Suicidal thoughts.

Brandon, this must be awful for you.

What do your parents and your doctor have to say about your problems?

They say that it my fear is just fiction, that is all the say. My life is completely awful right now.

From what you have described I feel fairly certain that your fears are very real to you.

Do you have anyone at all that you feel comforable discussing your problems with?

I do see a therapist, but he doesn't help me sadly. I think my last option is taking some medicine. Talking doesn't work anymore.... I'm so sad...

Brandon, I think you will find that most people have at some time experienced irrational fears like this, but the thoughts seldom persist once, as you say they are classified in the mind as 'rediculous'.

Half the problem is realising that they are rediculous in the first place. The rest of it is down to common sense and basic survival instinct.

I have noticed today that the fear is getting less and less powerful now.

Honestly though, I hate my mind. All the things it comes up with is ridiculous and dumb and makes me think that I am insane..

Very well done.

Try to keep up the good work and do not give in to irrational thoughts.

You will be surprised just how good your life will become after a while.

All it demonstrates to me is that you have a good solid imagination that needs a bit of control.

Our human imagination is one of the greatest things that differentiates us from the animals and without it we wouldn't be human.

If it hadn't been for newton's imagination we would never have known about gravity, and if it hadn't been for Eratosthenes imagination we would still think that the earth was flat.

There is nothing wrong with your imagination Brandon, all you have to do is to control it and not pay attention to irrational ones.

It is now up to you to say to yourself...this is my most excellent imagination playing tricks on me again.

I have confidence in you to do it Brandon, now you have some confidence in yourself.

It feels so wierd.. in the edge of my mind it feels like something will happen...

Brandon, please try to explain your thoughts to me as they are now.

Well, scenes of my dying usually play in my head when I start to feel something weird in my chest or stomach.

Just to put your mind at rest, in cases of intense anxiety it is not unusual for the chest to tighten and the stomach to react - this is just part of the course.

The question is, do you really believe that at this moment there is the slightest chance of you dying?

Incidentally, have you had anything to eat today, and if so what and when?

I ate a sandwhich today, just a normal one with lettuce and meat. Sometimes I do think I am going to die right at that moment.

Thanks for getting back to me Brandon.

I am very certain that you are not going to die.

It is very clear to me that your anxiety attacks are sometimes getting the better of you, and when that happens you feel that it is the end of the world.

I'm also sure that in your heart you know that all these fears you experience are irrational, and if you could only just believe this then your quality of life would improve by leaps and bounds, and I think you would  be a much happier person.

Do you think it would help you if you made it your ambition/ target to be a much happier person, and strive every day to tell yourself 'today has been good, so let's now aim for another good day tomorrow'?