Suicidal thoughts in perimenopause please help!!

Dear Wildfire,

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.  I have had similar thoughts from time to time and they can be extremely frightening.  I have learned that my peri hormonal unbalance can cause such thoughts.  Please keep searching for a doctor who will be of help and will really listen to your concerns.  I suggest you immediately seek a recommendation from your physician for a psychologist/psychiatrist so that you can talk through your feelings and also your concerns about your medication not working.  Do not give up hope!  There are many options that may help you.  You are not alone in your feelings!  Please keep the ladies on this post updated on your progress.  Love and hugs--Sarah

Dear Wildfire wherever thoughts that you have right now  YOU ATR NOT ALONE we all are right here with you feeling for you at the same journey being a woman is beautiful and challenging. Don't quit you had received here so many great suggestions, personally I will drop wherever I am doing and will call Samaritans immediately.  Don't let your mind wondering being it to present writting here everything you feel is what I do and believe me help a lot with anxiety. Once you feel better think in new medical opinions about the anti depressants that you are taking to see if it is the right treatment for you. Love ?? 

I am in peri and have the same. I try to be around people all the time, it helps. I am experimenting with herbal estrogens, I think they help a little with mood. I am not sure if the antidepressant helps or the opposite?

No, it's not normal.  So, don't let your gyno demean you.  Find another.  There is a theory that depression is caused by feelings of suppressed anger.  Women have been taught from infancy that getting angry and expressing their needs are "wrong" and "not nice."  Without the ability to be who they are, they become angry.  And, years of suppressed anger can bring on depression.  (That's the short version.)

When I was suicidally depressed, I was actually highly angry, due to the circumstances I was experiencing and factors that made it seem impossible for things to get any better.  

I suggest that you try a different antidepressant, and maybe find a support group.  I was on Zoloft for a year and a half.  Circumstances around me changed, and somehow, I was able to find my way back. 

Take care, and don't think of taking yourself out of this crazy world.  We all need you. xx

Hi...

So sorry you are feeling like this.. you are not alone and I have been through the same and it's horrible..

Remember it will pass.. try and find someone you can really open up to and get all these thoughts out... you will be surprised how many women go through this... Keep in touch on this wonderful forum... xxxx

Hi wildfire.  I am also very sorry you are feeling this way.  I have my moments too.  Please know that we are all going through this together.  Even though we can't meet in person, we can come on here for support.  I try to keep telling myself it is just the hormones making me feel this way.  And remember that I do have good days sometimes and to just hold on for those again.  Please find a doctor that can help you!  Stay on here as much as possible until you are feeling better.  ((BIG hugs))

Hi wildfire 123

 

I don't know if your still on here.  I am going through exactly the same thing and have been so ill with suicidal depression, I have attempted suicide because things are so bad, it has been so difficult one the last two years persuading my doctor that it is menopause related. I'm ok hrt and anti depressants but they haven't helped.  I'm waiting to see a menopause specialist to see if they can help.  So I know exactly how you feel and you are not alone, I thought I was until I read your message.  I hope things have got better for you, have you found anything that helps?  Take care

You know, I used to think how selfish people were to contemplate or commit suicide. But my eyes have been opened this past year and a half as to how wrong I was. Now I can see how it feels to be so down and so sick how one could consider this. 

But know this, the world is a better place with you, with us, in it. There are always people to talk to who understand. All the amazing strong women on this forum, they know, they really know. Stay strong, talk about it, keep getting help. If the antidepressant didn’t work, try a different one that might. Force yourself to go out. Watch funny movies. Help other people out by your experiences. And know that indeed our hormones are playing tricks on us right now and we need to hang in there and know that things WILL get better. ??

I feel it too - very scary. I thought I was going crazy and a friend spent two days with me and said, this might be hormonal. I'm seeing a specialist next week, I pray he can help. How are u doing now?