Too scared to kill myself, how pathetic
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That's it. I've had about all I can take from this miserable thing we call life. I'm sick of being depressed and having panic attacks.
I want to hang myself, don't ask me why that's my chosen method but it is but I have a death phobia so I'm too scared to do it and gave myself a panic attack instead.
That's irony in its finest form.
It's just not worth it anymore, nothing is.
My life's falling apart and I have absolutely zero will left to carry on this fight.
I'm done.
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fit82595 Dannie1989
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No, you shouldn’t be doing anything, there is much more in life that can give you happiness. Remember, whatever you are going through today is not the end of the world, it is only making you stronger. Please don’t take any step because of which your loved ones will regret.
CT31986 Dannie1989
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Hi,
Just to let you know that you're not the only one experiencing the way how you feel, were a lot. I'm with you, all i wanted rightnow is to end my life to end this nonstop pain. However i can't do that, cause i know that this pain is not permanent its just there now and as the time goes by it will be lessen every single day just have faith and be grateful to be alive each day. always look on the brighter side, focus on the positive things. I know its really hard but we need to give a fight!
jaydnali Dannie1989
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this is literally how ive felt most of my life, terrified of continuing on like this since its so pointless, but too afraid of actually acting on my urges, im afraid of death, but i cant take life anymore either, and im losing my mind- what do we do? i wanna die so badly but im so terrified
daena15942 jaydnali
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i'm sorry for what you're going through, you don't deserve that at all. i don't understand your feelings or what you've gone through, but all i know is that you deserve happiness and healing. i believe there is a way that doesn't result in death and still results in happiness. while i don't know what that is exactly, i know that it exists. it's different for other people i think. try and talk to someone about all of this. i know that that's all that anyone keeps on saying, but it does help. talking to the right people helps. and you will find those people. and i believe that you'll find your way in this life as well. i hope for your safety and happiness and well-being. please stay strong and keep on going.
tara44276 Dannie1989
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I have the same feeling I can't take this feeling this emptiness, it's not about I want to die I don't want to live the life I have and I don't have any other choice to change it. it is been years I'm struggling and no result and I'm tired of fighting so I want rest.Sorry I can't make you feel better or say something to change your mind I can say I understand you
daena15942 tara44276
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i hope you're still here and continuing to fight. it might feel like this for now, but it will never stay for good. there will be better days. i hope and pray and wish for your safety and happiness and freedom from the life you are stuck in, and hope that one day you can choose to live the life that you want. i believe that that day will come and i hope that you are there to see it. please stay strong and keep on going.
Chris260384 Dannie1989
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I'm very sorry if I'm writing this in the wrong place. I'm new here and came across Dannie's post and it's pretty much word for word how I'm feeling also... I will scroll through the comments and see what was said, hope you're feeling better now Dannie, it's such a s**t position to be in!
daena15942 Chris260384
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i hope you're feeling better now. no one deserves to go through this pain at all. im rooting for you in this battle and i believe that you will win. stay strong!
jon07827 Dannie1989
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Hi I get it totally your words are exactly what I am thinking right now.
I have no desire to get more counselling I just have had enough.
I realised last year how difficult is is to end it all and now feel trapped on earth.
only wish its as simple as turning of a switch
I obviously do not know why you feel how you do but I totally get it and hope you can find a way through.
I wish you all the best.
daena15942 jon07827
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i hope that you find a way through too. you deserve happiness and healing and i hope you find it in this life. i really do. maybe you were not speaking to the right person? why not try a hobby out? you might end up loving it. i don't understand what you're going through, but just know that there are better days that will arrive. i wish you all the best. stay strong and keep on going.
BulldogPlata Dannie1989
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hey not sure how its going honestly im in the same boat i find myself so unhappy sometimes and i wish everyday for the courage to end it all i think about ways and scenerios of it happening but im too coward to do it and it makes me sad cause i have two lovely kids and a women who loves me but i still cant take the everyday of life idk what it is but im just so tired of it its been like this since i was a teen so i get how you feel but we gotta keep keepin on and fight for the ones who love us. be safe and good luck in life
daena15942 BulldogPlata
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what you're going through is not your fault at all and you don't deserve any of it. you deserve happiness and love and healing and lots of joy with your family. try and talk to your partner about it or a professional who can help. talking about it can be really helpful and figure out why you feel this way and how to get out of the cycle. i wish you the best. stay strong.
Guest Dannie1989
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i hope youre ok
christina62265 Dannie1989
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I want to give you words of advice and help you but I'm in the exact situation. I want to be done with everything and everyone but idk how. I don't want to be here at all anymore. I just want the easiest fastest way out. I'm 37 years old and my husband has ruined my life. I used to be smart. independent. social. fun. happy. not now....my own children don't even care if I'm here or not. My 18 year old daughter is the only reason I still breathe...but she goes off to college next month and then I really have nothing here. I just know I can't stand this situation I have pit myself in and I'm so disgusted with myself. My parents are the only ones who ever cared about me and they are gone now. No siblings. No friends, well not real ones. No Aunts and Uncles or cousins. Nothing. I've never felt more alone than I do now. I just want out!
jack97367 christina62265
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Hi Christina, The way you are feeling is not your fault. Think of how your daughter would feel if you were gone and think of how much she loves you. She needs you.
ashley23274 christina62265
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Hello Christina62265 I am Ash, how are you at the moment?
You may not have family support, your husband may be a piece of whatever, but, you are not.
You have given the world your beautiful daughter, your 'said' reason to live, but how would she feel if, as soon as she goes off, that you are here no more?
You will probably not see this, but i'll tell you about myself, so you know i'm not just waffling.
I am a 49 yr old male, i got trapped in a relationship with a younger lady, she pretended to be normal, but when she moved in, she became too possessive, demanding and controlling.
I wasn't allowed any friends, i have none left, I don't speak to most of my family, but I had my cats, but four and a half years ago, I lost the last of my little angels, and ever since, i have been praying for some disease or illness to swallow me up, because i don't think i have the courage to end it all quickly.
If i can help someone before i go, then this waste of life, water and breath would have counted. Ash 07923065285