Tomorrow Starts Today
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I'm pretty sure that today is the day. I've always drank since my younger days but never realized I abused it until recently. Even when I did think about it before it was an afterthought. Until now. I notice myself not necessarily deteriotating, but being a shell of the man that I used to be. No progress. I've beeen consistently drinking 40 ounces of beer or cheap liquor. Basically whatever's wet. Along with cigarettes, I'm a mess. My wife is a beautiful,strong, independent woman. It kind of crushed me to hear her say she loves me but has no respect for me. You see when I drink, I guess like anyone,I don't make the best choices. So at times,well all the free time I have,I drink out of boredom. And now I'm here. My willpower is low, if I have any at all. I want to find me again. And the drinking is clogging my vision. And those urges ain't no joke. But I want my soul back. I definitely have noticed that've I've had my soul stolen. I'm tired of fighting demons. So I'm going to go cold turkey and do what I have to do to overcome my trials and tribulations. Thanks for lending me an ear or in this case your eyes.. I'm curious to meet who I used to be before all the spiraling out of control or that great person I'm destined to become. I don't even know what it's like to be by myself. I'm scared of my own company. But this is something that needs to be done. So as I start my mission, thanks for for this outlet everyone
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vickylou troy83653
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I don't see anything in misssys post to take issue with
I would however discuss going cold turkey with your GP. He/she can prescribe medication on a short term basis
As regards taking chlordiazepoxide (librium) or diazapam (Valium) for a week in order to detoxify, you are not going to get addicted in a week. Yes lily these drugs can become addictive when taken continuously, but taken with medical supervision and on a short term basis can make withdrawal less painful, and lower the risk of relapsing. Scaremongering the op about taking medication, is IMO not very helpful. Withdrawal from alcohol suddenly can result in seizures. I'm not saying that either Librium or diazapam are magic pills and will take withdrawal away, but they do help. Stopping drinking alcohol suddenly can do more harm than good. It is still unclear how many units the op is consuming.
lily65668 vickylou
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I'm all in favour of limited benzos being prescribed for the immediate come-down period. The problem is that they're too easy to obtain on-line these days. This is what happened to many of the people I've spoken to. The diazepam or whatever gave them a relatively easy initial ride, their doctor rightly refused to prescribe any more, so they got hold of it on-line, thus substituting one addiction for another.
Benzos are a useful tool when coping with withdrawal, and a short course can be very helpful and certainly won't produce addiction. But they should be treated with caution and used strictly according to medical directions. Too many people (including doctors in the past) have sadly seen them as a "magic bullet".
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RHGB lily65668
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No, the system is wrong. I've been prescribed diazepam twice in the last 6 or 7 months. One packet does me, and it is done in four days.
If my GP won't give it to me, then I am quite within my rights to purchase it. The same way that people here purchase Campral, Nalmefene & naltrexone, because the people in charge of handing it out, don't have much of an understanding of it.
Why should I be told to go cold turkey, because someone deems not in need of diazepam. The import business exists, because our internal system is failing people.
Before you say it, I did take note that you are in favour of benzos.
lily65668 RHGB
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You clearly understand this potentially addictive drug and are able to follow the rules. Sadly, this isn't true for everyone, so I still believe a few caveats are necessary on a forum like this one, where we can't assess the vulnerability or personal situation of everyone who posts. Not everyone has your strength of will and your grasp of the nature of benzos. As Alonangel says, she's "been there" and learned the hard way.
Peace!
Lily
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RHGB lily65668
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I said, 'I can't lie to you, I don't have the answer' (well, I can lie, I am very good at it, if needs be, but I am basically an intrinsically honest person). 'But what I do know, is what will happen if you say no. I can tell you, I will go down the pub at lunchtime, because I don't want to cold turkey. But also, I don't want to/my body can't carry on drinking, therefore I need a longer term plan and if the medical system can't help me, then I need to look elsewhere'.
I got my diazepam, but what do you think would have happened if I'd been turned away? You are left between a rock and a hard place, until the alcohol recovery centres/services steep up to the plate and are forced to offer NHS approved drugs, GPs should be allowed to help the patients that they know best.
It isn't a case of being to easy to get them on the internet, it is a case of it being too hard to get them through the proper channels which can be monitored for patient safety.
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vickylou lily65668
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I am with RHGB on this. It isn't the case of diazapam being too easy to obtain. It's more like my GP won't prescribe diazapam, I don't want to resort to alcohol, so what choice am I left with? - ordering on-line.
IMO if a person has capacity to order on-line, they also have capacity to read and understand that it's for short term use only, and continued use can lead to addiction.
I'd love to know why some dr's seem to prescribe benzos, whilst on the other hand, many choose not to. Is that because it's easier, or is it simply down to cost.
RHGB vickylou
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But that was many years ago, when doctors used to hand out valium like comfetti - mother's little helper as it was called.
Doctors didn't reallly understand them and because they were handed out long term on repeat prescription, like they were aspirin or something, then it did create a problem.
I understand (from my GP) GMC guidelines are to be careful about prescribing it, but say nothing about it is forbidden to use comon sense and prescribe them where they are needed. To be honest, the amount you got given is exactly the same as I got, both times and seems to be the standard 'allowance'.
A GP that knows his patients is in the perfect person to make a judgement call and they should have been the people (I say they, because I have two GPs allocated to me) to prescribe me Campral, it is pretty much harmless. All that Addaction know, is what medications I am taking and a standard blood test, for some reason they weren't passed any details from my GP. I am glad that they prescribed, and have no complaints, but I still think my GP should have dealt with it.
vickylou RHGB
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People took them for years on repeat prescriptions, and never went near their GP. I've often heard it said that withdrawing from heroine is easier than withdrawing from alcohol. Having never taken heroine, I wouldn't know if that's true or not.
What I do know, and have experienced, is that withdrawing from alcohol can be sheer hell and dangerous. Methodone is given to help heroine users withdraw from heroine, so by the same logic why should alcohol withdrawal sufferers not be offered the same help automatically, I.e. chlordiazepoxide or
diazapam.
By implying that some people don't or can't understand that benzos are addictive, this is fully explained in the patient information leaflets and caveats need to be put in place as the vunerability of people which can't be assessed on a forum, is I feel rather insulting. Would this apply to methodone users too?
As I have already said, it isn't difficult to understand or read information leaflets which clearly state that benzos are not for long term use, I do have capacity to read and understand what I've read
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RHGB vickylou
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When I spoke to her on the phone last week, she said it was a standard letter and didn't affect people like me (she is trying to get my GP to do the Campral prescriptions, whilst Addaction still take responsibility for me). It was, in her own words, more aimed at people who come in for a daily prescription. To which I can only think is methadone.
Whilst waiting, I was looking around at the posters in the room, the ratio must have been 90/10 drugs/alcohol. Maybe some of the issues are a mindset that alcoholism is a bolt on to their core service and it isn't so much of an issue - I made a note to ask them next time what their ration is. I don't think it is an Addaction thing, I think this is probably the same with most of these services.
My point being, they seem to realise the seriouness of a heroin user coming off and don't tell him to write a heroin shots diary and taper it off and come in and have group therapy.
But alcohol withdrawal cold turkey can kill you (especially if you have been a long term user), heroin withdrawal (whilst unpleasant) will not kill you, except in extreme circumstances.
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