so frustrated

Been quite out of it the past few and while I've come on with intentions to write, I seem to "die" after reading.  I do appreciate all the uplifting, all-powerful input by the both of you.  I admire each!

Tomorrow I got for that cardio test which I'm not really nervous because I know I'm in the best of hands.

Doc, I'm sorry to hear you've been ill for a few days.  For us, a few days of illness, takes realistically, weeks to recover fully.  The fact that some thing (else) invades the already weakend body is really, in mind, what strengthens us but nevertheless, it does take more time to recover.  I pray you are on the mend!  You said you were tired yesterday, take advantage of just relaxing and let your body heal.  Even being online takes a lot of energy from us, when not feeling well.

Kylie!  you sounded up! I love it and you deserve it.  You mentioned about helping with horses, is this a love of yours, meaning, did you ride before not being well?  Are your kids interested in this?  I know in the US it's a love not realized by many, as it is far too expensive.

This is going to be a short post but I do promise to post more after I'm feeling on the mend.  This oxygen 24 a day is just too much.  Hopefully after starting treatment, I'll be able to support my own oxygen on my own.

Anyway, love you two and thank you for always being there!

Big hugs all around!

Frustrated

here's my new addition, unfortunate we cannot send via email because I'm not liking this out in open fourm, but he's a sweetheart so here is my recent joy.

Could you ask Alan (Mod, Emis) if he'd add that icon in the private messages for pictures to be allowed?? Thank you!

Regards,

Alan

That will serve most sweetly as a goodnight kiss, for it is time to turn out my light. Goodnight, kkylie, Sleep well.

It is dark yet but I have an early start to a busy day.  Its the Planning meeting. The longest session so I will not be back to the forum until this afternoon. I have new things to learn but mostly I understand that I will be lying on my back on a hard bench under a scanner with the duty of keeping still with a full bladder. The radiogrphers do all the work getting me in exactly the right position for the treatments. I must be exactly in the same position every time and my prostate and my rectum-very nasty if they fry rectum or bladder and you don't know for a year or two if they do. I can take my own music but listening to music with background noises is very irritating for me. Deafness is a misery. So I shall lie quietly and think of the girls in my life-my loyal, loving sensitive wife,and my e-friends kkylie and frustrated. And my Lord who loves me and gave himself for me and brought me these three lovely supports. I hope to write again much later today. Meanwhile I hope you find some joy amidst your trials. Your loving friend, George

I hear a loneliness in your words.  Do not despair my friend, you are never alone.  I can't imagine what you are going through but just the time we've been able to talk, you seem strong and a very wise man.  God Bless our partners, right?  I've found solace in the words you shared with me when I was at my low. Thank you.

Kylie, I cannot thank you enough for opening this discussion as it brought 3 people together that otherwise wouldn't have had this opportunity.  You've given me strength.  I feel like I've lacked in this area for you.  You're in my prayers that whatever your needs are or if you need strength, that can happen for you.

Doc, sometimes, I found, that by going as low as one can possibly go, the light finally shines.  It is my prayer that you are taken care of and that you can live a long, well-loved life. 

I'm at a loss for words now, I'll let this sit and perhaps come back in a while.  Know that I'm thinking of you and Kylie.

Your friend, now and everafter!

Frustrated

That set the great tenor song in the film Student Print ringing in my head. I value friends but never have liked to have a great crowd of them. Now with marked deafness my activities are greatly curtailed. I have been using two aids for many years now. Worse, I am sensitive to loud noises (hence the old joke 'don't shout, I am not deaf'.  That cuts out cinemas, many restauants and all but one evangelical church in my district.I find it true that deafness is more isolating than blindness. I don't think blind people are blamed for not seeing. Deaf people often are  for not hearing. eg "Of course you knew. You were there." etc Communicating by text then is a joy for me.

Amen, frustrated. Where would we be without our partners. We have them by the Lord God's good wisdom for he knew it was not good for man to live alone. And there is the answer to the cynic's unbelieving question, "Did Adam have nipples." I answer, "Of course. God knew he would make Eve.

And yes, yes YES. I afirm it gratefully again. I believe she was inspired by God's good grace to open the discussion and that by that same good grace we were brought to join in. I bless kkylie for blessing us in opening this discussion.

Thank you for that encouragement, frustrated. I do feel well loved. The number of years ahead of me does not worry me me so long as I see my wife safely homeward as she desires. She loves me so well it is the least I can desire and pray for her. So my prayers in this respect are not born or misery but hopeful expectation.

Many thanks frustrated, your friend George

Sleep well both of you, Kylie and Doc!

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BIG big BBIIGG hug from Doc!

I'm hoping  you're doing well.  I haven't received any notices of activity in this discussion so I thought perhaps you're taking a break or something.  Anyway, I hope you're doing well.

Frustrated