Too scared to kill myself, how pathetic
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That's it. I've had about all I can take from this miserable thing we call life. I'm sick of being depressed and having panic attacks.
I want to hang myself, don't ask me why that's my chosen method but it is but I have a death phobia so I'm too scared to do it and gave myself a panic attack instead.
That's irony in its finest form.
It's just not worth it anymore, nothing is.
My life's falling apart and I have absolutely zero will left to carry on this fight.
I'm done.
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Guest Dannie1989
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Hey @Dannie1989, I'm Aaron. I'm a little older than you, and have found myself in a similar place. For me it's like I have somehow accidentally stayed on this Earth longer than I was supposed too. I've found the mental health system woefully inadequate to address the needs of someone in my situation. If you need accountability let me know. Or if you just need someone to hold your hand while we both jump, let me know. I'm not supposed to be here anyway. All I know is that alone isn't the way to face any of it.
jack97367 Guest
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You seem pretty down man, would you like to talk.
jack97367 Dannie1989
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Hi Dannie,
Have you tried talking to someone you can really trust about how you feel. Even if you feel like there isn't, there always is at least someone or even a pet that would be really sad and broken if you were to kill yourself. Think of how great an achievement it will be if you can get yourself through this and get yourself happy. Focus on that.
jack97367 Dannie1989
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Hi Dannie,
Have you tried talking to someone you can really trust about how you feel. Even if you feel like there isn't, there always is at least someone or even a pet that would be really sad and broken if you were to kill yourself. Think of how great an achievement it will be if you can get yourself through this and get yourself happy. Focus on that.
Tractorgirl81 Dannie1989
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i completely understand where you are coming from you are not alone with these feelings
daena15942 Tractorgirl81
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i support and am rooting for you wherever you are. stay strong.
fit82595 Dannie1989
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You shouldn't be ending your life like this, there is so much in life to do, if you are dealing with anxiety, it is better to consult with a therapist.
ashley23274 Dannie1989
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Hello Dannie1989, how are you doing these days?
I dint know when you sent your message, i hope you are still here, i know what you are going through, many people do, but, sometimes you get to a point where you feel no-one understands. i really hope you're ok, i would love to help, before I feel ended!
ashley23274 Dannie1989
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sometimes, some people just cannot seem to understand your despair, but, i have been at my own end-game for over four years, since i lost the last of my cats, and i have been trying to end it ever since.
Now, I am left with eating child's portions of food, I am sort of starving myself, so like playing the lo game, as i am too cowardly to end it quickly.
maybe someone needs my help first?
kajal88543 ashley23274
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I need some financial help😭😭.I cannot afford food for myself.I don't want end my life
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daena15942 ashley23274
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no one deserves to go through that at all. you don't deserve that. i don't understand what you're going through but i really hope and pray and wish for your safety and healing and happiness which is what you do deserve. i really hope that you're still here. try and talk to someone about all of this. you deserve so much happiness and i hope you will find it in this life. i believe you can.
kajal88543 Dannie1989
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Well, we are very poor and getting two meals of a day is hard for me.I asked for financial help to many friends and relatives but no one cares😟.I know no one will come to help me so ending my life is best decision.Now I understand that money is everything 🥺🥺😓😓 .If someone can help then pls help...😢😢.I don't want to die.
daena15942 kajal88543
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that sounds terrible and you don't deserve that at all. i really hope for your safety and well-being and happiness. please please don't end your life. please stay strong and keep on going. one way you could gather some money is by creating a go fund me page. you can link it here or through social media and spread your story. i believe that people would be willing to help and that there is still humanity left. i really hope and pray and wish that you find what you need and that you are able to get the necessities you need and deserve. please stay strong.
tshepiso29101 Dannie1989
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I'm so tired of being here too. My brain refuses to work right. I've been wanting to go for a while now too. But like you, I'm afraid of the final piece
daena15942 tshepiso29101
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please stay strong and keep on going. know that you're not alone and that there will be better days. there always will be, so please stick around for them. i really hope you're still here.