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pamela30172
pamela30172

Hi everyone

i have read so very many posts on re starting and sticking out on Citralopam and battling through the side effects and it has helped me to stay determined to try to just tough it out!

I started taking Citralopam 13 days ago .....10 mg for 5 days then went up to 20 mg.

Before this I had been on Dosulepin for around a month and a half....but as the GP thought this wasn't helping he changed me onto Cit.

I have only had a couple of times in my adult life where I have had episodes of depression/anxiety but they were easier to account for as to the cause/ reason.....this time everything seems to have come out of the blue and it's completely floored me!!

I have a loving husband of 35 years and two fabulous sons...and a family all of who are supportive and loving....I am one very lucky lady!

That's why it makes it so hard to understand where all these 'yukky' feelings have come from??!!

i am also trying CBT ...another first for me!

My question to you all is.....every morning I wake up around 5am feeling sick VERY shaky and VERY weepy....to the point of sobbing for quite a while!

After the sobbing subsides the shaking continues to a lesser degree all day...it's such a horrid disturbing feeling!

Has anyone else experienced the same? .....and better still can some one reassure me that after the 'magic' amount of weeks when the tabs start to kick in it will stop??

I am finding it so hard to cope with!

Thank you for listening to my rant.....any words of advice would be gratefully received.....like everyone else on here I just want 'me' back again and at the mo can't imagine getting there!

 

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  • pamela30172
    pamela30172

    Posted

    Thanks Elizabeth

    its just made me sad to feel like I've gone backward after feeling so good for all those weeks 😳

    just got keep going ......it's so damn wearying 😕

    hope your good 

    hugs xx

  • The_sleepy_crow
    The_sleepy_crow pamela30172

    Posted

    Hi Pamela

    hope you are managing to get through your day.

    just a couple of quick things - when we are anxious we burn up a lot of sugar and we feel sweaty. Monitor your diet and be sure to top up your blood glucose by eating regularly. Keep a carton of apple juice and a banana by your bedside & when you wake during the night, have a little snack & a sip of juice. Be sure to drink lots of water during the day too. Eat nuts and drink a glass of milk every day if you can.

    When you have a bad night (& I know exactly what you mean), congratulate yourself for getting through it. Recognise all your successes - you are fighting hard to beat anxiety & you are taking the right steps to win. Believe in yourself - you are strong and you can learn to manage your anxiety. Say positive words to yourself when the going gets tough -'I can get through this', 'this is frightening but I know I can handle it', 'I'm stronger than I think I am'. When you get through the bad days - reward yourself - perhaps a massage? Or a lovely long bath.

    when you wake up at night & feel awful, distract yourself with a wordsearch or suduko or read for 5 mins. If you distract yourself, your anxiety will lessen.

    take it easy today

    sleepy crowbiggrin

  • pamela30172
    pamela30172

    Posted

    Thanks sleepyC

    just been out for a walk in the sunshine when hubby came home from work......bit of a trial today I have to say whereas usely it's something I love doing......oh why does this make a pleasure into challenge?!

    wise words from you ......any tips to get through this rubbish is welcome!

    hoping for a better night tonight .....sleep makes everything feel better don't you think?

    take care be strong and keep well 

    Pamela x

    • peggy93882
      peggy93882 pamela30172

      Posted

      Hi pamela, sorry i havent talked to you in a few days.  Just wondering how u a doing.  I have been down for almost two weeks since my last setback. Keep hoping that those good feelings come back again. Does your dr. have an explanation as to why this is happening. My doesnt. Iwill be 4 weeks on 20's and almost 4 weeks on 40mgs.
    • pamela30172
      pamela30172 peggy93882

      Posted

      Hi Peggy

      been to Docs this morn and had a thyroid blood test .....will get results next week...but Dic says he doesn't expect it to be that?!

      He thinks it is just pure anxiety but doesn't have any answers how to stop it apart from keeping on with the Cit and having therapy 

      I will be seeing my other Doc next week who is older and I feel more able to talk to and have more confidence in so will see if he can shed any light on this set back?! 

      Im hoping still that it's just a case of the Cit hasn't quite settled into my system and there's still time?🙏

      Calm and relaxed seems a life time ago at the mo 😕

      Big hug x

    • peggy93882
      peggy93882 pamela30172

      Posted

      Hi Pam,  I had my thyroid checked not to long ago.  I'm already on Synthroid for the last 15 years for that but you still have to have it checked every year. Are you still feeling bad..  I havent felt good for 2 weeks now and have no explanation as to whats going on.  I will see my PA next week which seems like an eternity. Let me know how things are going and keep taking the Cit. til we see whats going on.
    • pamela30172
      pamela30172 peggy93882

      Posted

      Hi Peggy

      after a blah 😒 day yesterday .....nurse in morning for blood test followed by Doc after who basically told me nothing ....sympathetic though he was ....followed by dentist in afternoon for two fillings ......I decided to take a tranquilliser last night along with my Cit and managed to sleep really well....so.....today after a late get up I took myself of for my walk and am now feeling pretty good 👍.....long may it last 

      Hope you start to feel better soon Peggy .....this roller coaster is certainly testing us isn't it ?! 😕

      I'll be thinking of you xx

  • carol87925
    carol87925 pamela30172

    Posted

    Pamela I'm new to this forum & to this drug. Been on 20mg 5 days feel a little better today but it's been rough. Hate to hear you had a relapse after feeling better. It's very comforting to have someone to talk to. I can't drive at the moment or even go in a store with husband without getting the shakes & feel like I might pass out. Hopefully it gets better for all of us. Husband outta town til Sunday which means I'm alone trying to fight the panic feeling.
    • The_sleepy_crow
      The_sleepy_crow carol87925

      Posted

      Hiya Carol

      don't feel that you are on your own this weekend. Lots of members log-on to this website everyday. I am sure that I am one of several members who can help you get through this early phase. You will feel better. Believe in yourself - you are stronger than you think. When you feel panicky - try abdominal breathing as this will help to calm you. 

      i'm a non-driver at the moment too - I get so worked up beforehand that the fear overwhelms me. However, I feel that I am getting stronger day by day and I will start to regain control again. With the car - I plan to use 'graded exposure'. One day, I sat in the car for 5mins. Another day, I'll reverse the car out of the driveway & back again. Another day I'll drive 5mins to my local co-op etc....I'm setting myself small achievable goals that I know I have the courage to do this.

      take it easy - one day at a time. 

      Hugs - sleepy crow x

    • carol87925
      carol87925 The_sleepy_crow

      Posted

      Thank you very much your very comforting. One thing my doc didn't say a thing about side effects nothing. Just said you'll feel fine in a week! Ha after reading some of these posts doc knows nothing!
    • carol87925
      carol87925 The_sleepy_crow

      Posted

      Until I found this forum thought I must be the only one in the world feeling like this.
    • pamela30172
      pamela30172 The_sleepy_crow

      Posted

      Hi Carol and sleepy crow

      more brilliant support and advice sleepy! 😊

      My problem is really more just the physical symptoms of the anxiety that alarm me ....the shaky feeling and jittery tummy

      I haven't trouble going out or driving or being around people ....in fact I'm better then....I find it hard to relax at home and am unsettled and restless...would love to just be content to sit with a brew and a book or a telly programme but am too jittery at mo to enjoy or settle....it's very frustrating and not a nice feeling!

      I suppose it just affects people in different ways but it's awful however it strikes and hard to cope with!

      Since Monday I have been much better ......just still as I say struggling to relax and still a bit of an ongoing jittery feeling but no tears and much more rational....so....hopefully back on the right path?! 

      It's VERY early days for you and hopefully within the next couple of weeks things will start to settle and improve for you 

      People like Sleepy Crow on here are an amazing support and wiil always give good sound advice

      Just come on here anytime and spill how you're feeling and someone will be hear to listen and try to offer you reassurance

      Keep going......we will ALL GET THERE!! 

      Big hugs xxx

    • The_sleepy_crow
      The_sleepy_crow carol87925

      Posted

      Hey Carol

      i guess your doc didn't want to worry you - most drugs have side effects - the key thing is to register whether the benefits of you taking the drug outways the negative risk - personally, I am grateful that the drug is there for patients  as it has given me some breathing space.

      i imagine that some of us may experience more side effects than others - I guess it depends on your normal everyday serotonin levels.

      the way to look at this situation positively is to believe that you are taking the necessary steps forward to get back to feeling like your normal self.

      hang on in there - you are on the journey to recovery & being a happier person

      take it easy

      sleepy c xxx

    • vivienne19443
      vivienne19443 carol87925

      Posted

      hi Carol 

      I am on my own this weekend too in fact my husband doesn't get back until Thurs  so let's get through this together I will be thinking of you and hoping you can stay strong you are not on your own and can share your feelings here anytime and someone will help you 

      hugs VivxxVivxx

    • vivienne19443
      vivienne19443 carol87925

      Posted

      Hi Carol

      Just thinking of you hope you are managing to get through the weekend Ok I had a good night last night and keeping busy helping my son with his lesson plans for his Prac teaching .Helping my daughter with her study timetable and then I will tackle cleaning the bathroom It's raining here in Oz very heavily but we need it Hope you are well just keep busy and spoil yourself a bit 

      Takr care V

    • carol87925
      carol87925 vivienne19443

      Posted

      Hi vivienne thanks for checking on me. So far so good. I washed some windows, tried to read a little. Had a couple almost panic attacks but took deep breaths & got thru it.  Hope your weekend is going ok too!
    • vivienne19443
      vivienne19443 carol87925

      Posted

      Hi Carol 

      glad you are getting through the weekend I have finished my chores and having a break Glad to hear you managed to control the panic It's not always easy is it. But full marks for trying Once we stop being afraid the panic subsides.

      the sun is out now and my two cats curled up next to me

      Talk again soon I was born in England but have lived in Australia (OZ)for many years

      Will let you know what my doctors say on Wednesday

      So far this weekends been good no panic we can only live in hope 

      V

    • carol87925
      carol87925 vivienne19443

      Posted

      Interesting I'm having a pretty good weekend also! Yay! I live in Washington state but my mom was from Brisbane . 

      Lets keep u feeling good!

    • vivienne19443
      vivienne19443 carol87925

      Posted

      Hi Carol

      Just about to start my day, Lovely to hear your cheery words. Woke up feeling pretty good so positive start.Hope your week is a good one

      Take care

      V

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