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I feel a bit like I've hit a "brick wall" in recovery from anxious depression. I've been signed off for a couple of months now (and unemployed) but everytime I try to 'sign on' again to look for work I have a meltdown. So far I've been getting on my bike every other day, spending time using things I've learnt from counselling (worry time, keeping a rota - mixed results), eating well and spending what time I can with my partner. Taking time off has helped tremendously but I don't feel stable and the majority of days still... hurt like hell, frankly.
Antidepressants and me don't get along that well; most don't work or oddly enough, make me worse despite a good run on half the SSRIs and mirtazapine. Venlafaxine works.. but pooped out to the point where it wasn't working in the slightest. But the first year on it was great, after that, not so much.
Has anyone been through a similiar situation? My GP tells me only I can decide but I'm torn - I want to push myself but most days I feel like (and do) crawl back to my bedroom out of exhaustion, distress and stay there to sleep, try to make sense of it all or just focus on seeing if I can get any enjoyment out of this free time.
I'll be grateful for any advice
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