Really have had enough
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well finally trying to drop back to 20mg citalopram , been on 30mg and still "out of it" , bad anxiety , intrusive thoughts , tingling and shakes 24/7 .
still taking 15mg mirtazapine at night , just taken my first 20mg dose, yesterday morning was 30mg .
really feel like giving up and doing something stupid .
im just about at the end of my tether . Feel like I want to end it all .
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yommymommy79 garyflinn
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So sorry you feel so bad...please don't do anything to hurt yourself...you can get better from this...just ride out the storm and give yourself time to heal...how long have you been on cit?
garyflinn yommymommy79
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yommymommy79 garyflinn
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Have you tried any therapy? X
betsy0603 garyflinn
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You say you've tried so many meds, and that is the problem, your system has become so sensitized to these drugs that you just can't tolerate them and they are causing these feelings, hard to believe I know.
I think it is time for you to taper off the meds and give your nervous system a rest, perhaps. However, this must be done very carefully because you are in such a sensitized state. I think rather than go helpless here, you need to get ticked off by what is happening to you and fight back! It's time to take your life back! I would strong suggest you join the forum Surviving Antidepressants and put your story there to at least get some input from the very experienced folks there who have seen this all before. You can take it or leave it.
Read the Reducing ADs using a 10% withdrawal method topic in this thread:
https://patient.info/forums/discuss/depression-resources-298570
That link will take you to SA. You can even just surf around on that site to read other peoples' stories. Joining is free; it's a private non-profit, but you do have to be a member to use the search function. You can do a search for citalopram to get hits for other people dealing with this drug; same for mirtazapine.
Time to get informed and empowered. Our nervous systems can only take so much of being manipulated by these drugs before it finally says enough is enough, and unfortunately the result is worsening depression.
katecogs garyflinn
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It might be that because you've been up and down with your meds dose that you're adding to your side effects then withdrawal effects each time. Stick with one dose only ....... and then stay on that for months and months. 20mg seems to suit you you said? You just need to be consistent - and then ride it out, through everything, the bad and the good - and yes it is tough - it's horrible, I remember. You can't ease it quickly by adding more meds as it can just make it worse. Stick with 20mg, let things settle, ride it through - persist, persist and persist even more.
You WILL get over this. Keep that in your mind.
Are you having regular appointments with your doctor? You need to tell him of your feelings. My son felt exactly as you do now - he was so ill, so desperate, didn't want to live ....... and now he's a happy young man, full of life. You WILL get better.
Do you have a local Crisis Team connected to the doctors? They're there to help. Please get in touch with someone as they will help you through this temporary difficult patch.
garyflinn katecogs
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i just can't cope , they no I'm better off out of it all now , I think I have suffered enough.
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Do you have a care team who you see regarding your MS? They would advise any interactions.
K x
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Felis garyflinn
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i was only thinking of you yesterday. So sorry to hear about your feelings right now I would have had enough too,but you have to think that this is not going to get the better of you! Just let it be if you can and think it will pass.
firstly stay on 20mg and stick with it for a few months.Secondly make an appointment to see your GP and say you are at the end of your tether and MUST have some help .You cannot do it on your own.
thirdly I promise you you Will get in control of your anxiety but it's all about persistence and time.
Lastly it is common for people with MS to also have anxiety symptoms and depression.Ask to be referred to some urgent counselling.
Gary love you have my heartfelt concern so do this for us we are always here and want you so much to feel better and in control.
Small steps and God bless a big hug to you xx