt about trying to "fix" all of it would be a great first step toward being a better friend to myself.  Thank you!!!

This summer has been rough - it's hard to be out in the heat for any length of time.  My gyn really hasn't talked with me about peri - I had surgery in April and it's kind of a long story - and I do understand your frustration.

That's an accurate description - the switch won't flip to "off" and it's so scary.

That's exactly rite Michelle. They automatically look at me like I'm crazy and wondering what's wrong with me. I hate the anxiety and panic. I hate that it makes me wanna rush through everything so I can get back home.

Agreed, Jamie.  It's one of those experiences that can't be understood unless you've been through it yourself.  My initial experience with panic came with my Crohn's diagnosis and being put on prednisone for 2.5 years.  There were family and friends who knew what was going on, but everybody else just thought I was nuts.  I hate feeling embarrassed after an attack, too.

I am expierecing the same thing. I was just trying to explain to someone that the overwhelming panic just comes over me out of nowhere and then I get real anxious to the point of heart racing, shaking, and feeling like I can't breathe and going to pass out. It takes a minute to calm down and recover. Sometimes I can talk myself out of it and sometimes I can't. I just hate doing it in front people and then I'm embarrassed after I've performed and nothing is wrong with me.

The doctor never said hormones to me either, but when it happened while I was in the ER, I was on my period at the time and the doc said "nothing is wrong with you, it's just your period, it's common in women your age, see a psychiatrist". That told me right there that it was hormone related. I started writing down every time I would have one and noticed that it was either during ovulation time, right before or after a period and sometimes during the period. The other times of the month I'm just anxious and nervous out of fear that I've developed now since all this started.

Oops keeping pressing my phone to send! I know, this overwhelming surg we of panic comes over me at home Aswell, this is all new to me, I mean I'm not new to panic because I have a form of agoraphobia with the open space thing but I would only panic in that sort of situation, but this is different it just comes over me out the blue, I can feel the surge of panic coming, the other week I had a full panic attack out of the blue at home, it just happened x

I'm sure mines is connected to hormones. I started writing it down because the panic would just come out of nowhere. Like you, I can feel it coming on. I had one so bad that I ended up in the ER, and I was on my period. The doc said "we've checked you, you are fine, it's your period, it's common in women your age and see a psychiatrist". Everytime I had one, it was right before , during, or after my period. It's crazy. That was one thing the doc was actually right about.

Just realized I said the exact same thing......I'm really losing my mind.....????