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I cant fo on. Ive lived like a hermit under my duvet for nearly a year. Im a skinny disgusting mess because im so petrified of my palps. Ive had an exh n other tests and at the time they alwyas seem to srop. My gps surgery make me see a different doctor every time and the cardio says therees no cure live with ut as we dont know if tour palps are from afib or not until we catch them. Im angry and smash things and cry all day. I was a karate chempion and rider vut my life has fone at 40. I am waiting to die and have my funural weitten down. I have nothing now. I have not bothered telling my gp i feel like this as im refusing to see any of them. They gave me bisoprolol and already reading the next parients notes. Sorry to sound angry but i could scream and think if youre foing to kill me do it now instead of me auffering lime tgis. Like a sying rabbit on a road . Im so so sad and have no life and a gp told me yesterday. Will alwyas get them and they will get worse and worse. Imagine how im feeling now. I feel suicidal but only want to feel that way as i cant live like this anymore if that makes sense.. Help me xxxxxx

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    You definitely need to get off the valium.  That truly isn't doing you any good.

    You need to set a good example for your daughters.  AF is heridatory you know.

    I lost my younger brother to cancer and he never complained once and suffered excruciatingly for years with cancer.

     

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      I waant on here for pity or a lesson in motherhood. Im sorry about your brother bit i think your comment was quite nasty.

      I shall leave this aite now thabks to you as i dontnees another thought my kids are going to fo through this thanks.

      Thanks to all the nice people who were kind and understanding xxxx

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    You care enough about yourself to write this cry for help so-you do have some hope!!  you are obviouslt depressed-make an appt witht he doc to get some scripts for a (heart friendly) anti dep like mirtazapine?

    xx

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      Ellen62 and I probably have the same opinion - Ibiza1977 is very sick mentally and needs help- if she can snap out of her destructive cycle and actually get to a professional.
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      Yes you're totally right.

      She's certainly not a good role model.

      There are so many people out there of varying ages, a lot much younger than she who have extremely serious illnesses that don't look for pity.

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      Some people may find me hard and opinionated, true. But, I worked with disabled people who have pain that never goes and limbs missing, they stay cheerful and do everything to make the carer job easier. I do not have a lot of patience with mental illness .
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    Why do drs..say afib weakens the heart and could give you heart failure..?
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      I would be interested to know who has told you that AF weakens the

      heart and presumably therefore affects adversely longevity. My consultant and GP advised me strongly not to risk ablation (I am 75yrs old with a symptomatic permanent AF) and told me that,treated or untreated, my AF would not make any difference to how long I would live.

      Don

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      Hi Jay

      My comment had a misprint Ie 'a symptomatic' should have read 'asymptomatic' meaning that I don't have any symptoms. My medication, for some time now, has been 150 mg of Dabigatran (blood thinner) twice a day and 5mg of Bisoprolol once a day.

      Don

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      Well it goes to show if you have a roomful of doctors/consultants faced with a diagnosis you'll get at least two prognoses. An EP I consulted about my paf (and who advised ablation) told me that prolonged arrhythmia does weaken the heart valves/muscles as the heart is built for sinus rhythm.

      I must say that I'm amazed that the  heart can work at all when I'm in fibrillation.

       

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