The emtional aftermath of a binge
Posted , 12 users are following.
I dig and dig for some of that happiness I had over 10 days ago...and all I get is despair.
?I am restless, cranky, keep having crying spells, nothing makes me me happy, not food, not tv...not typing.
Each time I go to the hopsital....is Worse.....
This time my sodium level was critically low.
Much lower would be coma and then death.
?It took Drs 3 days to raise the level to normal and they have to be strategic because when done too fast...it can be just as dangerous.
?I went back and fourth about feeling ridiculous about going BACK to the hosiptial as my last stay was only a month ago.
NEVER...question yourself...if you THINK you need to go....than YOU NEED to go.
?I'm glad I went....now to get by this horrible, empty feeling I have....even thou I have not had a drink in 5 days...there is not yet happiness or relieve....just pain.
This too shall pass.
2 likes, 46 replies
vickylou Misssy2
Posted
No point in going to A&E after drinking in the uk. Certainly no tea and sympathy. If you're lucky you'll get a leaflet about alcohol centres, poked in a dark corner and forgotten about
vickylou
Posted
Or you end up going home as you're the last person to be seen and you've waited for about 5 hours already, and you're fed up with the constant stares and whispering from the nurses station. So I've been told various times, not from personal experience.
hope4cure vickylou
Posted
That's pretty much the way it is in the states too. Especially if you don't have the right insurance. Stray dogs are at least given a warm place to stay, food and medication if needed. It's incomprehensible that most suffering form this disease are treated so inferior due to attitudes that are still godsmacked with the old stigmas related to AUD.
H4C
ADEfree hope4cure
Posted
Well said, h4c. I think there needs to be a campaign of shame against this sort of nonsense. There are meds that can help people turn this around, right now. Today.
Where do people generally end up? I understand the Alcohol Treatment centers aren't offering much either and won't take people that are intoxicated.
hope4cure Misssy2
Posted
Its so hard to hear that you were in the hospital again. I understand how the mixture of feelings that can be so overwhelming while going thru treatment. Good to see your back posting. Hope your feeling well.
All winter until last month my son went thru relapse after relapse. I tried to support him yet he cannot seem to get the medical system to help him. He has to travel 2 hours to a hospital that will take him when he is sick.He has had al poisoning many times at .41 BAC then induced into a coma. Last time it took 4 days for the hospital to sober him up.
In the states a law has been passed by congress that AUD must be treated as a disease long term & qualify for SSDI and many states do not follow thru due to the hoops they must jump thru to qualify. Need a lawyer and advocate for AUD.
In some states the courts are now making the drug Vivitrol (Naltrexone)weekly injection, mandatory treatment because the courts are backed up with AUD convictions. This frees up the courts and helps some get treatment.
AUD is like a tsunami rolling in from the sea wiping out not only my son but everyone & everything in its path , family, friends, relationships, children, jobs & a future.
I sent him this on relapse. Maybe this will help .
What leads to relapse? Why is addiction a chronic, relapsing disease? Relapse is not the failure of treatment but part of the disorder. Through repeated al use, the brain's "stop" system has been compromised, making it difficult to resist al triggers. It needs to be reset. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) is recognized as the most successful technique for strengthening the brain's "stop" system along with a co-med treatment designed for individual treatment. Not one size fits all.
Hope you get back on track with treatment soon.
Peace & Heeling
H4C
Misssy2 hope4cure
Posted
ugh, when I read all this...I can only reinforce to myself how lucky I am to have the hospital so close and so willing to revive me everytime I call.
?They certainly know my address.
?Hopefully, time will pass and I won't be doing that again...no good ever comes from it ever.
hope4cure Misssy2
Posted
Yes I agree.many states now keep med records online. My son is labeled as a habitual offender and uncooperative after many years of al treatment & jail.
You are very fortunate to have treatment available. I don't know ur all your circumstances.
It might be time to apply for SSDI. One less worry financially? Info online.
peace & heeling
H4C
ADEfree Misssy2
Posted
tess33005 Misssy2
Posted
Misssy Misssy Misssy WELCOME BACK.
We were so worried about you.
I'm sad you're in emotional pain, darling. I'm glad you went to hospital. I'm glad they made you better - in terms of sodium content.
Now you have to carry on the fight. You can do it. You've done it before.
You're an inspiration.
We love you.
xxxxxx from Tess and Jim
patricia44773 Misssy2
Posted
I hope you start to feel better soon, my thoughts are with you. Hang on in there.
Pat xx
tess33005 Misssy2
Posted
Hi Misssy,
This message is from Paper Fairy, who is having the same difficulties as VickyLou in posting messages.
I messaged her this morning to tell her you were back, and added THANKS BE TO GOD.
She's been trying all morning to post a message here to you. So she has just called me and asked me to tell me that she's thrilled you're back, and will try to find out why her IT devices won't work on this forum.
She also added THANKS BE TO GOD.
love Tess, on behalf of Paper Fairy. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Misssy2 tess33005
Posted
woke up today a little lighter....I had talked to my mother yesterday who I had also had a falling out with....all these family disconnects have pushed me beyond what I can handle.
?I'm feeling a little ill in my stomach this morning..but it is all probably related to the last week that I have had.
?Thank you to you, Jim and paper for caring, it means alot.
hope4cure Misssy2
Posted
Good to hear your feeling better and mending family ties. u have a lot of support here.
one day at a time.
H4C
hope4cure tess33005
Posted
Tess ask paper to write her reply on email first. Then copy and paste to this site for reply. A lot less aggravating. I hope you are both well.
peace & heeling
H4C
gwen45436 Misssy2
Posted
Hello Misssy - glad you are back hunni
xx
Misssy2 gwen45436
Posted
me too (and thank you)....the emotional stuff is much harder this time thou....I'm struggling...I don't want to drink...I just feel sad.
gwen45436 Misssy2
Posted
Yes girl, emotional stuff has me in its grip - defo reason why I drink - I do want to drink and I feel sad!!!!!! - Bad combo - I understand why you feel sad - beautiful family (but your pics disappeared which I am not happy about - and have told Moderator) I wish I could say I don't want to drink like you have said - but I do - this is awful babe - just keep posting and sharing - it certainly helps me and it will you.
Huge hug x
Misssy2 gwen45436
Posted
The moderator told me they removed the pics for my safety because of internet horror they don't want me exposing my family to any trouble.
Sad world we now live in.
gwen45436 Misssy2
Posted
tess33005 hope4cure
Posted
her Ipad has just broken now!
Is God trying to tell paper something lol.
it's ok, I'll phone her, Gwen.
XX Tess