Too scared to kill myself, how pathetic

hope ur ok. suicidal thoughts are hard hard to fight the impulse,my time is getting lesser. god bless

I feel exactly the same way. I'm a 47 year old male in the UK. My long term relationship fell apart, I have no career, no kids, no home... I can't see the point in living any more. I drink and smoke heavily, hoping to get cirrhosis or cancer, but I think of hanging myself daily. I'm too much of a coward to go through with it, but maybe that's a blessing. I've decided to stick around a bit longer to watch the new series of Succession and Curb Your Enthusiasm, as stupid as that sounds. I hope you can find some reason to stick around a bit longer too, and maybe by the time that thing comes around you'll feel differently.

I really wish you all the best, and hope you can find some happiness in life. Best of luck.

i feel u ... ive attempted 7 times nothing to be proud of now im scaredto cuz i might fail again an wake up sick again.

ive always had thoughts of not living, i wouldnt of put it down too depression it was more about how death was gonna come to me and unless it was dying in my sleep, the thought of how i was gonna really die played on my mind since i was young, i wanted to choose how i died, and yes hanging would of been my choice, but last year my girlfriend who ive been with for 14 years and have a child with change all that for me.

After a massive argument between us the last words i heard from upstairs was her saying "she going" ,, and like an idiot i reply "then go "

my son screams i walk upstairs and find her hanging from the loft hatch , she had taken the ladders up into the loft and jumped and im telling you now that image will stay in mind for ever.

now i managed to cut her down and the police said i saved her but to this day i still think it was a sign for me not too take my own life because the shock to the system after seeing someone you love hang is life changing, for me aleast i dont want to even think how it would of felt if she had died.

l know life can be s**t, u only have to turn on the tv to feel depressed, and i know it feels like no one listens you have hit them with a sledge hammer to get their full attention .

.....always remember that if you cant find any good people in the world then just be one yourself

take care dannie19

Girl, i know you're going through a rough patch at the moment and probably have been for a while. I may not understand what you may being going through, no one does, but i know one thing for certain i that you will get through this. Do not hurt yourself please, i know you dont know me and might be irritated that im saying this but you matter.

I know the feeling. I don't want want to be here anymore. I sat for an hour on my bed with my .45 loaded and chambered, pressed it to my head many times and cowered. What does it mean? why cant I just do it. Does it mean somewhere deep down I don't what to? probably not Does it mean I will never do it? Talk about adding a new layer of hell on top of all the pain we go through. Only option I see now is to stay so fked up on weed until I die. I hate to know there are others who know this pain. I am so sorry you know this.

i doubt ill sound very positive. I pray to God every day hoping for something i want to happen. Sounds silly but i also suffer with ptsd , depression and a family death i havent dealt with. I was just released from a treatment facility for one suicide attempt. i just want a solid sign that God does hear me. When ive really crashed its tough for me to hear anything except my desire to die. I'll say take it a day at a time and do your best to get through it. I dont plan on failing in my next attempt.

I came here because i wanted to find people that struggle like me. I think i want to die because im tired of being me, im person full o anxieties and i struggle alot with social life, its really hard for me and keeping myself fed and working or studying makes me feel reallly not well. I know that i wont kill myself cause i dont like pain and im afraid of it, also i dont want to be known for my family and other people as someone who commited suicide (its funny cause i understand people that tried to or take their lifes and i would never said bad things about them cause i know mental health problems are really serious and sad even, its just thinking about me being found dead is embarassing for me). I think its a part of me being ashamed of everything im doing. Im really jealous of people that are genuinely happy with their lifes, im bored and tired and i rarely feel happines. I cant afford to see some doctor immedieatly, and trying to go to the free one will take some time. Tbh i dont think there is even help for me, the world is a bad place and its getting worse everyday. I think i just want to die in a sleep.

Please stay strong i know it is tough but things will improve. Please seek help talk to someone, anyone you have shared on here but now you need to share in person. You need support to get through this and talking with someone will help. There is more to life you will find things to live for you just need to hang in there and take small steps. There is no coming back from suicide no second chances please choose life. x