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sue08
sue08

I broke down and baught a bottle of wine, drank over half of it.

Its been 14 weeks and I blew it... have no good reason why, just did .. when I think back never had to have a good reason

I just pray I can doo it again ... only for final

I wish my daughter was here for me to talk to but no one ... sorry to lay my problems on you all but am very greatful for this site ... very sad

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  • daisyjo
    daisyjo sue08

    Posted

    Just to echo what other people have said. Hope you're feeling better now and as proud of yourself as you deserve. It's a bumpy road and it takes courage to travel down so stay strong. It's a bottle of liquid - don't give it that power over you.
  • charl15
    charl15 sue08

    Posted

    Talking is good for u to do. Where is ur daughter. X
    • sue08
      sue08 charl15

      Posted

      She had the nerve to go on holidays lol
  • Radley13
    Radley13 sue08

    Posted

    Hi Sue, it's hard not to beat yourself up - emotions what ever the reason - I gave up for 80 days and relapsed - I then gave up for another 43 days and relapsed each time I have felt sad, let myself down and everybody around me.  It is true it is a pointless exercise getting upset with ones self - yesterday was history and today is a new day.  You have done so very well - what medication are you on?

    I am ultimately grateful to have found this site and have become so much more knowledgable and trying to get to the root of why I drink - I feel that I am not on my own.  I do hope you have a better day Sue

    • sue08
      sue08 Radley13

      Posted

      This site is my medication, I am on nothing... the people on this site has helped me so much I am so very greatfull to everyone smile

      Thank you smile

  • sue08
    sue08

    Posted

    You are all right... its a new day smile
    • rachel89617
      rachel89617 sue08

      Posted

      It is and sue I had two or 3 comments on my post, you've had all this support!

      Feel the love :-) xx

  • rainbow2014
    rainbow2014 sue08

    Posted

    Hi again Sue . I liked the half full bottle comment too but being a realist and knowing I thought perhaps you had done the whole bottle thing .

    I feel you have been so honest , that means more than any silly bottle of wine .

    Please feel happy with that smile you've been amazing and an inspiration to us all smile

    I've cut my drinking by half which means half a bottle a night from one or one and abit !!!

    I've done it and feel proud smile If I have a bottle now I say .... hey , its ok and its my fault I have a bad head

    Stay on track , take care x

    • keith02
      keith02 rainbow2014

      Posted

      hi rainbow, you're absolutely right in what you say. if we slip up, we pick ourselves up and move on. it's human nature to dwell on a perceived "failure" and forget about weeks and weeks of hard graft.

      I had a wobbler the other day and I'm sure I'll have many more, but if I stay on the right track 95% of the time, it's better than before.

      Good luck :-)

    • rainbow2014
      rainbow2014 keith02

      Posted

      Yes , I agree Keith

      We are all human and I think we should take things day by day

      Good luck with everything also smile

  • lynne84395
    lynne84395 sue08

    Posted

    I really feel for you. I am in a terrible place. I stopped taking my Nalorex as ran out and have blown everything with my family. I wasn't expecting visitors and my son and daughter in law and kids turned up on Sunday. I had been drinking and they knew it. It is so awful I am so ashamed to have let them all down and myself.

    needless to say and understandably they are very upset and told all the family. No one will speak to me. I was in re hab ten years ago and went nearly eight years sober. I can't afford to do it again any anyway I know I have to keep going, work at it and get back on track.

    my family have lost patience. I binge then nothing but I know I can't even have one.

    it is like I was on self destruct everything was going well, everyone was pleased. I am gutted.

    i am now two days sober back on the Nalorex but feel so isolated it is all my own doing. I so want to get back on track.

    sorry to off load on you.

    • sue08
      sue08 lynne84395

      Posted

      Dont be sorry go ahead and load on me, every needs to be able to load onto someone smile

      Talk to your faily even if they wont talk to you... you talk even if it has to be a note, email what ever. Tell them what you are doing and why.

      If you need people to talk to and ideas on what to do.... ask you have come to  the right place to do so smile

      Good luck to you and good for you to be on day two .... I have learnt its all one day at a time smile

    • rachel89617
      rachel89617 lynne84395

      Posted

      Big hugs did now you will have to look on us as your family ❤️
    • PaulJTurner1964
      PaulJTurner1964 lynne84395

      Posted

      You haven't blown it at all. You had a slip, you learned a lesson (you cannot drink without the drug) and you are putting it right. It sometimes takes a little time to rebuild the trust but you will.

      Just tell your family the truth about what happened and promise them that you won't allow your Nalorex to run out again.

      And good luck! smile

    • lynne84395
      lynne84395 PaulJTurner1964

      Posted

      Thanks Paul am trying so hard but I don't blame them not trusting me I wouldn't in their shoes. Will not run out again!

      they are so disappointed in me yet again...

    • PaulJTurner1964
      PaulJTurner1964 lynne84395

      Posted

      Alcohol addiction is an illness which is not your fault. You have a biological difference which is why you got into difficulty with alcohol. For years, people with alcohol problems have been blamed and made to feel guilty for their problem and I think that is appalling. Now the new thinking, after Sinclair's research is that the issue is medical and not behavioural.

      You need to change how you see yourself and they need to begin to understand that this problem is not your fault. Yes, it is up to you to resolve it, but you didn't choose the problem.

    • lynne84395
      lynne84395 PaulJTurner1964

      Posted

      As usual Paul you have helped me. I just cannot get through to my family that it is an illness nothing will get them to see that. I feel very isolated and am being punished. I would l really appreciate some pointers as to how to view myself. I really feel such a failure over this and have let everyone down.Many thanks for taking the time to post. This forum is a lifeline.
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