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Please someone help i cannot do this anymore!!!

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stacey11102022
stacey11102022

Ive suffered from health anxiety for a few months now but im now stuck in a vicious cycle!!! I have diagnoed my self with DVT'S ,  a brain tumour , an impending stroke just to name a few. I had my first smear test on monday due to me googling cervical cancer and having alot of the symptoms. I have a 2-3 week wait for the results its onmly day 3 but im at my witts end!!! ive rang the hospital and my dr.s to see if they have the results . No. I cannot take the waiting i have litterally convinced myself i have cervical cancer i have all the aches and pains but i dont know if thats just from googling reading then my mind making the ones i dont have up!!!! I had lots of blood tests a few weeks ago including full blood count liver ect.. all clear and i also had a lumber xray as id been having lower back pain that went down my leg into my foot the majority of the time its a burning sensation , i found out through google that a tumour could cause the pains ive been having as my leg is slightly swollen aswell . i cant stop googling im making my self ill. Im not eating atall. i keep waking up at night with panicky nervous feeling in my tummy. i feel like a total mess. I have mirtazapine but tooscared to take it because of the side effects even though ive taken it before. I just dont know what to do. I took a vitamin on a empty tummy earlier and now ive got severe tummyache so ive now convinced myself ive got a tummy ulcer thats gonna pop any min!!!! Please someone give me some advice . im at a loss what to do . I have 4 small children whom  i love dearly but its starting to effect them also now. I cant calm down or relax im just a complete and utter mess!!! My dr.s have given up on me as ive been so many times they blame it on anxiety but i feel there is something seriously wrong with me :'( :'( . I cant tke anymore and theres no way i can make the wait for my smear test results without being sectioned . Please im really in need of some advice xxx

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  • jennifer_01212
    jennifer_01212 stacey11102022

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    Stacey11102022 I can totally relate to you. When I first started having anxiety I had myself disgnoised with 100 different diseases. Many trips to the emergency room and my family Dr and I was always fine. I have suffered from anxiety since I was in middle school and I'm now 35 so I know how awful it feels. Googling info can be the worst thing to do to yourself. I know cause i have done it so much that I end up having a panic attack every time. I'm New to this site but so glad I found it. Just remember your not alone. Millions of us struggle with anxiety everyday. Please feel free to message me any time.
  • stacey11102022
    stacey11102022

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    Omg you girls are being so lovely and understanding no1 has ever taken the time to understand or even been where i am . Im being weaned off diazepam and am not allowed anymore i was down to 1mg a day a week ago but this past week ive been taking 4-5 mg a day im now down to my last 2mg tablet and terrorfied of whats gonna happen when its gone , there is a walk in center with a 24hr mental health person on down my local hospital everyday and im just wondering if i go down there would they give me some more diazepam? or something to calm me down? im not feeling too bad at the moment and had a good nights sleep ish had about 7 hours un interupted. But my partner goes to work shortly and then when its going to start again. I caant go out on my own , i hate being alone in my house, i cant do anything i feel like a baby who needs to be babysat :'( . I just dont know what to do my heart doesnt race as such but i can feel it if that makes sense , i am dizzy have blurred vision , everything seems unreal like im in a sort of dream , i have the nervous feeling in my tummy 24/7 , im trembling and shaking , cant concentrate . I just want to be the carefree happy person i was 4 months ago sad xxx
    • bonnie21356
      bonnie21356 stacey11102022

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      Stacey, so go to the center and tell them how much medicine you have taken this week. And that you need more. You do not want to stop cold turkey. That is not good. And it is also reasuring to know you have it if you need it. I am so happy to hear you feeling better. I have all of those symptoms also. The meds help. You are not being a baby. I hate being alone. If none of my kids are around, I go get a grandkid wink Or I go to my friends shop and help her, or just sit and talk to her. I am working on my second divorce, and scared to death to be alone for the rest of my life. I told my grown kids I will move in with them. None of them want me, but that is okay. I still have a 19 year old Autistic daughter here with me. We take care of each other. And she goes with me to the store and such. I am praying for you to be the happy carefree person you were. Ask the center or your doctor for help. That is what they are there for!!!! Hugs xx
    • jennifer_01212
      jennifer_01212 stacey11102022

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      Stacey I'm not sure y ur being weined off ur meds and i can only speak from my experience when trying to come off any kind of anti anxiety med that the withdrawal is horrible. Even when I done an EXTREAMLY slow tappering off it was awful. I use to think that I could be on meds temporarily but now I have come to realize that I will probably be on them for the rest of my life. It took ALOT of reassuring from my psychologist that it was ok to be on meds and that it's quite normal. But back to ur meds , I'm not sure if ur n the states or not but I'm in north Carolina and it's rare that our local hospital with give u more than a couple days to a months supply of a benzodiazepine and tell you to follow up with ur primary care Dr . and with u being on 4 to 5 mg this past week I would be concerned about dropping down to nothing. Not just with the anxiety but I know as a nurse u can't stop meds like that cold turkey and expect nothing to happen. Severe withdrawal symptoms can be pretty bad. I would definitely check with ur Dr or healthcare provider before going off them all together. Withdrawal can be miserable and in some cases dangerous. Keep me posted please.
    • emily10334
      emily10334 stacey11102022

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      Oh Stacey it breaks my heart to hear of how you're feeling, I too suffer health anxiety, I'm going into hospital tomorrow for back surgery and I'm beside myself with anxiety, it's the worst feeling ever and only people who also suffer understand,  please try to not best yourself up, be kind to yourself,  it is only our thoughts that make us panic, you have to learn coping strategies for slowing your thoughts down,  don't google any signs or symptoms (been there done that and omly leads to tons more anxiety). I'll be thinking of ya and hoping you can feel a bit better very soon Hun,  xx
  • stacey11102022
    stacey11102022

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    Hi girls im in the u.k i know stopping cold turkey is bad i think thats whats worrying me also , im worried about everything. I think i will take a trip to the hospital and see the mental health nurse/doctor and just explain everything to them. My g.p is useless infact they all are they are the last time i went to talk to them a few weeks ago he basically just laughed at me and sent me on my way not only did i feel a total mental case but i felt so embaressed. I know i need help but i just dont know where to start . It all started after my dad died suddenly on the 1st of december last year , he colappsed and died outside my doctors surgery and since then ive been struggling with health anxiety xx
    • bonnie21356
      bonnie21356 stacey11102022

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      Good plan Stacey. I am so sorry about your dad. No wonder you are having anxiety. Have you tried grief counceling? And shame on your gp for acting like that. You pay them to take care of you. You are the boss. Keep us updated.
    • jennifer_01212
      jennifer_01212 stacey11102022

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      Stacey... Definitely don't go cold Turkey. To dangerous and to many unknown withdrawal symptoms. Go to a different Dr. Go to 100 different drs until u get one who will listen and take u serious. Here in the states drs seem to take anxiety / depression issues ALOT more serious. As with ur dad passing that is when my anxiety peaked at it's worst is when I found my best friend dead and I went into complete meltdown for 6 months and got down to 90lbs. Do they have psychologist where ur located? Dealing with a death is not a quick fix situation. Therapy and meds and learning to cope and grieve the proper way is important. Don't give up. Don't stop until ur satisfied with the outcome that a Dr give u.
  • stacey11102022
    stacey11102022

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    Well im now scared after a massive arguement with my partner refusing to take me to the hospital to see the mental health team hes now left me as as he put it ( He cant deal with me anymore and ive made his life a living hell) . Hes not coing back as work as as he said work and him is more important than me getting my sanity back. Ive just taken my last diazepam and am terrorfied that im gonna start withdrawing , as i said i cannot get to the hospital as i have no money and dont drive and the thought of going out on my own terrorfies me and brings on a panic attack. What am i going to do ? i cant last the day like this and i now have my 4 children with me :'( xxxx
    • jennifer_01212
      jennifer_01212 stacey11102022

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      Girl when u have to be strong on ur own it feels like u can't do it but u can. Put them big girl boots on and get to that clinic. If there's a will there's a way. U have to find a way to get there , explain ur situation b4 u do start withdrawing . the last thing u want is to be having horrible withdrawals with 4 children to care for and no meds to help. Ur stronger than u think u r. Think out step by step what u need to do and just go head first. U will b proud of what u have accomplished after u do it. U don't wanna be going through withdrawals and having ur babies to care for. Stay positive , remember during the scary times tell ur self this to shall pass and I'm gonna b ok. Get ur self to that clinic.
  • stacey11102022
    stacey11102022

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    hiya the hospital is an hours walk away sad i cant even make a 5 min trip to my shops plus i have 4 children , its raining where i am and unfair to drag the kiddys out for a 2 hour walk. How long will it take for withdrawal to start? will it be in the next few hours? i can get a lift to the hospital later this evening to see someone then , im just scared it will start now and i will have a sezure in the next few hours sad . Is this likely? xxx
    • bonnie21356
      bonnie21356 stacey11102022

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      No, withdrawl would not start in a few hours. But hopefully you got to the clinic. Your partner needs to get on here or some other anxiety site and read!!! I wish he knew how much he would be doing for you if he just said, "everything is okay", or "everything is going to be okay". A hug, and knowing he cares is way more helpful than leaving you while he is angry. I know from experience that only made me feel more alone in this battle and abandoned. How are you doing?
    • jennifer_01212
      jennifer_01212 stacey11102022

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      Stacey I can only say for my self that withdrawals starred for me with in the first 48 hours. Now I'm sure some of it was me waiting for the worst. How r u doing as of right now?
  • lot12
    lot12 stacey11102022

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    Hi stacey

    Im also at a total lost right now

    I keep thinking i have pancreatic or colon cancer since i have yellow stool for more than 2 weeks andupper left abdominal pain in and off

    And just last night i staryed having night sweats that wet my clothes a bit and now also have extreame sweat during the day specially in my nexk and back

    It so scary!!!!

    • stacey11102022
      stacey11102022 lot12

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      Hi lot12 please try not to worry yourself... There are many many reasons for your symptoms change of diet , something you have eaten .. Honestly i feel the same i automatically think the worst and i google which is the wrong thing to do .. But sometimes you need that reassurance that its nothing serious and google always brings the worst possible thing up!!! Google is the devils work honestly. Maybe make an appointment with your doctor and see what he/she says about your symptoms xx
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